azure266( ): You asked about the incest line. Remember how Jake had said, "Then make it simple". Remember a the chapter before that Marco had said "Here's something simple" and kissed Ryan. And now he refused to kiss Jake because it would be semi-incest? There's a twisted little joke there. Thanks for the long review, I love those, they make me feel special
anonymous: Whoever you are, mymystery reviewer, I highly appreciate it. I'm glad that you enjoy it, I just want to entertain in an artistic…I mean literary fashion. Even if it is mind-bogglingly twisted
Enigmus: Howddaaayyy again, and thanks for the reveiw, I hope you like this too
I heard you fell into a rabbit hole
Covered yourself up in snow
Baby tell me where'd you go
For days and days and days and days….
Chapter 9: Down A Rabbit Hole
Jake sat down in the black chair and looked idly up at the computer before logging on with sweaty hands and typing in an intricate combination of words and codes before his website came up again and he dived mentally into the cyber mainframe, to tangle along in the wires and twist and turn through connections and spy ware. Finally, however after doing a rather stupid thing, though is was subconscious if you wanted to place the blame on something , he ended back up at the one place he feared that he would never go again. He blinked warily, trying to shut the program off, but it wouldn't close, it was forever locked onto his screen until he shut down again." I'm weary of this game" He silently whispered. He clicked the mouse again and again, the page still not going away. And then a screen came up, and in bright red letters over a black background words began to appear as if he was typing them but he wasn't.
H…e…l…l…o…t…h…e…r…e…J…a…k…e…y…
He flinched as he saw the username : Turn Around The Second Time. More words began to come up
H…o…w…a…r…e…y…o…u…?
He frowned before he finally placed his finger to the keyboard and jammed down on the keys:
Didn't I tell you that what you're doing is pathetic and dumb? You're worthless, a sham, nothing more to me than a memory, one that I am trying my utmost hardest to forget
He waited until the reply came scrawled out:
S…o…I…'ll…t…a…k….e…t…h…a…t…a…s…a…"y…e…a…h….M…I….C…H…E…A…L….I'm….d…o…I…n…g….f…I…n…e.."
Could you please take this damn program off my computer, I've had enough problems with my eye sight. If you must talk to me, do it through my website, or have you corrupted that too?
Jake waited as he screen went back to normal and was automatically transported to the chat website he created a few days after the main website launched. It took a while to load…
Loading…please wait….transferring data….please type in your password to begin entry….
Jake quickly typed in his password and name
Processing…please wait…please wait….please wait….error….illegal use of password….please state name and address properly and try again….
Jake, frustrated, typed in his information and gave the computer a slight kick.
Processing….processing…please wait…please wait….error…error….error….please wait…transmitting….loading…..
Jake tapped his finger nails, this had to be the slowest connection in internet history
You are now logged on as :
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent
Password:
The name popped up and he flinched
Turn Around The Second Time: Hello there….Jakey
"WHAT?" Ryan yelled as he followed Karen down the steps, glairing and waving his arms wildly.
"You heard me you little sniveling twit, get the hell out of my house" Karen roared as she stood defiantly in the middle of the kitchen, now holding a pan of grease, sloshing this way and that.
"Excuse me…it's my damn house!" Ryan snapped, placing his hand on his hips.
"Correction. When you're 18 it's your house, until then, it's mine. Now pack your bags and get the hell out of here." Karen smiled darkly.
Ryan twisted his hands, ran upstairs and began to pack quickly. Oh, how he was dying to get out of the house for days and days on in, forever being tied down by the pressure of being the father figure in his siblings lives that they never had. He came back down and looked at Karen, his lips curled." Where is it…?" He asked calmly, he flinched internally though.
"What?" Karen asked innocently, stepping away from the pan." You mean…this?" She held out a white defined tip paint brush with golden rims and a white finish. Ryan's father's paint brush, the one that he had left him before he died. His last connection to his father.
"Don't…" Ryan whispered.
"Don't what?" Karen taunted menacingly
She held out the paint brush over the pan, smiling a little.
He began to run, dropping his bags….
She dropped the brush towards the pan….
He did an amazing dive, the farthest he'd ever reach in his life….
The brush fell almost as if in slow motion…
She cackled just a little bit as little eyes peered from around the corner…
Brothers and sister watching from afar…
At the tragedy that was occurring…
He grunted slightly….
Hovering over the pan, catching the brush….
As he knocked it over…
And went falling to the ground….
The pan right above him…
And then just to make things worse and painful…
Karen pushed her foot down….
Until she heard two snaps…
And the second one wasn't the paint brush…
Ryan looked up with glassy eyes, the pan hitting his hand and burning it severely,
But the pain was nothing compared to the amount of sorrow, anger and hate burning within him
As he watched his paintbrushes , and I say that because it was snapped in two, become fried.
He pulled himself up, his burned hand behind his back as he advanced on her, murderous tones being an understatement at the moment. He drew a killer's breath, let out a raging grunt and ran towards her, homicidal intentions within mind's reach. She held up her hand, as he launched himself at her and said a little sentence, the tiny little fragment of words that made him stop.
"If you hurt me, kill me, or even look at me funny, these little bastards will be separated into different shelters across the face of this very earth, and we all know how mush you'd love that"
He winced, stopped and looked at them. His little angels, his little stars. They were all so innocent, 'Don't do this to them' He cried eternally as he walked up to each and everyone of them, pulling them into a long hug and placed a kiss on their heads softly.' It wasn't supposed to be this way' He walked out the door, gulping as he had nowhere to go, and closed the door behind him.
Karen sighed," Oh damn, now I need a new vat of grease so I can have some bacon"
Sarah opened her mouth but Robert covered it, shook his head and walked upstairs, Mike, Mark, and Lizzie followed him. Sarah did so also, glancing one final last time at the curtains before going too. There wasn't anything damn thing they could do about it.
Turn Around The Second Time: I changed my name
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I see…
Turn Around The Second Time: Well, this is awkward
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I'm sure it is
Turn Around The Second Time: Are you going to talk to me or not
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I'm trying my best not to rotate my head and spit projectile vomit all over my windows if that's an answer
Turn Around The Second Time: Hahahah, that's funny.
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Sure, whatever
Turn Around The Second Time: Okay, listen Jakey….
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Please, call me Jake
Turn Around The Second Time: It's like that now huh?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, it's like that
Turn Around The Second Time: Okay, fine then, Jake. So, is that Marco character doing you any good?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I love him like there's no tomorrow
Turn Around The Second Time: Yeah, I'm sure you do…I kinda missed ya
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Huh…
Turn Around The Second Time: I said I kinda missed ya….
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: The great Michael misses me?
Turn Around The Second Time: Yeah, the great Michael misses you, are you happy?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: No, and I never will be again.
Turn Around The Second Time: You just need a hug
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Certainly not from you
Turn Around The Second Time: Of course not, I'd never touch you like that-
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Let's not start this again
Turn Around The Second Time: I'm not, I'm not, I just wanted to tell you that I'm here for you since this is the anniversary day and all…
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: That being?
Turn Around The Second Time: Rory,
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I can't believe you remember
Turn Around The Second Time: I remember everything there is to know about you Jake
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, I know, I guess I forgot, that's all
Turn Around The Second Time: So, if it make you feel better, I miss Rory too.
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I can't believe he's gone
Turn Around The Second Time: It feels like yesterday we were all together, playing, singing, laughing…
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I don't want to talk about it
Turn Around The Second Time: Okay, okay, how about the Michelangelo character?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: You?
Turn Around The Second Time: No, Ryan
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: You know about him too?
Turn Around The Second Time: Of course
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: He's cool
Turn Around The Second Time: What about his brother?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: He's cool
Turn Around The Second Time: I'm feeling something weird right now, could you help me explain it?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Sure…
Turn Around The Second Time: It's tingly, it's burning, it's falling…it's….fast, I know that for sure, do you know what it is?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, it's love
Turn Around The Second Time: It's horrible
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, I know
Turn Around The Second Time: Could you pull me out of it?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Take Tums spelled backwards, it'll fix you up real good. Better than I could ever do at least
Turn Around The Second Time: Tums backwards?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, trust me
Turn Around The Second Time: T-U-M-S-…S-M-U-T. I get it
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: You're slow
Turn Around The Second Time: Love makes you that way
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Yeah, I know, but please, don't tell me who it I-
Turn Around The Second Time: You
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: What?
Turn Around The Second Time: You
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Oh god,
Turn Around The Second Time: You, it's you, it's always been you hasn't it? Everything is all about Jakey, never about me. How I feel, what I need. What I want, what I believe.
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Not my problem. Not my fault, not my issue
Turn Around The Second Time: Jesus-
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Look, you hack onto my connection, I don't even know how the hell you got onto this one all the way out in Anaheim, and come on here babbling about love and all this other bull crap. I told you, you are the past. My past and if you keep holding on…leeching onto me like this I'm never going to come to realize that…
Turn Around The Second Time: It's not me then
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: No, it's me, remember, it's always me
Turn Around The Second Time: Always has, always will.
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: Don't start crying again
Turn Around The Second Time: Who said I was?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I know you, you probably are over the sink right now, looking into the mirror, dark circles under your eyes and a razor in your hands, pathetically slashing away because I don't love you…
Turn Around The Second Time: Who knew you could be so cold?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: I guess you don't know me that well then…
Turn Around The Second Time: What would Rory feel if he knew what you were doing?
Falling Away And Still Heaven Sent: He'd smile, he was the one who turned me into this. Good-bye Mikey, and next time, try hacking onto my computer on a better server…
Turn Around The Second Time: I-
Message ended, connection lost. To try again please re-enter password and go to log in page.
Jake clicked the white bar.
To block user, please type in name and server connection.
He typed it in quickly.
User now blocked. End message, please go to log in page to si-
Jake shut off the computer, looked around to make sure no one was looking, went into the bathroom and shut the door. He turned on the bathtub water and looked into the mirror and smiled. I prayed for rainy days like this, he thought sadly, but now I'll just have to make due.
He walked into the tub and sat down, fully clothed and shut his eyes, the water level rising higher and higher.
" Café Ramon'" Dylan whispered in his best French accent, "Has been a personal favorite of mines since I came here, I'm sure you'd like to see that"
"I'd like to see a lot of things" Marco murmured happily, climbing into his lover's lap." Can't we just spend the day here, sprawled out on the carpet with the lights out listening to the steady crackle of thunder and the ribbons of water that fell ever so slightly against our window pane, marveling at how much in love we are and how beautiful nature can be?"
Dylan smirked," Been hanging around Jakey again?"
"He's rubbing off on me" Marco answered, burring his face into Dylan's chest." I just wanted to help him, conquer all this emotion that he was trapped inside of him, and don't act like you don't see it or feel it, because even strangers sometimes point it out"
"I know sweetie" Dylan said calmly." Listen, you love Jake, I love Jake, everybody loves Jake"
"But sometimes that isn't enough" Marco sighed out," He's had so many things taken away from him, like his mother…his father…his brother, Michael-"
"Michael?" Dylan asked." Who's he?"
Marco closed his eyes," His best friend, they were so close together, inseparable even. Well, after Rory died, Jake lashed out on him for something, he never told me why, and they separated. And he has the most horrible nightmares about it too, every night, either screaming out Rory's name or Michael's, or mines…"
"Oh wow…" Dylan trailed off," I think we should all go out for dinner tonight. Loosen things up a bit, relax our little solder."
Marco smiled," Our little solder"
"Dad!" Jake called from the back room.
Startled, both Marco and Dylan shot up and came into the room. They could hear water running in the bathroom. Marco knocked on the door lightly." Yeah, what's up?"
"Ummm…could you come in here for a second…alone?" Jake asked.
Marco looked at Dylan before he opened the door and closed it behind him. Dylan sat on the bed.
Marco sat by the edge of the tub as Jake pulled on his necklace a little bit, still sitting in the water. His eyes were black almost, his skin pale." I guess it's not your average cold"
"No" Marco dryly smiled, trying to fight tears as he got up and went to go get a towel .He shut the window, sat on the edge of the tub railing, major déjà vu hitting him. He pulled Jake's wet body towards him and pulled off his shirt, wringing it out and throwing it into the sink. The dye in Jake's jeans turned the water black a little as he tried to take off his jeans but Jake wouldn't let him. " Oh Jake, why do you do this to yourself every time?" Marco whispered as he walked across the room and grabbed some soap. He patiently sat down again and began washing Jake's face, of dried tears a little cuts along his arms. Jake closed his eyes as the water and soap hit him, burning his skin and making him feel light headed. Marco's pulled a wash cloth out and began brushing over his arms, his chest. He turned the nozzle again, a new wave of water filling the tub before smiled and pressed down on the faucet. "Remember when you were like 11 I would always do this to spread the soap around the tub, and how you'd always laugh and say your dad used to do the same thing?".
"You're my dad now" Jake said softly, turning over and going face down into the water.
"I know" Marco replied as he pulled him back up." And I want you to know I love you. I love you Jakey, do you understand that? And Rory loved you too"
Jake looked away so Marco placed his hands above his head and under his chin and made him look him in the eyes." And it's not your fault."
Marco kissed him on the head softly," Please Jake, don't be sad, I hate it when you're sad"
Jake suddenly looked up and pulled Marco into the tub with him, water splashing as Marco, fully clothed, landed on top of Jake. He moved over slightly, since it was one of those queen sized bathtubs and hung onto Marco dear life. Every time, he always clung onto the closet thing that there was, Marco being his life saver." Alesso…" Jake began, reverting back into his normal, childish voice and shining baby eyes, ran a hand through Marco's wet hair and held his hands." I love you too". Dylan took this time to come into the room, took one look at the two of them in the bathtub and smiled." Can I join you two, or is it private?"
"Nope" Jake said happily." You're welcome to join us"
Dylan noted the change in his voice as he slid next to Marco. Marco placed his head on Dylan's shoulder, his arms wrapped around Jake, who was sitting in between his legs. Dylan had his legs crossed over Jake's legs and was holding Marco around the waist. Jake closed his eyes slowly, soaking in the warmth of both of them as Dylan kissed Marco on the head and slipped off to sleep.
If you're wondering about why Jake reverts from different moods from babyish Jake to teenager jake that will be explained soon, I hope you all like Michael, he'll show up later on. So...I guess...Reveiw! Please, it's what all the cool people do