I can't reply to your reviews this time, as a writer, I want to bang head into the wall. Over and Over and Over again. Well this is the second to last chapter my dear loves, and epilogue Oh..um…Trent and Adrian's angst. Michael tells a lot of his….secrets Poor poor Mikey, um, hate…hate…hate! Jake, you will. And Michael will make you cry.Um…he almost dies…again…well you know, just read the story. :runs off to bang head into the wall, repeating "I'm a shitty shitty writer:

Chapter 34: All These Things That I've Done

"When did you first find out" Pete asked calmly.

"A year ago, after Adrian insisted in me being up to date with my medical records, he said that I needed to be safe and I needed to be clean. So I got tested, and so did he…and well….we both found out that same week"

"Did you ever take your medication?"

"No, I'm surprised I lived this long"

"But your only…15" Marco gaped out, surprised.

"I need to make money any way I can, ever since Jake kicked me out of the house, I needed somewhere to be. I met Adrian, and he took me in. I was sleeping on park benches before, for like a month and then I moved in with Addy and the rest went from there." Michael sighed out.

"We had a lot in common, but he saved my life on one too many occasions. Originally, I wanted him…badly. It was more than just a sexual attraction…something more, like a burning urgent need to be with him, it was killing me that I couldn't be with him…it hurt…God, it hurt so bad" Michael whispered, placing his hand to his chest, "But he wouldn't let me. I thought at the time it was because he didn't want me…but it was to prevent me from getting it. He had had it for 2 years before I met him. Eventually we did have sex, but it wasn't until Matthew Williams that I got it"

"Matthew Williams the tennis player?" Ryan asked.

"Yep, surprising what you don't know about our celebrities" Michael scoffed," And he knew he had it too! And he didn't warn me…"

"You used a condom?" Marco asked.

"It was a hostile take over" Michael breathed out," It happened too fast, I needed the money, he wanted a boy, easy come…" He shivered at the word." Easy go"

"And now your sick?" Jake finished with a question.

Michael glared at him," Butt the fuck out, if it wasn't for you and your passive aggressive I love you Mikey and I hate you Mikey moments I wouldn't be here in this situation!"

"Oh no don't blame me. No one told you to be some…fucking whore" Jake snapped.

Michael stared at him," You ungrateful little shit" He snapped, "You fucking ass hole, if it wasn't for you …your bitter fucking ways, your false 'I love yous' and kisses and sweet words I wouldn't be here. If You hadn't have been so fucking slow to stop Kyle from putting that pill in Rory's water that time maybe we'd all be back in your bedroom now, hatching another wonderful plan. Face it Jake, it's not me you hate, it's Rory for leaving us, for breaking that seal that we mad years ago, but it's still here…Jake, it is!" Michael grabbed Jake and pressed his lips up against his quickly and harshly, applying pressure until both their lips bleed together, and Michael ran a tongue over the copper taste, and then he slapped him," But your too dumb to realize that. It's not my fault! Jake, it's not my fault!"

"I never said it was!"

"You didn't have to! You never kissed me the same way again after he died, Jakey. Why…" Michael's voice cracked," You never looked at me the same way…you can't even look me in the eye and say "I love you Mikey" with that teasing smile and pretend like everything is okay! It's not okay Jake…it's really not" Michael wiped his tears away.

"Just let me go" Jake whispered.

"What?"

"Just let me go!" Jake snapped," If I'm some fucking burden just let me go then!"

"STOP MAKING IT ALL ABOUT FUCKING YOU! I can't! Don't you think I've tried…I've tried…I've tried so fucking hard…but I can't, you have me wrapped around your fingers ever so well…" Michael curled his fists at his sides until his knuckles turned white. "Why must we go through this over and over again. It's always the same old song and dance, Jake. We're always tripping up around each other. I only tired to come back into your life because I thought I finally forgave you, but I haven't. I…I hate you! I can't look into your eyes any more, I can't smile at you any more…it hurts just to be around you…"

Michael dropped to the floor," So please…just let me go to the bathroom and deal with it the …only way that I know how"

Jake looked at the unstable mess that was his best fri-…friend, on the floor and shivered slightly. "Go on…" Jake said softly," Get the fuck away from me, go and kill yourself for all I care, it wouldn't matter" He paused, looking around the room," To me…you're already dead"

He turned around and grabbed his coat, "Hey Marco, and fuck you…good luck finding Dylan" He slammed the door as he left.

Everyone was floored.

Michael was already in the bathroom locking the door.

Adrian watched as Trent blew up a balloon and let it go," Happy birthday Addy"

He kissed him on the cheek." What a wonderful age you turn"

"Ohh…21 in all it's glory, and look where I'm at now"

"You have two people who love you very very much" Trent said, hopping into the bed with him and poking his arm accusingly.

"Yes, and I'm happy for that"

"But you still miss the one that matters the most?" Trent asked.

"That always annoyed me about you, you always knew shit too well"

Trent placed another sound kiss on his cheek," I'm your brother, that's my job"

"For a brother you have a pretty strong sexual attraction to me" Adrian said with a roll of his eyes.

Trent waved a finger at him," Ahh incest, part of every daily structured diet"

Adrian laughed," Damn you."

"Hey, look on the Brightside. If we had a kid, at least they'd be beautiful" Trent teased.

Adrian couldn't help but laugh again." Okay there…hey missy" He cooed as he watched Tilly toddle around on the floor in her little jumper outfit." She's so beautiful, I can't believe that I helped create her…"

"Yeah, you did. Don't let your head get too big" Trent smiled," She's a princess, and she has all her uncles sexy genes!"

"Please, I hope not. Tilly…she doesn't have a middle name" Adrian stopped," What should her middle name be?"

"A special name" Trent nodded.

"Michelle" Adrian answered automatically.

"Tilly Michelle Asher, how sweet" Trent said her full name. "But why Michelle?"

Adrian looked at him," Gee…I wonder"

"A pretty boy named Michael" Trent said," Should I be jealous that you're cheating on me?"

"I'm pretty sure in the uterus you were hitting on me" Adrian laughed again.

"Hey, I probably turned you gay to begin with" Trent laughed along with his brother.

"Hey…Addy" He whispered once the laughing died down.

"Yeah?"

"Happy birthday…"

"Happy birthday to you too" Adrian sighed," I can't believe that your older than me!"

"By 9 seconds, and don't you forget it" Trent laughed," I'm your dirty twin"

"Laugh all you want, but I'm always the better looking twin" Adrian pointed out.

"Yeah yeah, I'll let you have that title," Trent smirked," But only if I get to have that little trophy boy of yours…"

"Hence you not being gay, let's remember that, shall we?" Adrian asked.

"Awww!" Trent moaned as he laid back on the pillow with him," You're no fun!" He crossed his arms and smiled again.

Marco sat down in the chair, blew some hair out of his face and looked at the bathroom door," He's been in there for 2 hours" He whispered to Ryan.

"Don't you think it's time we took him out?"

"I can't he locked the fucking door"

"Hello Ladies" Andy strode in quickly, took a nail file and picked the lock as quickly as he came. They opened up the door to see Michael huddled in the corner, blood all over the floor and his hands. "Hel- help me" He shivered a little.

"Oh God...Andy, get him a towel, Ryan, help me move him into the living room, Pete, call 911" Marco said quickly.

Ryan and Marco picked Michael up and put him on the couch, wiping the blood , sweat and tears from the younger one's face before putting a towel down to apply pressure to the cuts to stop the bleeding, or at least until the ambulance came. Michael was shaking uncontrollably at this point, shivering and saying nonsense as if his mind and body had went into some sort of shock.

"It's funny that whenever I happen to be around you smile just a little bit wider" Michael said softly.

Marco stared at him," What?"

"I think he's hallucinating," Andy said, staring at him," It's known to happen during shock"

"Who is he talking to then?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah…I know you love me, you say it every day silly" Michael rolled his eyes a bit, laughing," Yeah, I love you too."

"Who else would he be talking to?" Ryan asked.

"Jake" Marco and Andy said at the same time.

"The ambulance is on it's way" Pete said, throwing the cordless phone down and glancing at Michael," Who the fuck is he talking to?"

"Jake!" Marco, Andy and Ryan said at the same time.

"Oh…kid's got it bad" Pete said, sitting down.

"No…Michael , I mean…I really love you" Jake said seriously.

"Yeah, I know"

"I don't think your getting what I'm saying"

"No, I do, I really do. I can see it in your eyes, Jakey"

Marco sighed," Okay, he is talking to Jake."

"Did he say love?" Pete asked, confused.

"Yeah" Ryan sighed," We need the ambulance to hurry the hell up"

There was a knock at the door, Marco opened it and then everything else went in a blur.

As Jake was walking down the street he saw an ambulance zoom by him, with someone's bloody fingers pressed up against it desperately and aimlessly. He blew out a breath and looked at the floor.

There was no turning back now.

But as he saw the ambulance swerve to the right and the back doors being kicked out maybe he was wrong.

Maybe he had one last chance.

You have to cry now. It's mandatory, Michael is so…weak…and sad…and pitiful…and desperate in this chapter even I regret writing it.