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A/N: Thank you very much for all of the reviews so far. I've really enjoyed every single one, and I hope everyone out there reading will keep reviewing. I'm not offended by anything that anyone writes, in fact, I'm very amused by most and absolutely thrilled that I've gotten so many reviews.
Random poll for this chapter, in case anyone out there doesn't want to review because they don't particularly have anything to say: Is Pax alive or dead? If you don't like reviewing, you can just answer 'alive' or 'dead'. Ahah, well, that's my shameless attempt to get everyone to review. Pretty obvious, eh? Well, I just like getting an idea of how many readers there are out there… and I was also surprised at how most people seemed to forget all about Pax, so I was wondering what people assumed.
Anyway, I'm glad the kiss went over relatively well, and I hope this makes sense. I'll have more stammering disclaimers in the next chapter; I don't want to ruin anything. So, here's the next chapter, I hope you enjoy it!
Demon Hunters
Chapter 15: Empty
Raven couldn't feel sorrow over what she had discovered, but she did feel the cold shock of it wash over her. She couldn't feel anger at those who had done it to her, but she could feel the absolute certainty that those who had done this must pay. She pulled away from Beast Boy and yanked her hood over her head.
"Uh. Not that I'm complaining, but where did that come from?" Beast Boy asked, looking up into her hooded face.
"I had to be sure," she said numbly. "Beast Boy, my emotions are gone."
"What? So that kiss… you didn't feel anything?"
She shook her head.
"Raven… I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I don't feel sad or… well, or anything from now on, for that matter." Not happy, or brave, or cowardly… Where was the line between emotion and reaction? She was able to feel relief and shock, but love and hate, those were definitely gone.
"We'll find a way to fix this," Beast Boy promised her.
She nodded, not really believing it. She wished she could feel something, even feeling sad now would be better than feeling so empty. Her stomach growled and she realized that her emptiness might also be because she was hungry. She knew she should feel very upset and forget all about eating, but that simply wasn't the case, so why pretend?
She glanced at Beast Boy, wondering if it would be tactless to try to brush off what had just happened. Without any fear to stop her, Raven gave a mental shrug and said, "So… breakfast?"
Beast Boy nodded speechlessly and followed her out of her room.
They walked silently down the hall. Raven noticed the furtive glances that Beast Boy kept sneaking at her, but she didn't say anything. When they got to the table, the other Titans were already eating. Raven noticed that in her place, there was a carefully arranged plate of food that contradicted their usual buffet style.
She glanced at Beast Boy, who gave her a weak grin. "I thought if you were going to be late, I should make sure you got some food."
Raven smiled, not because she was happy, but because she knew that was what she should do. And she sat. She took a fork in hand and began eating.
The others chattered about the latest video games and the most recent documentary Starfire had forced them to watch, something about the actual ingredients of gum. They carefully avoided the topic of the Demon Hunters until Raven herself finished eating and decided to broach the subject.
"So, what's our next move?" Raven interjected during a lull.
Robin looked at her carefully. "Do you feel up to talking about it?"
"I'm fine," Raven said.
"Well, you spent the most time with them. Did you learn anything?"
Raven smiled grimly. "I learned plenty. They're three siblings. Pax is the youngest, he's the boy. He seems to be an empath…"
Raven launched into a report of everything she had learned, from the actual Hunters themselves to their weapons, describing what she had learned about each of them. And then adding that now, it seemed her emotions were gone. Everyone stared at her in shock, except for Beast Boy, who looked down at his tofu breakfast, a blush creeping across his face. But Raven merely glossed over this new development and put the focus back on the Hunters. She really didn't want everyone's pity. She went on to describe the layout of their lair and the way they interacted.
"And they seem to think they can draw Trigon out of me, and then kill him," she concluded.
"What do you think we should do?" Robin asked, clearly amazed by how much Raven had been able to learn while pinned to a wall and by how easily she could ignore losing her emotions.
"Attack," Raven said without hesitation. The certainty was still there: they must pay. Even without anger, she knew that much.
Starfire looked nervously at Raven. "Despite Raven's report, I think there is much about the Hunters that we do not know. We have yet to explain why they did not destroy us, even when they knew we would attempt to help Raven."
"They're demon hunters, Starfire," Raven reminded her. "You guys aren't demons."
"I mean, they know we are your friends. It would have been much simpler to kill us. I think, perhaps, that if they were truly bad people, the would not have left us alive."
"Are you saying they aren't evil? That trying to kill Raven isn't evil?" Beast Boy interjected.
Starfire shrugged. "I do not claim to understand. What I do know is that when we are faced with such a situation, we do not kill our enemies. Perhaps these hunters of demons are not as different from us as we believe."
"They hunt down and destroy their enemies," Raven stated crisply. "How are we similar?"
Starfire sighed, slightly frustrated. "Perhaps they are misguided." Then, optimistically, "Perhaps we could help them understand."
Raven snorted, causing both Robin and Starfire to stare at her. "Sorry if I don't share your optimism, Starfire, but I spent the last few days with a sword stabbed through my shoulder and the constant promise of death at their hands. One of them tried to kill me. And now, my emotions are gone."
Starfire swept Raven up in a hug that was a little more considerate than the first she had given her when she had awakened. "I am sorry Raven! I have thought only of the situation and not of you, my friend…"
"Er… I just mean I might be a little biased right now," Raven said, pushing Starfire off of her. "Just because I seem to be missing my emotions doesn't mean I'm a complete blank slate. I still remember what they did to me. I still have no desire to do them a favor, even if it is teaching them the error of their ways."
Starfire stepped back a little, but she still had a concerned look in her eyes.
"I'm fine, really," Raven assured her. "Even if you're right about them, even if they really are just a little… misguided, it'd be nearly impossible to get them in a position to listen to us, and it'd be even harder to convince them that their lifelong mission is something that we'd have any insight on. I mean, you can't just expect them to walk through our front door asking for pointers…"
On cue, the door slid open to reveal Lunis and Solaris
"We need your help," Solaris said grudgingly.
"With what?" Robin asked, a bird-a-rang already in hand.
Lunis laughed; a pleasant laugh that was reminiscent of silver bells ringing in the wind. "Ironically," she said, speaking aloud as a sign of good faith, "with hunting a demon."
