As I was listening to "I'm Not That Girl" I was reminded that, no matter how much I love him, I can never have Atem.
An unreachable love
I love him
I want him
I need him
But…I can never have him
I can never touch him
Nor hug him
Nor kiss him
I can't do any of those things
I am limited in showing my love
I can smile at him
But he'll never smile back
I can try to talk to him
But he'll never respond
I can write my feelings on paper
Bu he'll never read them
I can even say "I love you" to him
But he'll never hear me
That is the hardest part
Him not hearing those three words
Another part that is hard is…
The fact that I feel his pain
And he'll never even see my smile
I feel everything about him
My heart is consumed with him
He fills my very soul
But…
I don't fill his soul
He can't feel me, see me, or hear me
It hurts sometimes
But there is a small silver lining
My love for him…helps me in sad times
I just look at his picture
And I feel better
Even if he can't be there for me in person,
His face will always be near me
So will his voice
He always cheers me up
Even if he's an unreachable love