Caught In Suspension: Chapter 3
Disclaimer: In no way am I making anything monetary for writing this and I am simple doing this to help the summer pass by before heading back to school.
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It's been a week since Seth brought up the baby subject and Summer can honestly say that it's recently been an awkward one. It seemed like they never talk nowadays because they rarely had time together. Seemed like they both had the same idea and dove into work to distract themself from what's been going on a between them. Most communication between them were usually a question that required to be answered with a yes or no. They never had dinner together anymore when it was Seth who always insisted that they do so, even if the other came home late from work. In most cases, Summer would be the one coming home late but he would always keep her food warm and wait for her even if he was starving himself.
Summer was about fed up with what's been going on lately that she decided to confront Seth about it that night. Summer parked her car in her usual spot and entered through the front door. Following her senses, Summer smelled the pleasant scent of something baking. Entering the kitchen, she grinned as she found Seth cooking dinner in an apron. It was a Wednesday, a day that he liked to celebrate the fact that it was the middle of the workday week. Seth always stuck to his promise that he would cook on that day even if they had a little quarrel.
"What's for dinner?" Summer asked.
Seth turned off the stove and the oven. "Spaghetti and rolls."
"Sounds delicious."
Seth nodded and took off his apron, tossing it on the counter in the middle of the room. He turned around, about to walk away from Summer when she grabbed his wrist before he could get away.
"Can we talk?" She softly asked.
Seth turned back to look at her and noticed the pleading look in her eyes. Seth softened and nodded.
"After dinner, I promise."
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Tucked under the sheets, Summer waited for Seth to get out of the bathroom. Although they ate in silence, at least it wasn't too awkward or uncomfortable like the past week. Not wanting to be in silence much longer, Summer turned the television on and started her channel surf session. Glancing at the clock, she noticed that it's almost ten and decided to settle on one of the local news channel.
Seeing Seth coming out, she turned off the television and sat up. Seth sat onto the sheets, unsure of how to start their first in-dept conversation in a while. Seth didn't need to initiate the conversation, Summer did.
"Seth, why do you think that we should have a baby now?" She asked.
Seth stared at her for a while and thought about what to say. "Because I love you more than anything and I want to." He honestly answered.
Summer nodded in understanding. "But why now? Why not years later down the road?"
"Because I feel that we're ready financially and emotionally."
"You're right..." Summer started before Seth interrupted.
"You mean we can try?"
He sounded so hopeful but she had to voice her piece of mind.
Summer closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "Cohen, listen. We are ready financially, but I'm not ready emotionally."
"Is it because you think I wouldn't help out? I would, you know. I'll get up whenever the baby cried in the middle of the night for the feeding or just to soothe the baby even if I may feel like shit the next day because I was up all night. Heck, I'll even change the dirty diapers even though the smell is unbearable and you know that's a huge thing considering that I never helped out whenever Ryan asked me to."
Summer shook her head. "Look Seth, I finally got to a place at work where I can finally say that I am proud of all of the shit I went through to get to where I am."
"I am proud of you too, but having a baby wouldn't kill your career."
Summer closed her eyes. "Please Seth. Just understand where I'm coming from."
"That's the thing though Summer. I don't know where you're coming from." Seth was getting frustrated at this point.
Summer picked up on Seth's frustration and started to react, becoming frustrated as well. "Look, all I'm saying is that I don't want to have a baby right now because the timing isn't right."
Seth shook his head in disbelief. "You know what Sum, the timing is mostly never right for most couples. It just happens."
"Maybe so, but don't you want to enjoy our time together before we have to take care of another life? We haven't had a vacation together ever since our honeymoon. Our lives are just a bit too busy right now to even consider having a baby."
Seth shook his head in disagreement. "I don't know about you, but I'm willing to step back from work if that's what it takes."
"That's the thing Seth, I'm not!" Summer was riled up at the moment, taking deep breaths to try to calm herself down. She had already explained to him why she doesn't think now is a good time but Seth wouldn't let it go. He just had to keep asking questions.
Seth glanced at Summer and disappointingly looked down. He was completely speechless and didn't know what to say. This was definitely not how he pictured this conversation would turn out to be. Seth felt saddened by what just happened because he had hoped that she would've agreed. That was clearly not the case tonight. They just sat there in silence for a good period of time before Seth got off the bed.
"I'm not feeling so tired right now, so I'm just going to go back downstairs because I know you have something to get up early for tomorrow." He tried to cover up the pain in his voice but it was obvious that he was. He stood up and strode towards the door. He couldn't get out of the room quick enough.
"I'm sorry, Seth." She softly apologized.
Seth sadly nodded and closed the door on his way out.
Summer exhaled and laid back down, pulling the covers over her face.
Great, back to square one.
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Please don't get too pissed at Summer because she wants to focus more on her career than starting a family and getting our lovable Seth feeling down. Things with Summer will be justifiable and it will be revealed in the coming chapters, so stay tuned.