Hello my dears! I'm back from my trip to London. It was FABULOUS by the way. Though the plane rides? Not so much. A grand total of 12 hours spent traveling for the way there, then 14 coming home. Shit. Also, I've been trying to spend more time on the book I'm writing. Moving on.

Response to reviews!

Queenofdakittys: Bwahaha, it's the irritated cursing people like you that make writing cliffhangers worthwhile. And as for leaving spoiler out more due to his phooey-ness in hbp? Sorry dear, I hate him too. But since he's one of the main characters in this story I got to keep him, I'll just make it AU (as it already is because Harry is angsty as hell and spoiler is alive) and You-know-who (no not volders) is still cool.

Flamegirl22: Ehe, thanks, and sorry I didn't update that day or the day after at your request, I would've but as you may have read in my beginning notes I flew out to London for three weeks the night I updated. And I'll get to your story ASAP!

maya100: joins you in cheering Don't you just adore padfoot? And yes, Sirius will NOT be a happy puppy when he hears what Harry has to say. Dumbles you say? (Heh, volders. Dumbles. These names make me giggle) yes, there will be a bit of angsty Albus and resentfulness when he hears. He will feel bad.

Saf Saf: yes, as you saw from the above review response. This chapter angry Godfathers and guilty headmasters.

Totallystellar: Heh, sorry about that love. I'm a bit computer retarded. And his secrets? To who? The secrets he's going to tell Sirius or the secrets he's keeping from Remus and Sev? Because the secrets to Sirius is obviously the abuse and shit, and the secrets he's keeping from the other two are basically just the gruesome details of the abuse.

Sindauviel: He, sorry about the insanity thing. I was on a trip; I'll try to be more prompt. And I KNOW! My mom came into my room to look for the phone and saw me sobbing, she freaked out until she saw the book in my hands and just rolled her eyes (even though she balled a few weeks later when she read it). And my sister yelled at me when I made a ruckus at 3 am when Sirius died.

Minniemcmouse: Thanks, I was dying to try and find a reason. And sorry, there aren't going to be any pairings in this story. (SRY! ) But if you want Remus/Harry I do have a story with that pairing called "Elvin Child". It's major AU and I don't know if that tickles your fancy but you could read it if you want.

ONWARD!

&HP&

Sirius sat cautiously on the bed with his eyes firmly trained on his godson who in turn sat at the foot of the bed, as far away from him as possible, and avoided his eye with all his might. Remus on the other hand sat silently to his right at the head on the bed and watched Harry with a sort of pity/regretful look.

"So… What is it you need to tell me kiddo?" Sirius asked softly when a certain amount of silence had passed. Harry starred more intently at the bedding by his feet and seemed to mull over his thoughts for a bit.

"My aunt and uncle… They… Well mostly my uncle… He…" Harry trailed off again and Sirius got worried, he had never known Harry to be at a loss for words. Finally Harry gave a great sigh and looked up at Remus pleadingly. "Professor Lupin I can't do this!" He sobbed out breathily with fresh tears threatening to fall from his eyes. Remus looked ages older than he really was; he looked almost as frightened as Harry did. And in a word Sirius was freaked.

"It's ok Harry" Remus replied softly. "Do… Do you want me to tell him?" He asked calmly. Harry looked to the bedding again and nodded silently. Remus bit his lip and looked a bit put out, as if he didn't really want to be the one to spill the beans either. Remus took a shaky breath and looked away from the forlorn figure of his godson to meet Sirius' eye. "Pads… Very recently… I—I discovered that Harry's uncle… He's been abusing him. We knew of course that his uncle didn't think much of him but… We didn't know how deeply the mental and emotional battery went. Not to mention… The… The phys—physical abuse." There was a defining silence at the end of Remus' words. Harry had nothing to say, he was too worried about what Sirius was going to say, so worried that he forced himself to keep his eyes down. Sirius on the other hand had too many thoughts running through his brain to even get a word out. Finally, after several excruciating seconds Sirius found his voice.

"WHAT?" He bellowed causing Remus to jump in surprise and Harry to recoil tighter into his ball and let out a small sob. "I'LL KILL HIM! I'll bloody kill him! And that bitch! She knew! She no doubt saw it all the time! And she was part of it wasn't she? That sodding tosser! I swear to Merlin! If I ever get my hands on those dirty little—"

"Sirius! Please! I understand that you're upset! You have good reason but it would probably do well to stop yelling!" Remus interjected with a slightly raised yet tired voice. Sirius cut off and swung around to look at him, as he had leapt up form the bed and began pacing during his rant. Remus gave him a meaningful look and nodded to Harry. Sirius looked to his godson and felt his stomach churn in regret. Harry was curled into a tiny ball and sat with his head buried in his knees so his messy hair draped over the denim of his pants like a curtain. He was shaking like a leaf and Sirius could hear the faint sound of crying. What had he been thinking? Harry was obviously worried about how he would take it, no need to mention that a history of physical abuse doesn't exactly create a good reaction to furious screaming. Sirius' face contorted into one of pain and he rushed forward to the bedside. He knelt next to Harry and stroked his hair soothingly. He knew that he shouldn't pull Harry into any sort of embrace right away dispite how much he wanted to do so, who knew how he would react.

"Harry, I'm so sorry!" He pleaded softly. "I didn't mean to yell, I'm in no way angry at you! I love you so much Harry and I'm only sorry I wasn't there for you." He let out a breath he didn't know he had been holding when Harry loosened up a bit and leaned just the tiniest bit into his touch. Sirius gently moved Harry's head so it wasn't buried in his knees anymore. He looked into Harry's tear glossed eyes and stroked the side of his face. "Harry. I… I'm so sorry." He was planning on saying more but cut off when Harry un-expectantly scooted forward and into his godfather's arms.

He remained with his knees against his chest but he buried his face in Sirius' neck and gripped the front of his shirt desperately. Sirius melted when he felt how small Harry seemed in his arms. How young, how vulnerable, how needing. Harry was such and exceptional kid, he was smart, collected, and so often seemed wise beyond his years. He was so exceptional that people often forgot how young he really was, this is exactly what Sirius had done. He forgot that Harry was 16, he forgot that he was the shortest kid in his grade out of the boys and girls, he forgot that Harry was an orphan that grew up in a loveless home without ever knowing his parents or anything about them. Sirius Black re-noticed all of these things as he held his Harry tightly in his arms with his cheek resting on his soft hair. He truly saw every aspect of his godson that people tried to ignore, the aspects that reminded people that their savior. The person with the weight of the world resting on their shoulders, with all eyes on him as he crosses the tight rope alone was just a child. The facts that alerted them to the fact that he was just human and had flaws and weaknesses like every body else. Harry began to speak, his voice muffled by Sirius' hair

"Don't be sorry Sirius. I should be, I should've told you. Or told anyone. I just—"

"Shh." Sirius whispered soothingly as tears stung at his eyes. "It's all right pup. You don't have anything to apologize for." Sirius saw Remus smiling sadly at them from the head of the bed. Sirius didn't waver in his grip on Harry and returned the bittersweet gesture to his life-long friend. Neither of them noticed the door creak open, nor did they notice Albus Dumbledore walk in the room looking quite miffed at why the door was locked and what all the muffled yelling had been about.

&HP&

Ech…. Short chapter, sorry. I'm just tired as hell and wanna go to bed. But I promise that I'll update soon.

R&R my loves!