My Loving Tsubasa No Kami!
"Why? Why must you only think of her?" The demon child curled herself up and sobbed.
"She never notices! I hate how you look at her! If you love her so much then make her yours!"
Van stared sadly at the demon, before taking her into his arms. He needed to comfort her. Knowing that she held such affection for him he still always treated her as a sister and told her stories of the angel he loved more than anything. He never even tried to notice her as a woman but a child. He was cruel.
"Forgive me for disregarding your feelings. You are precious to me and you always will be. But I can not accept you as my wife any longer."
"What can she give you? You can not live with her forever! You know what will happen to her and yet you still want her! You have everything here!"
"I don't have her."
She looked up at him with her red eyes. The tears continued without stop as she raised her hand and slapped him across the face. She could still feel the sting of the slap on her hand as she curled it into a fist.
"Go away. Get away from me."
". . ."
"I said go away! Leave me alone! I hate you! I don't ever want to see you again!"
Van turned and began to walk away from her. He knew he'd regret it but he felt that for the moment it would be the best idea. He deserved it. Before turning the corner he stopped at the end of the hall.
"Forgive me, Merle," he said silently as he turned the corner and left. Merle watched his back and as he turned the corner, her legs had given out on her. She fell to the floor shattered, and sobbed. She sobbed because he had left her. She sobbed because he couldn't love her. She sobbed because even after all this she still loved him more than anything. He truly was a cruel person.
Chapter Three: I'll Never Give Up
"Van? I'm going to school now," Hitomi said as she tried knocking again and again. "Van?"
She opened the door when he didn't answer and found the room empty. The bed wasn't even used. Even after offering him room and board, he still slept elsewhere. She couldn't understand him. She shut the door again and then proceeded to leave her house. After all she couldn't miss school because of a nomadic demon lover.
"Hitomi! We can't always wait for you in the morning! Can't you get ready any faster?" Merle complained.
"Sorry. I promise that today will be the last day I'm late in the morning," Hitomi said with a smile.
"You're not cute."
"Of course Hitomi is cute!" Dilandau said as he wrapped his arms around Hitomi and proceeded to kiss her on the cheek. Hitomi blushed a slight pink before looking up to find one angry girlfriend.
"What are you doing here? This isn't even your homeroom," Celena said angrily as she tried to pry Dilandau off of Hitomi.
"Aww . . . Celena don't be jealous. You know I still love you the most and besides I came here to give you some news."
"Then just hurry up and spit it out. After that you can leave."
"My honey is so cruel," whined Dilandau. "Anyway I came to say that there happens to be a new student in my class."
"New student?" Millerna said with curiosity. The gang gathered around Dilandau as if he was telling them a scary story while sitting around a campfire.
"He's very handsome with his raven black hair and his cool personality."
'Raven black hair . . .,' Hitomi thought suddenly paying attention with interest. 'Don't tell me . . . '
"Sadly he's looking for someone. Someone he likes to call 'Tsubasa No Kami'."
"Van!" Hitomi gasped.
"Bingo!" Dilandau sang with a cheery voice.
"You mean that strange guy we met yesterday?" Celena said with a skeptical look.
"Oh yeah! The one with the wings!" Millerna said with a sudden realization. Hitomi became a bit uneasy at the fact that Millerna still remembered the one thing that she wanted her to forget.
"Van?" Merle asked.
"Oh you left before he came. But he's this handsome guy that apparently has an attraction for Hitomi!" Millerna giggled.
"Millerna!" Hitomi shouted embarrassed.
"His name is Van? Does he have a last name?" Merle continued to ask.
"Yeah he does. It's Van de Fanel," Hitomi replied.
"I see. Well then I'll just have to meet this Van De Fanel for myself, now won't I?" Merle replied with a smile.
"I should get back. Break is almost over," Dilandau said as he waved with a smile.
"Van de Fanel . . .," Merle whispered as the class settled down ready for the afternoon lesson to begin.
With the last bell of the day ringing and everyone filing out to hurry home, the group met up at the front like they always did to talk before going home. Hitomi could swear that Dilandau had some homing device planted into Celena, as she saw him pop up out of nowhere and hold Celena like there was no tomorrow. But then again, after finding out he was a demon he could probably just sense her even if she was a thousand miles away. Millerna kept chatting about Allen and how he came into their class to return something to the teacher while Merle, Yukari, and Hitomi listened to her go on and on.
"Millerna, I swear one day that I'm going to make a remote control with a mute button just for you." Merle smiled broadly as the blonde, whose face was turning red with anger, made movements to slap the girl across her face.
"Hitomi!" Turning around, Hitomi saw a raven haired boy running towards her with a big grin and a hand in the air. "I finally caught up to you. I'm sorry that I didn't get transferred into your class but the office kept insisting it was full."
Hitomi stared at him incredulously as Van, using the moment as a distraction, quickly brought her in for an embrace. Waking from her momentary frozen state, she quickly pushed Van away before anyone else noticed. Then taking a deep breath she looked up to see his face.
"I didn't think that Dilandau was serious about you coming here." Van looked at her confused and then taking her hands he smiled again.
"Why not? Don't I have a right to be next to the one I love?"
"Well yeah . . . and no." Hitomi tried to explain to Van that always being around the person you loved was not a good thing; that sometimes the other person would feel as if they had no privacy. As she explained even further, Van's smiling face began to turn into one of confusion.
"But don't we live together now?" Slapping her hand onto his mouth, Hitomi began to sweat with nervousness. She couldn't let the others know that she was living with Van and anyway she'd kill herself before they ever found out.
"Hitomi? What are you doing?" Millerna and the others began staring at the pair with strange looks. Quickly taking her hand off of Van's mouth, she began to laugh strangely.
"No-nothing. I was just . . . telling Van how I'd show him around the school tomorrow." Hitomi smiled at them and hoped that they'd buy her lie. But knowing them she probably wouldn't be able to pull it off.
"Oookay." Millerna looked away for a second and then looked back at the pair with Hitomi smiling nervously and Van looking absolutely confused. "You know, I have to admit. You two do make quite a pair."
Everyone looked at the two of them and nodded slowly in agreement. No matter how much Hitomi denied it, the two of them looked as if they were made for each other. Even if one of them was a way too loving demon, the pair made a perfect match.
"So this is Van de Fanel," Merle said interrupting all thoughts as everyone turned to her. Hitomi stopped being nervous and suddenly remembered that this was the first time Merle had ever met Van.
"Oh yeah. This is the first time you two are meeting." Millerna smiled and quickly intervened by pushing the two towards each other. "Merle, Van. Van, Merle. Merle can sometimes make rude and snide comments, but she's generally a really nice girl."
"Thanks so much Millerna for the wonderful introduction but I think it's time for you to go on mute." Merle smiled as she said this but was given a tongue in reply. Ignoring Millerna's childish antics, she turned back to Van. "Nice meeting you but let's talk sometime later. I'm afraid I have something to do."
"But I thought the student council meeting was cancelled?" Hitomi looked at Merle with a questioning face.
"It was cancelled but there are still a few things I need to prepare for before tomorrow. So I'll be going now." Merle waved to the others and looked at Van once more. Giving him a quick smile, she slowly walked back up the stairs back inside the school. Van watched her as she left and frowned slightly. Before giving him that smile, he thought he had seen malice pass through her eyes but then again it could've been just his imagination. As the others talked about trivial things, no one noticed Van leave except Hitomi who wondered where in the world he would go.
Van walked through the hallways left and right trying to look for the girl he just met. Deciding that it was taking too long, he used his senses to locate her. After locating her presence he quickly climbed the stairs to the third floor. As soon as he got there he saw that Merle was leaning against the wall as if she was waiting for him.
"You're pathetic if you had to use your powers to locate me." Merle pushed herself off the wall and looked at him with her cold and calculating eyes. Van opened his mouth to speak before her clapping interrupted him. "Congratulations, you found her. After nine hundred years of searching, you finally found her; the one and only Tsubasa No Kami."
"Merle." Van didn't know what to say or how to act.
"What? That's all you have to say to me?" Merle looked at him mockingly wearing a cruel smile. "You know, when I first found her, I had every intention of killing her. Luckily for you, you've got Dilandau to watch out for her."
"Why would you want to kill her? I'd understand if you hated her but it isn't like you to kill." Looking sadly at Merle, he couldn't understand why after nine hundred years she still hated him and the one he loved.
"Why? So that I can watch you search desperately and pitifully for another thousand years." Merle's cruel smile and jeering faded and was replaced with anger. "So that you'd know how it feels to lose something important!"
"Then why didn't you do it? Why didn't you kill her?" Van's expression became even more sorrowful knowing that it was partially his fault that Merle held so much anger towards him and the Tsubasa No Kami.
"I didn't kill her because I too pathetically fell to her kindness. Even when I treated like she was nothing, even when I did cruel things to her, she still always smiled and extended a hand of friendship to me." Merle smiled sadly while Van wished he could run to her and hold her to comfort her as he's always done. "So then I decided that if I couldn't kill her, at least I could keep her away from you."
Van was about to speak but didn't. He couldn't find anything to say to her that would comfort her much less make her feel better. They stood in silence again, just like that one time so many years ago.
"I guess I didn't do a very good job." Merle chuckled before turning her back towards Van. "Even if it kills me Van, I'm not letting her have you."
In their heated discussion, both didn't notice the girl that stood silently at the foot of the stairs. Hitomi left the others a little later and followed Van out of curiosity. She wanted to know where he was going, but she never thought she'd come in hearing Merle confess her undying love for Van. Well it wasn't exactly a confession but the fact that Merle wasn't going to give up on him meant that she loved him deeply. As Hitomi put two and two together she realized that if Merle knew Van before then Merle, like Van and Dilandau, was also a demon. Hitomi covered her mouth to keep her from gasping in shock and recognized Van's voice as he began to speak.
"Stop Merle. Don't go. If you end it like this then nothing will change!" Van pleaded desperately with Merle. He didn't want the same thing to happen twice.
"No Van. This time, I'll be the one to turn my back." Merle walked away silently and disappeared behind the corner before Van could say anything more.
Hitomi lowered her hand and stared at the ground. She heard more than she bargained for and it wasn't doing well with her conscience. Slowly walking back down the stairs she quickly ran back to the entrance where Dilandau was waiting alone.
"Hitomi? Where were you? Everyone already left." Hitomi clutched her chest to catch her breath and while leaning on Dilandau for support. "Are you okay? You look like you just ran the hundred meter dash."
"I'm fine," Hitomi gasped while trying to find a way to change the conversation. "How are your scratches?"
"You mean the ones your monster of a dog gave me?" Dilandau smirked and rolled up his sleeves. "By tonight they'll be gone since I'm a demon and all."
Unbelievably he was right. She could hardly see even the scars that her dog left behind as remnants of the attack just yesterday. How nice it would be if her scars could disappear in one night. As Hitomi thought about how useful it'd be to have an extraordinary ability of fast healing, Dilandau looked over her shoulder to see one sad Van walk out of the school.
"Van?" Dilandau saw Van look up and give him a sheepish grin. Hitomi on the other hand couldn't bear to look at Van, at least not after hearing the conversation he had with Merle. Embarrassed for even thinking about it she turned a slight pink. Dilandau looked back at Hitomi's embarrassed face and then back to Van's sheepish grin.
"So THAT'S what you two were doing." Dilandau smiled broadly as Hitomi looked up at him horrified. "I knew you two were hiding something from me."
Van suddenly stopped at the foot of the stairs and saw Hitomi's eyes grow to the size of dinner plates. Confused at the situation, he stared from a wide-eyed open-mouthed Hitomi to a smiling dancing Dilandau. When Hitomi finally snapped out of it, she grabbed a handful of Dilandau's silver hair and put him into a headlock. Whatever it was van had missed, he was now glad he missed it.
"I should rip your tongue out you perv!" Hitomi shrieked as she tightened the grip around Dilandau's neck.
"Hi– Hitomi! I– I can't . . . breathe!" Dilandau wheezed and gagged as he began to feel the pains of suffocation. Stretching a desperate hand towards Van, he began gasping for help. Although at first Van thought whatever Dilandau did, he had gotten his just punishment, but when Hitomi wouldn't let go he began to get a little worried. Rushing over to Hitomi he took her arms and pulled them off of Dilandau with great difficulty. Dilandau fell to the ground, holding his neck while gasping precious gulps of air. Van bent down to ask Dilandau if he was okay while an angry Hitomi stomped off school grounds.
"Even if I die Van, I'll never let you go." Merle watched from the windows as Van ran to catch up with Hitomi while Dilandau struggled to keep up. Swearing to herself, Merle vowed that she would do whatever it takes to take Van back; even if it meant to hurt Hitomi.
A/N: see i did as i promised! i updated finally haha. i needed something to do to get my mind off of college . . . it's stressing me out right now. TT anyway thanks to all the reviewers! your reviews make me happy! anyway i thought about answering people's questions in the beginning so as not to let them wait in suspense haha but for some reason i'm still writing at the bottom oh well.
Goddess-Hitomi: i'm sorry but i can't tell you why! at least not right now. just be patient, the reason will come hehe.
Sadame X: of course van is irresistible! but hitomi didn't really "accept" him at least not just yet. she's only feeling that way because remember she shares the same soul as the Tsubasa No Kami who loved van and she is confused as to why she feels like that. haha i'm sorry that the conversation got you confused. trust me while i was writing it i got confusd too >.
shadow Glider: i'm glad you like it!uhmm well i guess i could tell you now . . . her parents don't live with her because they live in another city. see they moved but at the time hitomi was still in high school and she told her parents that she wanted to finish up at the school she was going to. so they allowed her to stay and finish up her schooling. van's not obsessive . . . he's just . . . loving ;; no no no, dilly's much too important to be eaten by a dog. :)
thanks again to all the reviewers and if you haven't reviewed yet please do so! i'll be very happy if you did:)