The Monologue Chronicles 2

Disclaimer: I do not own any of this. All characters, mentioned storyline and plot all belong to Jo Rowling.

A/N: Just a quick memo. Ron's chapter at the moment is going to be his feelings after Hermione saw him and Lavender come in the classroom. I feel like doing a bit of fluff at the moment. It's probable that I will do another chapter on Ron, which is at the funeral, but at the moment, I think I'm going to stick to this one. Thanks!

Ron

Bloody Hell.

I am such a bloody prick.

Why in God's name did I go and snog Lavender? Ok, so I was upset and angry with Hermione and really only wanted to make her pay for kissing Krum, but after seeing that look on her face…what's the matter with me?

I love her. I know I love her, I think it's pretty damn obvious that I love her, so why am I doing all this to hurt her.

Krum. Everything comes back to that bloody basted. If it hadn't been for him not being able to keep his hands to himself, all of this wouldn't have happened. I would still be talking to Hermione, I wouldn't be going out with Lavender Brown and maybe Hermione and I may have sorted out our extremely complicated relationship. But no, everyone around here has turned into randy teenagers, including me, and I'm kissing the wrong girl.

I don't want to be kissing Lavender. Ok, so it's not completely unpleasant, but I'd much rather be with…Hermione.

And when I saw her face…it broke my heart. I broke her heart. Me. It's my entire fault because I'm a possessive, protective, envious prat. And it's not the first time I've broken her heart either. I do it on a regular basis. Yet she is still my friend…or was.

The truth is, I miss her more than anything. I miss her telling me to do my homework. I miss her telling me off for some stupid comment I make. I miss her smile, her laugh…everything. I even miss our fights, which in its own way makes me who I am.

And as I sit here, watching her biting her lip while reading, I realise she's all I'll ever want. I've been so stupid. For years back. I'm the only one who hasn't grown up. Who, at 16, isn't capable of telling their best friend that they love her?

I can't help but wonder if she feels the same way. She wouldn't of been all upset if she hadn't…right?

I was a free agent. Hermione never outright told me that she wanted to go to Slughorn's party with me as more than friends. Maybe the way she said it was insinuating but…I've known her for 6 years and she must know by now that I'm thick as a tree trunk when it comes to feelings and stuff, so if she doesn't tell me, I'm not likely to get it. And then she has the nerve to get angry with me because I didn't say anything to her, when she is just as oblivious as I am.

It just hurt, I guess. Finding out that she had kissed Krum. I had finally thought that we were slowly getting somewhere, and then out of the blue, I get that thrown at me. Which makes my dislike for Krum hit the point where I want to tear him limb from limb for touching my 'Mione. I even ripped up his bloody autograph he gave me. Harry thinks I'm over-reacting, but how would he react if he found out the girl he likes was snogging another bloke?

Now both my best friends have lost the plot. Harry has gone all obsessive with Malfoy and Hermione is no longer talking to me. And to make matters worse, I've got Lavender 'Octopus' Brown clinging on to my every move.

So, as I'm feeling angry, jealous, upset, hurt, worried and slightly content, I realise I think I have just officially been able to sustain emotions of a tablespoon capacity. I just hope she notices it too.

A/N: I hope you liked! I have decided to do many monologues for this series. They will be from either of the trio and will be from different events that occur during HBP. The Ron and Hermione ones will contain much shippyness cause I think that I deserve the right to gloat through fan fiction. (Mostly because if I try to on a forum, I get my head bitten off by H/Hr shippers.) Review please!