Chapter4: Bereavement
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When Kakashi finally got home… (After the conversation and seeing Chidori at the marketplace) he goes straight to his room. Never even bother saying hi to his father Sakumo.
Inside Kakashi's room
(sighed)
"I'm just worried about you, that's all… I don't want you to get hurt…"
Kakashi: wish I never argued with her…
"Like you said you shouldn't' mind other's business…"
Another sigh from him… he sat beside his window thinking of what happened earlier… and something came up on his mind.
Kakashi: I want to know what really happened to my father during these passed few days… I should talk to him…
And off he went to his father's room… but before he could reach the room he heard weird noise then went inside. To his surprise he saw his father hanging on the ceiling with the rope on his neck tied up… The 'White Fang' take a suicide choking himself up to his last breath. Kakashi takes his father down from the ceiling and placed him on the bed. He noticed a letter on the bedside table and reads it…
Kakashi,
This is just a quick message just before I kill myself… My son I'm
not in my usual self. This guilt that I felt inside of me made me become a
madman. It made me weak of mind and body. My scruples made me lie
awake every night. Thoughts of what I've done that made me betray my
beloved village of Konoha. This is my note of saying goodbye and a thank
you for being my son. I offer my life for the failure that I've done to our
country. I ask for their forgiveness and yours too… I'm sorry that I've never
been a good father to you…
Hatake, Sakumo
After reading his father's letter he now knew that his father is the one that made the Hidden Leaf village suffer great loss because he did not follow the rules and regulations. Being left by his father and being disgraced by him is painful and hard but he just kept it inside like he usually does.
The news spread out that the 'White Fang' is already dead. That morning is his burial, weather is not on their side. Grey clouds formed, for the sky is dark it's like heaven is crying upon Sakumo's death. There where only few persons that went to see his grave. Others grieved just to show respect, others just wanted to know the truth … but Kakashi didn't care all he cares about is he. They come and go until Kakashi is left alone… no he is not alone… he didn't notice but Chidori is there at his back. She was there all along trying to reach him but she is uncertain. She is unsure of what to say if he started looking at her. She is withdrawn that Kakashi really don't know that she's there until he steps forward but then Chidori finally speak up.
Chidori: I-I wish I knew…
Kakashi faced her but then their eyes didn't meet. She looks down on the ground. She doesn't want to see what Kakashi's reaction would be…
Chidori: I wish I knew just the right words to say… that would comfort you and ease the pain; but then I can't think of what to express… I don't know… all I know is that being next to you is all I could do, to feel the same way as you do. Maybe being there at your side would make you feel less alone…
Then tears started falling from her eyes she didn't notice but Kakashi walks closer to her. Her eyes widened when she felt his arms gently wrapped around her and embraced her tightly.
Kakashi: just the sight of you made me feel alright. Thank you…
She smiled and responded to his embrace…
Chidori: I'm so glad I was able to help you feel better…
Her eyes were still full of tears but not tears of grief… it was tears of joy. The rain heavily pours down.
Kakashi: let's find some shelter you might catch cold
Chidori nods then they looked for shelter and find a big oak tree at the top of a hill. They sheltered themselves and sit under it…Kakashi take off his shirt and squeezed it and hang it to let it dry then sat beside Chidori. He saw her shivers that made her embrace her self.
Chidori: it's really cold and were soaking wet.
Kakashi pulled her closer to him…
Chidori: hey? uhm… (Chidori turns red)
She is like cradled by him. Caressing her into his arms… it's like making her safe from harm.
Chidori: he is warm.
Kakashi: why are you like that?
Chidori: what do you mean?
Kakashi: I mean… you never fail to make me smile even for a situation like this…
Chidori: this is the first time that I've known a problem pertaining to you…
Kakashi looks at her intently while Chidori is talking…
Chidori: I've known you for so long but then I still don't know what's on your mind…what you are thinking… if you have a problem or even what you feel…
Kakashi: then why do you even bother being with me?
Chidori: I don't know… I don't have any reason… but maybe being with you makes me feel secured…
Chidori looks at him. He turned red and looked away. He was not seen by her but she just smiled…
It is like time stopped between the two of them. Somehow pain had gone a little bit for him. Being with someone who's willing to be there beside you makes him feel that he's not alone. At the time that his heart was hurt and is waiting to be mend again. Is a big thing that makes his life whole even just for a matter of second that he will spend his time with her but then time can never be stopped for just a while…
Chidori: I'm fine now… Thank you…
Kakashi released her from his arms. He thought of not letting go of her but she's not his own he thought. He sighs and leans back at the tree then looks up the rainy sky.
Kakashi: I wish this rain will never end…
Chidori looks at him with confusion.
Chidori: huh! Why?
Kakashi: because when the rain stops it's the time that we will be separated again.
Chidori: but it doesn't mean that we'll never see each other again. Right!
Kakashi looks at her
Kakashi: right!
Chidori: or maybe you have something in mind what is it hmm?
She stares at him curiously.
Kakashi: (Sweat drops) it's not what you think… you see I-ah…
Chidori: got ya! So you really have a plan…
Kakashi: (Scratches his head) so your just joking?
Chidori: I know you can't do that besides were just minors
Kakashi: what a relief…
Chidori stands up and points at him
Chidori: but still you're a young man and you're curious about certain things that you haven't experienced yet…
Kakashi stands up also
Kakashi: hey wait a sec. are you into drugs?
Chidori: don't change the topic!
Kakashi: when did this happen? Tell me!
Chidori: I'm not into drugs! (Her temper rises)
Kakashi: (laughs)
Chidori: what's so funny!
Kakashi; now the joke's on you (laughs)
Kakashi turned his back and laughs
Chidori: is that so…
She rides on his back…
Chidori: you should apologize then.
Kakashi: no you should be you're the one who started it!
Chidori: tsk tsk you'll never learn. You should be a gentleman
Kakashi: oh ok! Well I'm sorry…
Then he started walking with Chidori on his back.
Chidori: apology not accepted.
Kakashi: (Looks at her with confusion) why is that? How come?
Chidori: I'll just accept your apology if you treat me for snack. Crying makes me feel hungry.
Kakashi; if that's what you like.
Chidori: really! I'm not deaf right?
Kakashi: yes you're not deaf…
Chidori: it's a miracle! Let's celebrate!
Kakashi: hey be careful I might loss my balance…
Chidori: sorry… (Chuckles) ike!
Now they're on their way to buy some food…
Note: ahihi that's all folks! Hope you enjoyed it. Thanks again…