"Wake up!" I heard Adam say and then I felt a wave of freezing water hit my head. I screamed and ran after him by following him into the living room. I stopped all of a sudden when I saw Sirius and James sitting on the couch.
"Ah! Adam!" I yelled immediately covering my stomach with my hands. I was wearing a shirt that I had had since I hit puberty and it didn't fully cover my stomach and I was wearing short shorts that I usually wore in the summer. Sirius raised his eyebrows and I heard James whistle. Sirius covered James' eyes with his hand and I ran to my room to put something else on. I put on some jeans and a t-shirt then I pulled my hair up into a ponytail because it was so hot and splashed some lipstick on my lips. Hoping that Sirius would forget about the mess he saw earlier.
"There she is, and she's wearing clothes this time." Adam said joking. He was sitting across from James and they were playing Wizards' Chess.
"Shut up!" I said sitting in the open seat beside Sirius. He wrapped his arms around my shoulder and leaned in real close.
"I liked what I saw." He whispered with a grin on his face. I turned to him with a big surprised grin on my face and I swatted his chest playfully. That's when the mail came and rushed to get it because I was expecting a letter from Jonathan. And sure enough I got the letter. I could recognize his small slanted hand writing anywhere. But it wasn't just a letter it was a package.
"Who is that from?" Sirius asked trying to pry the package from my hand.
"A package from my pen pal." I said opening it. Inside were a bunch of pieces of American Candy and some maple syrup. He knew that I loved Maple syrup but they didn't sell it anywhere in England. I handed some candy to all of them.
"So your boyfriend sent you a bunch of candy?" Adam joked. He had always called Jonathan my boyfriend because it wasn't usual for a girl and guy to have a long distance friendship for so long but I disagreed. We were only friends, he had a girlfriend and I now had a boyfriend.
"Boyfriend?" Sirius asked. I only laughed at his facial expression. He looked possessive.
"He's joking. Jon is just a friend of mine from America. He sent these candies called Abba Zabba. I love them." I said taking another bite. They were very addictive. Sirius had his open and he was just staring at me so I leaned over and took a bite off his.
"Hey!" He said pulling it back and then tickling me. I started to laugh so hard that I almost dropped the taffy out of my mouth but I caught it and nearly choked.
"Are you ok?" Sirius asked laughing. I nodded and started to chew my taffy. It was really tough and super sweet.
"So what did lover boy say?" Adam asked me once I read the letter.
"He said that he was happy to hear from me as always and he might be coming to England with his family for vacation. He'll give me more details later…. I hope he comes, that would be awesome. We could take him to Diagon Alley and Hogsmeade and the Quidditch World Cup is playing in England this year. We can take him there." I said getting excited about all the things I could show him.
"Do I need to be worrying about you guys?" Sirius asked looking at me.
"No, not at all. I'm fine with my Goofy boyfriend." I said kissing his nose.
"Goofy? Goofy? I'll show you goofy!" He said starting to tickle me again.
"Stop! Stop!" I squealed trying not to pee my pants from laughing so hard. He finally stopped and kissed me on the lips and despite having Adam and James there I kissed him back.
"Knock it off Padfoot!" I heard James cry out. Sirius stopped and seemed to turn almost rigid. As if he was caught doing something he shouldn't be doing. I went to grab his hand but he moved his hand and reached for another piece of candy. I looked between him and James and neither one were looking at me.
"How about we go into my room?" I asked Sirius. He looked happy at the thought until he caught James' eye and then he shook his head.
"I'm next." He said pointing to the game. Would he really choose Chess over making out with me? I mean I know that the game was addicting but I should hope that I was more fun then it.
"I could think of more things that could be more exciting than Chess." I said winking at him. He laughed and shook his head.
"Fine!" I said pretending I was mad at him. I got up and went into the kitchen. I was so hungry but I didn't know what to make. I didn't have time to make a decision because Sirius came in and stood leaning against the counter across from me.
"Ash, where do you think we are going with this?" He asked me.
"What do you mean?" I asked truly confused.
"Us. I mean I don't know… Ash I like you a lot but…" He started and it dawned on me that this was not going to go well. I blinked my eyes because they were hurting from the dryness.
"I see." I said in a low voice. I couldn't allow myself to cry, I knew this was going to come but I just didn't want it to. I really liked him and I was possibly falling in love with him even though that sounded completely bizarre because we have only been going out for 2 months.
"Ash…" He said coming closer to me. He put his hands in mine but I jerked them away trying not to make this any harder than normal.
"Ash, its not you… its me. You're too good for me. I don't deserve you, I'm sorry." He said. I closed my eyes and looked away from him, noticing that I had been holding my breath silently praying that he would say he loved me rather than breaking up.
"Don't say that." I said in a hollow voice.
"I'm sorry…" He whispered. I shook my head and laughed.
"Yeah… whatever." I said grabbing a bottle of water and leaving him there standing alone. I went straight to my room without looking back. I had to stay strong. I magically locked my door so no one could come in. then I threw the bottle of water at the wall and it shattered and water exploded all over my dresser and my make up but I didn't care. I collapsed on my bed and started to bawl. Even though I knew this was going to happen I couldn't prevent it or prepare myself for it. I felt as if my whole world was crumbling around me. Like it was getting hard to breath. I heard a knock on my door but I didn't respond to it. I didn't even want to respond to anything in the world. I wanted to get out of here and try to go somewhere new. Somewhere to get my mind off of things.
A few days later my door swung open yet again. Ever since Adam found out what had happened he had been giving me food in bed but I haven't really been eating a lot. I just haven't felt like doing a lot of things.
"Get out of bed… I'm tired of telling you to move on." Adam said coming and sitting on the bed next to my head. He pulled the blankets back and I tried to pull them back above my head but Adam wouldn't let me. I sighed and closed my eyes, I felt like a pile of goop.
"Dad's going to be home soon and he wants us ready to go out with him. GET UP!" Adam said pushing my off the bed. I got up and went to the bathroom hoping that hanging out with my dad would make me feel a little better. Sure, I felt empty and my heart was aching because I missed him. I missed the assurance of him being there for me and his kiss and his eyes. I missed having him there and hearing his laugh. I pushed him out of my mind trying to take a shower. It felt good having the water cascade down my body and it was cool to the touch too.
When I got out of the shower with a towel wrapped around me Adam was laying some clothes out for me on my bed. I rolled my eyes.
"Thanks… MOM," I said joking. It had actually been the first time I had smiled since Sirius and I broke up. Wow, it was weird to say that. I had to push Sirius out my mind. Adam smirked and left me to get dressed. Adam was too good of a brother to be me. I didn't really deserve him, he always gave and it seemed like I was always taking. Did I ever give him anything? Have I ever thought about him rather than myself at times? I didn't have time to give an answer because I heard the front door open and I was excited to see my dad. I ran from the room and right into his outstretched arms. He laughed and Adam came up behind us giving dad a manly hug in between the many hugs I was giving him.
"Daddy, we have missed you SO much. Don't ever leave us here alone with her again." I said. He rolled his eyes and told us to come with him. We were going to Diagon Alley for an ice cream.
"I've missed you too munchkin." He said giving me another hug.
"Dad! Don't call me that!" I said looking around us in the ice cream shop. Some people looked over but I didn't know them so it wasn't such a big deal.
"You will always be my little munchkin." He said kissing my forehead. I rolled my eyes and Adam was trying not to laugh into his ice cream.
"And you will always be my little monster." He said ruffling up Adam's hair. I stuck my tongue out at him and he just glared at me.
"DAD!" I whispered to make our dad stop. He chuckled and told us that he would be right back. He had to pick something up at one of the shops.
"I'm glad he's home." I said to Adam taking another bite of my Banana Jamma Surprise. It had gummy bears in it and I loved having my gummy bears frozen.
"I'm glad you aren't a depressed slob anymore." Adam said looking at me over his chocolate ice cream.
"Yeah I kind of went into depressed mode huh? I can't help it, I really liked him… A LOT." I said sighing. Adam reached across the table and grabbed my hand.
"Ash, its not the end of the world. I know you liked him a lot but he's not worth it… can you honestly say that you can see yourself with him in the long run… I mean look at the guy he is messed up." Adam said. I gave him a 'don't go there' look and pulled my hand away.
"He's not messed up." I said glumly.
"He hasn't had a relationship that has lasted more than 2 months in his entire life." Adam countered.
"And I was his longest relationship. You just didn't know him like I did. We connected and I… I just can't explain. I just really really like him." I said taking another bite. Comfort food they called it. After something horrible happens you usually eat comfort food, which is any type of junk food. My favorite comfort food was ice cream and candy. It made me feel like there some something to look forward to. Something that could take my mind off of the horrible thing.
"I'm back! And I have surprises for both of you…" My dad said surprising me out of my thoughts. I looked up at him and saw that he was holding a gray and silver owl and a box that had a door on the side with holes in it.
"This is for you. I know you have always wanted your own owl so here you go." My dad said handing the owl over to Adam. His eyes were wide open and his mouth was opened in surprise.
"And for my little girl, I thought I would get you something a little more cuddly. Something you can hang out with if me or you brother weren't around." He said handing the box to me. I looked up at him with a suspicious look on my face. I opened the box and out came a long animal that was furry and looked adorable.
"It's a ferret." He said handing me a bag of supplies to go with it.
"A ferret? What does it do?" I asked picking up the body and holding it against me.
"Well, its there for comfort… Adam told me what happened and I thought maybe this would cheer you up. Put a smile on that beautiful face of yours." He said. I held the ferret to my nose and he liked it. I giggled and hugged it loving it immediately.
"Thank you so much dad!" I said giving him a hug. I was trying to think of a name for my new baby but I was drawing a blank. I wanted it to mean something but at the same time I wanted it to be a unique name. And then I thought of it as it was licking my arm making me laugh because it tickled.
"I'll name it Tickle." I said and Adam laughed rolling his eyes while dad was just smiling at us as if it was going to be the last time he would ever see us. I could see in his eye that something was wrong. Like he was almost sad watching us laugh and having a good time.
"What's wrong dad?" I asked him. The look on his face disappeared and he gave a genuine smile that assured me that nothing was wrong.
"Nothing sweetheart. I'm so glad that I have you guys." He said giving me a kiss on the forehead.