Dear Diary,

My name is Courtney Leigh Matthews-Tagiloti-Corinthos-Morgan...wow that is a mouthful anyway I have a problem. I'm addicted to pain pills because I got hit by a car and hurt my back I'm trying to get off them but it's so much easier to slip away in a drug-induced haze then deal with my crappy life. Ya I know coward oh well guess that mob blood is a little thin. Victor found out and if you think Sonny is protective, obsessive, tyrannical, annoying then you haven't met Victor. He's my daddy and boy was he pissed Jase was out working so he never knew that I had a visitor at the loft which is good cause I don't feel like explaining crap to anyone. Victor...like Carly won't take no for an answer and I mistakenly gave him a key so he barged in and laid down the law -GET HELP!- I wanted to shout at him -LIKE I DON'T KNOW THAT!- so we do what every father/daughter do, we shouted at each other then cried and hugged and then he left with promises to send not one of my guys but one of his if I get out of control again and I hate 'his' they're annoying and creepy my guys are like M&M-Max&Marco they're really cool.

Well I went out of control and in a haze hit Elizabitch...beth...whatever. Jase took me to the island and he found about the pills and together we dumped them then to take care of the pain cause yeah I still got pain in my back which could be from all the years of abuse but he don't know that so he probably assumed from the accident anyway he got a masseuse...his name was Bret but the best part was when he told him to leave and Jase gave me a massage...oh god now he can massage once you give him some pointers. Hmm I think he should be a masseuse instead of enforcer his hands are soo wonderful. Oh well he'd probably shake his head and kinda blush the way he does which is soo cute.

We got back from our retreat right back into the chaos that is our lives. Carly had her baby-Morgan he is a sweetie Sonny went off the deep end. Guess it runs in our family...I tried to help him and I think I did...don't really know though but then Carly thought she was in love with Lorenzo so that was trouble.

I talked with Lorenzo and he swore he wouldn't touch her just kisses and he would follow her lead because he wasn't sure he could handle her…I laughed and he glared I laughed more and told him that's because only one man can handle her and that's Sonny Corinthos likewise only woman can really handle him and that's Carly Corinthos see they're made for each other. He apologized yet again but I'm still too bitter to hear it I nodded and he knew not to push. Maybe one day we'll be where we were but not yet and he knows that, he's just happy I haven't shown up with a gun...again.

Ya I know that's Jase's job but see ya can't mix business with personal and this was personal so what I do Sonny don't need to know I didn't hurt him...much I just grazed him my aim is shot he said so and we laughed even if he was in pain he said he deserved it and I totally agreed Tamara and Sammie just laughed Victor swore he'd take me to the range to get my aim back up to par.

Ok back to PC life, Carly decided to put herself in Shady Brook thought she was mad for loving Lorenzo…can't blame her anyone who loves him is mad lol he just shook his head when I told him and called me a brat ya we're getting to where we were...slowly. Well I thought Jase/Sonny would send me away with the kids so I took the step before being 'ordered' I don't take orders from anyone! I do what I want and ppl deal...definitely got that from Sonny not to mention my other families…I'm stubborn and ppl deal. Anyway I moved them to Hayes Landing cause A) its not too far from PC B)I have a house there and C)I have connections also from my families. So we were totally safe. Jase flipped and we argued...yet again. He believed I didn't trust him and was questioning him, he just doesn't get that I do things because I feel they're right and I don't give a damn whose pride I walk over if it keeps my family safe they can just get over it.

Brian walked in pretending to fix something...ugh he gives me the creeps I hate that Vic sent him to protect me he totally was checking me out which I was grateful that Jase finally got off his ass and came so he could keep that creep away. I told Vic but he said once Brian stepped over the line I could deal with him because he was offending me. See we let the person take their own revenge not have someone else do it. The Corinthos's take care of their own I get that but I prefer to do it myself for first hand satisfaction.

So we left together and then I moved out gave some lame excuse -I can't handle the business- oh if only they knew but I couldn't be there and deal with Brian plus my families were about to come head to head and that would never work. Carly was still 'with' Alcazar especially when he went 'blind' and boy can we act I totally laid into him and he totally reacted only instead of crying or whatever Carly thought he was trying to keep from laughing he's so easy to lay into I did bring up real issues though but his reactions were what I expected so I'm slowly moving pass the pain I MIGHT be able to have kids but I don't think I'm ready to try...maybe never too much pain and emotional turmoil to deal with.

Sammie came to town and I was so happy to see him Sonny found out hit the roof but before he could send goons...not Jase/Max/Marco but goons after him Sammie left to neutral turf-Hayes Landing and we reunited...god I missed him! Tamara is getting married...wahoo about time! Sonny and Carly are reunited again...well making steps god I hope they stay together PC can't handle another S&C breakup!

Corey

Dear Diary,

I shot Brian...guess my aim is getting better. He was going to shoot Jason and that totally crossed the line because his orders were to protect me and mine which is my husband! Moron! I told Vic and he said he'd take care of it from there and he did...stupid idiot creepy guy is gone. And now I've got to deal with an annoying Aussie play boy...yay dripping in sarcasm.

Jase and I decided to get a divorce and Sonny is with Carly and the kids together no more custody battle. I own the waterfront...gift from Vic. I was a total bitch and pulled the leases from Jase and Sonny they flipped then I sold property to Alcazar I had reasons for the last but whatever. I reinstated their leases and Alcazar still has his and they can deal cause his property is legal he knows not to run drugs if he does it goes bye-bye its happened in AC and I'll do it here I have no problem cause the police don't do anything. The whore is another story not to mention prick.

Ugh I hate him he's with Lexi now I like her she's got spunk under her noble straight nose exterior you just got to dig and find it. Oh and more drama with S&C Sonny slept with Lexi got a daughter, Sonny slept with Spam she's pregnant. Where do I fit in? Oh ya I'm divorced to Jase and trying to keep my family sane.

I saved Alcazar and knocked Jase out not to mention called cops on Sonny. Ya why the hell would I do something like that? Easy I made a promise to Luis I would keep Alcazar safe and out of trouble...even if he caused it and I damn well intend on keeping it. Called 'cops' on Sonny to keep him out of trouble I wanted Faith to go down and down she did she lost all respect in AC she had no territory...never really did but...still. Stupid whore tried to threaten me...like I'm freaken scared of her I so could take her out myself.

Cor