A/N: Sorry peeps, I'm out to ruin it all! Hehe, no... just wait and see!
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Ok recap:
Hungry for his love, she kissed him again and again, letting her hands roam through his hair and down his body. Suddenly he broke the bond, pausing to catch his breath.
"Tess," he panted heavily, reading her face again for any signs, "are... are you sure of this?"
Her entire being screamed YES! She had wanted this for too long. "I'm sure".
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Lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my saviour
And I'll be your downfall
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Chapter 4)
Seven in the morning, the birds singing outside and the steady sound of the shower running brought Evan out of his sleep. Dazedly, he blinked and looked at his surroundings.
He wasn't in his room. It looked familiarly like Tess' bedroom. Suddenly every moment he'd experienced the night before came flooding back. Tess had finally given her heart to him and they'd made love.
He'd imagined and fantasised about it so often, but the reality and sheer magic of it all had blown him away. He'd finally landed the woman of his dreams.
Grinning to himself, he turned away from the window to face the empty pillow next to him. Then it all began to sink in.
Tess was still married. It had taken him this long to break through her barricades, but was it to be smooth roads ahead from now on? She was the most stubborn woman he'd ever met. She had those barricades up for a reason, and now he'd made his way through them, how could he be guaranteed she wouldn't put them back up and push him away again? Life with Tess was too difficult.
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This old world well don't it make you wanna think damn
This cold girl well I know she wanna make you scream damn
What's the matter girl well don't you think I'm good enough
This old heart's had a whole lot a breakin' down
She's got all these reasons in her head
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Life was too difficult.
Tess was curled up in the small shower cubicle, letting the steady flow of water run over her body, mixing with her tears, and sweeping them down the drain. The once hot water had turned cold, yet Tess was numb to it. Her eyes were swollen and red, due to the excessive amount of tears streaming down her face. She didn't have the energy to do anything but sit against the cold tiles and weep out her heart's contents.
Last night had been the most magical night in her entire life.
It shouldn't have been.
She was supposedly happily married to the wonderful Dr. Carmichael, and now here she was, only a few months into their marriage, sleeping with another man. How had she let this happen when she'd worked so hard to get him out of her life?
She heard a muffling sound just outside the bathroom. He'd woken up. "Tess..." she heard him breathe faintly behind the closed door. Fear struck her suddenly. What was she supposed to do?
Panicked, she rummaged with the taps and grabbed her towel, pulling it close to her wet, cold body. Managing to find her voice, she croaked, "I... I'm in here".
"You've been in there for ages," he replied, his voice wavering with concern, "ar... are you alright?"
The doorknob turned, giving Tess just enough time to cover herself with the towel, and step out of the shower.
Evan entered, wearing only the bed sheet he'd wrapped around his lower half, holding it up by the sheet corners. He'd look quite comical, fumbling and dragging the white sheet behind him, if it weren't for the current circumstances.
He stared at her, eyes boring into her. He just looked at her expectantly with his puppy dog eyes, a mix of emotions, causing her to falter. She felt her resolve crumble, yet again, under his piercing gaze. Unable to bear it anymore, she ripped her eyes from his, letting a single tear roll down her already streaked face.
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"Tess!" he exclaimed with worry as he noticed the single glistening tear. She was shivering uncontrollably, looking quite distraught. Her beautiful face was stained and blotchy. How he wished he could wipe those tears away and hold her in his arms.
With his spare hand he moved to comfort her. As he touched her shoulder, she flinched and stepped back, sending him reproachful looks.
"Tess, you're freezing!" he said. She'd obviously been in the shower so long that the hot water had turned to ice.
Ignoring his comment, she clutched her towel tighter to her body and continued to gaze at the bare floor. "I'm sorry," she muttered, letting another flood of silent tears escape her. "I can't... I just can't do this..."
She was going to do it again. She was going to push him away, just as she always did.
"Tess," he started, knowing too well it was already over, yet as damned determined as ever not to let her go... "I love you. I love you like he never could! Don't do this..."
With his words, her flood of tears and soft sobs grew stronger. She still didn't look at him. "Evan... I'm sorry..."
Evan knew it was coming. It happened every time he got close to her, yet he never learned. He kept letting her break his heart again and again for no reason at all, except for his own stupidity. He had let her break his heart again and again. He was a fool to think she'd ever love him, the way he did her.
His heart could stand her no more. Anger was boiling up inside him like molten lava bubbling in a volcano. He was ready to explode.
"What's the bloody matter with you!" he yelled at her viciously, all his sympathies suddenly lost, "Can't you see what we have? Does Josh have the same connection with you as I have? Leave him!".
"Evan, this is hard enough already... if I haven't got my marriage, what else have I got?"
He couldn't believe he was hearing this. That was her excuse?
"What? Your marriage is meaningless anyway!"
"You might not understand," she retorted, "I've betrayed him... I'm just as bad as my mother..."
"You're not her Tess, you never have been," he started...
"Please Evan... just. go..." she interrupted, finally looking him straight in the eyes. She wasn't to be persuaded. He was lost...
"Right," he said, noticing the quaver in his voice, "see you at work". She didn't reply. "Forgive me if I'm late today, but under the circumstances, I'm sure you'll understand," he added ruthlessly as an afterthought, dragging himself and the bed sheet from the bathroom.
Once back in the bedroom, he grappled around the floor to find his strewn clothes, quickly dressed, and made a dash for the front door. Tess hadn't left the bathroom. He reached the door, avoiding the bathroom, and made his exit. It was probably the last time he'd ever visit the police residence...
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This will all fall down, like everything in the world
This too must end, and all the words we said
We can't take back
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