Chapter 4

Don't own Gundam Wing

She saw it on his face. She knew what he wanted to say. "No! No! I won't let you! I'll lock all the doors! You can't!" Her voice broke on a sob. She sank back on the bed. Relena was so scared she could feel herself shaking. Tears poured down her cheeks as she found herself cursing him in her head.

Heero felt worse than ever before at that moment. He didn't want to believe that he had come into her room, been the one to take her innocence away from her, and then tell her she would be alone again. "Relena, I'm so sorry. I have to go. They won't let me stay." He reached out to touch her and she jerked away from him as if she were being stung. He paced to the other side of the room. His heart flinched at the idea that this might be it. This might be the end of whatever had only just started the night before.

"How could you? How can you come in here and tell me that you love me and make love with me and then just walk out as if nothing had happened. I can't believe you can be so damn selfish." She screamed at him. All her emotions were in turmoil. "What if I got you out of this one? What if I called them up and told them I needed you to be here as my body guard and they let you stay. I'll say someone left a threatening note."

Heero sighed. "You can't do that, Relena. I can't lie. Not about this. When I come back it will be just us. I swear. I love you, Relena. I've never anyone or anything more in my entire life and now that I know what love is like and what it's like to be loved I couldn't just leave that behind without a second glance. You know that. I love you." Heero felt tears pricking his own eyes. "Please don't force me away now. I have to go. I'm so sorry."

Relena noticed the tears in his eyes but to say so would wound his pride so instead she tried to comfort him in other ways. "Please hold me, Heero." He couldn't believe she was still willing to touch him after what he had done. He raced to the bedside from across the room. He took her up in his arms and his tears spilled over, hoping she wouldn't notice.

"I don't deserve you, Relena. You're too good for me." Any hope that she wouldn't notice was banished at the sound of his voice. He had tears in his throat and he knew it showed when he talked. Heero hugged her so tightly he thought her bones might break but he couldn't seem to make himself let go. "I'm so sorry. I should have told you before."

"Oh, Heero, I love you." She sought to reassure him. "I love you so much."

"Oh, God." He sighed, all his tears gone. "I'm coming back. I'm only going to be gone for five months. But those are going to be a long five months. My god that will seem like eternity without you, my love, now that I've found you."

"Oh, Heero, just make sure you come back to me as soon as you can. I want to spend every moment I can with you. I love you so much." Relena couldn't believe her dream was finally coming true. It was a miracle to her. She was in love and the man she loved, loved her back.

"Relena. When I get back…well, I…I was just wondering…I mean…I don't have much to offer you…at least not as much as I would want to be able to give you…And, well, Relena…" He struggled. He was not planning on this happening but since it had he was elated.

"What is it, Heero?"

"Relena." He took a deep steadying breath. "Will you marry me? Please say you will."

"Oh, my God. Of course I will Heero."

The day Heero left there was one stop to make before he could even consider getting on that plane with his gundam. He climbed into Relena's room the same way he had the other night. Seeing her sleeping in her bed he decided not to wake her. God, she's so beautiful. He thought.

He quietly set a small box wrapped in velvet on her bedside table. He grabbed paper and a pen that she had sitting on a desk that was on one side of her room and wrote her a small beautiful letter.

After setting the letter by the box he checked his watch and when he realized he still had an hour before the plane left he gently crawled into bed next to her. She unconsciously moved closer to him but did not wake up. He took her in his arms and watched her sleep for the next forty-five minutes.

When leaving he grabbed up the box and the letter and placed on the pillow his head had rested upon no more that five minutes ago. Then with one last look back for the next five months he climbed back down and ran for the plane he was scheduled to be on in the next ten minutes.

Waking up and covering her yawn with a hand Relena felt a smile begin to curve her mouth. She felt like she hadn't slept that peacefully in decades. Turning her head she realized why. The pillow next to her still had an indent from where no one else but Heero could have slept last night. Inside the indent, however, was what held her interest.

There sat a small box covered in red velvet and a letter. She picked up the box first. She took a deep steadying breath first. She opened the box and gasped, tears coming to her eyes. It was a beautiful diamond ring. The diamond was a gorgeous one that was clear and full. Upon further inspection she found that on the actual band of the next ring it said 'Heero loves Relena' around it.

She felt her tears drop and she couldn't help but feel as if she was the luckiest woman in the world. Remembering herself she picked up the letter next. Opening it she traced the fancy curves of his masculine writing with a fingertip before reading the message.

My dearest love,

I am sorry for how you felt about what happened before but I can't say that I am sorry it happened. Because in the wake of what happened I will now spend the happiest years of my life with the one and only person I could ever love. I left your rings in the box. I hope you like them.

I cannot wait until I am back in your arms, watching you sleep, as I was this morning. You are the light to my life, which had been only dark until I was able to tell you that I loved you and feel as though you loved me back.

My every waiting thought will be of you until I return. I will miss you ever day, my love.

Only yours,

Heero

P.S. Heero loves Relena!

She felt fresh tears slip from her eyes as she thought of her sough guy writing her a note like this. Something that was so sentimental. Something that was so loving.

And she wished again that he did not have to leave. But at least now she could look forward to the time when he would come back and they would be married and be able to start a life and a family. A family!

Relena's hands went to her stomach. What if already she had their first little one growing there, beneath her loving hands? Her heart soared. She knew in her heart that it must be true and she promised to love this baby enough for the two of them until he returned.