Epilogue: Artistic Revisions

(1 month later)

" So you will only talk to me?" Adrian laughed weakly inside the bedroom of the hospital.

Since his eye operation a month or so back, he never really recovered, and since his HIV already made his body's immune system weak, he was just going down hill from there.
His doctor said he basically had a few more days to live.

Trent was already dead. Soon as he heard the doctor's announcement about Adrian's life expectancy, he committed suicide, in the most wonderful way. He jumped off the bridge where their mother had done the same thing.

Michael laid inside the bed with Adrian, playing with his hair and smiling a little bit," Tilly looks so pretty, you should see her hair. She has red streaks in it now!"

"Really?" Adrian asked, his voice a harsh whisper.

"Yeah…and yeah, I only talk to you…and Tilly. I can't to anyone else, it almost seems impossible." Michael whispered. He checked his watch and pulled out a bottle of pills from his pocket and grabbed the water off the side and popped it into his mouth.They put him on anti-depressants since Marco emitted him into the hospital, he had to take them 3 times a day, plus his HIV medication, which amounted to like 15 pills a day.

"So, how's school?"

"I dunno, I just started, somehow Marco got me into his school, so I'm just trying to get around" Michael sighed out, chewing on the pill slightly.

"This seems odd, you and me hanging around in a hospital like this" Adrian whispered out, smiling dimly. His skin was so…pale, his hair had faded from a wonderful vibrant blueish black to a dull black, faded away almost. His smile was a frown really, and his eyes…oh his eyes…they were just clouds on a rainy day.

"I like it" Michael shrugged, playing with his bandages now, which were wrapped around his arms securely," You and me, like old times"

Adrian yawned," I guess, I never would take back a minute of it"

"Me neither" Michael whispered, he pulled the covers over them." Here, take a nap, you look tired"

"Fine…" Adrian sighed out," You worry too much"

Michael smiled," I know."

As Adrian's eyes fluttered close after a few minutes of silence he whispered ," I love you for who you are"

"What?" Michael asked, sleepily.

"A while ago…" Adrian paused to breathe," you asked me 'When will I have somebody who loves me for…me…?' and I'm telling you…I do" His eyes slipped close.

"Me too…" Michael whispered as he kissed him goodnight.

We are simple simple creatures

I remember my most zen moment

It was when you found me dead…

Next to you I laid.

Michael woke up the next morning to see Adrian dead in his arms.

There was no funeral, just a quick burying.

No one even knew him.

He had no one, incept for Michael, Tilly and Trent.

Michael hoisted Tilly up in his arms and kissed her cheeks," Your daddy was a good man" He said softly," Always remember that, Tilly"

Marco placed a hand on his shoulder and guided him away.

Oh September, what joys you bring

"Okay, eggs, scrambled, orange juice, grits, Spanish omelet, bacon, turkey bacon, milk, juice, peppers, cookies, cereal and everything else you guys need, eat up!" Mrs. Del Rossi said, gesturing to the full table of food." And hurry up; you have to get to school in 10 minutes"

Andy rolled his eyes," Yes, mam!" He grabbed a piece of toast and stuck it in his mouth." Ahh…September" He sighed, smiling," What joys you bring!"

Michael flinched.

"Okay, come on dude!" Marco snapped into the phone," Spinner and Jimmy are picking me and Michael and Robert up for school. Andy, Pete and Ryan, you guys are getting a ride from Brian, right? Mike and Mark stay with mom, Lizzie is coming with us…actually and Sarah is going where?"

"To the school up the block, it just opened up" Sarah piped up.

"Yeah" Marco said, dumping the cereal into his mouth and glancing at Michael uneasily.

" You'll like this school, I promise"

Michael just nodded.

"Okay then, let's get out of here!" Marco said happily.

The boys finished the breakfast lightening quickly and waited for their rides to arrive.

Once piled inside the car Michael noticed something poking him in his pants.

He pulled out a note and looked at it oddly, where did that come from?

You're a drug hit to my sanity

And acid trip to my well being

I never though the day would come where I'd end up writing the last, final letter.

I guess the Mikey and Jakey show is over.

The curtains are closed, the lights are out.

And I've never felt better.

I hope you like being free, Michael, because it won't last for long.

Sooner or later, we're going to find each other and fall in love all over again, just like in all the bullshit fairy tales that we read when we were younger. It's what we're destined to do.

We're just star crossed lovers anyway.

You're right about one thing though, it's not always about me. And hopefully, it never will be again. I have a lot of things going on in my life…and I took it out on you.

But…I'm not going to say sorry, or apologize, there's really nothing to say. I know you hate me.

And I know I hate you.

So when we see each other again.

Please.

And I'm asking you this because I know you'll do it.

Don't kiss me like you mean it…

I don't think we can handle another one of those.

We'll see each other again, that's for sure. Tell Marco I love him.

I know I'm an idiot.

But…I used to be your idiot.

And that's just as well, if you never own me again, at least I know I used to have a place in your heart, even if it's long gone.

XOXOXO Jake…
Love.

Michael stared at the papers in his hands, that painful familiar feeling crept into his body, but this time, he just didn't shake it off. He ripped the paper up and threw it out the window.

"So dudes, the hooker was a cop!" Spinner said, running a hand through his hair," We were in jail the whole time, at like…the border of Mexico or something! But then this boy that we had met on a donkey with a cowboy hat bailed us out…"(Lol, you have to see the Killers All These Things That I've Done Video to understand)

Craig laughed," We should've listened to Jimmy in the first place."

"You guys…are idiots" Marco laughed.

Michael smiled crookedly; it'd be a long time before he was normal again.

Jake sat inside his dorm room and smiled when he looked at the roll call sheet in front of him. The room assignments went according to plan, each boy had exactly one partner to pair up with for classes and room sharing for the year, He looked down the list. Alex smiled at him gently from the side, and then went back to sleeping next to him.

Jake Sheilds…Remy Aristol

Alex White...Scott Bailey

Latimer Hutchens…Jamie Hert

Ahh…he loved school.

Someone knocked at his door.

When he opened it he saw a black and blue eyed Remy standing there, scowling and holding his suitcase.

"Say it" He muttered.

"Say what?" Jake asked, half puzzled.

"Say what you had to say…" Remy said louder.

A smile curled onto his lips, "I told you so"

Marco walked up the hallway to his class room, his arm wrapped around Michael's shoulder and sighed." You know, I understand that your hurting and all, Michael, really I do, but your going to have to talk sooner or later"

Michael nodded.

"Well….okay, I have to stop at my locker anyway" Marco said, turning to the left and seeing the familiar blonde leaning up against the lockers with his arms crossed.

Marco's step faltered.

"Dylan"

Lexy sat on the steps watching the different students pass by without noticing her. No one cared about her. She was nothing.

"Hey, Lex" Natalie said as she sat down next to her.

Lexy smiled widely, well, maybe some one cared.

"Let's get to class already, I don't want to be late the first day" Natalie said with a smile.

She held out her hand.

Lexy took it," Yeah…I don't want Mrs. Leary to give us a tardy slip or something horrible like that!"

Natalie laughed as she turned around," Ryan…"

"Natalie…"

"Hey…"

"Hey…"

"How's it going?"

"It's a long story…"

"Look, I don't want things to be weird between us now tha-"

"Nothing is weird, you're my best friend" Ryan said, throwing an arm around her.

"Hey whores" Brian said with a wry smile as Andy launched himself on top of him," Oh my god, you twat! You scared the shit out of me! I missed you!"

"Down, boy" Brian laughed, petting his head," I missed you too". He looked around," I missed all of you"

Pete and him did this stupid hand shake," One up, one in the air, one bottom, no cares" they said, winking at each other at the statement.

"Ryan…kid…doll" Brian said, doing a fake chewing gum accent and giving him a quick hug," Long time"

"Long time, lots to see" Ryan smirked.

"Which I'm sure you'll fill me in on" Brian smirked back.

"We all have" Andy said, fanning himself.

"Alright then, shall we ladies?" He asked, grabbing Andy and placing an arm around his shoulders, who placed an arm around Ryan's shoulder, who placed an arm around Pete's shoulders, who placed an arm around Natalie's shoulders who finally placed an arm around Lexy's shoulders." Oh, you too Natalie and Lexy" Brian joked.

These people's lives were far from being settled, in fact, the problems were just beginning. Because, no matter how hard you try and fight it, the past always comes back to get you, sometimes it leaves you broken down...with nothing left than a paint brush...maybe it's an abusive past, a broken love, a twist relationship, hateful parents. Maybe you have eyes that bare your soul, maybe you have words that sting your lips, but whatever may aile you, ir's shit compaired to these people

I just wanted to say, again, thank you all, because you guys rock, and I love you and as a treat here's a sneak preview of the sequel, a little something you can look forward to, and I'm telling you NOW, I WILL MAKE YOU CRY! Because I, myself, am sitting on the edge of my own seat right now. So here it is…And in case all of you thought that the sequel is bullshit, that I am out of fucked up and crazy ideas and that I'm not afraid to kill anymore characters Just read this little part from the sequel and watch me prove you wrong…well…not now, but the first chapter shall knock you off your shoes. I swear, the sequel just pushes everything I've written, character abuse, rape, yes, rape, mental break downs, yelling, screaming, kicing…dancing…lots of dance, parties, dorm rooms, cameras that will be watching Michael and Jake's move…um….something dangerous will happen with a knife….um..yeah…knives are bad, don't use them during kinky sex…Andy and Marco…have boyfriends? Who the hell is Sammy? And Davis? And Ellie is back, dhur! So perpare for the most mascara filled lip glossed abused whip leather chain emotionally distressed comedy drama I can make you cry and then make you laugh ich heisse superfantasich story ever! Okay, it may not be that good, but…you guys like it, right? Bang Bang! Love all of you ever so much and oh…like….Thankies to Lizzaaayy and Azury for being with me from the beginning :huggles: and everybody else for picking up the story along the way! SEEEWWWWAAAUUEEE! Lol. And there's changes to the writing slightly, you'll see.

So like…yay and gaspy gasp people, I am hardlt running out steam!

I LOVE ALL OF YOU! lol, and the sequel shall be out by monday...