"It might've looked like I did to her but it wasn't me I swear. Someone else killed him. Someone who didn't want us to find out who hired him," Kenshin explained.
I felt terrible. I went and assumed he killed someone and then told Karou and now he's getting yelled at for nothing. I sank to the floor, leaning against the wall.
"I'm such an idiot," I whispered to myself. I wasn't listening to Karou and Kenshin but before I knew what was happening Karou had come back inside calling my name.
She turned the corner to go look for me. I laughed to myself. Kenshin came in soon after. He, unfortunately, saw me sitting on the floor.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
I looked up at him, "You really didn't kill that assassin?" I asked.
He frowned. "No I didn't but," He started.
"I'm so sorry Karou yelled at you for what I told her. I didn't know you had an oath, I just assumed," I explained my eyes were filling with tears.
That was the one thing I found comfort in, crying.
"It's okay, it's no big deal," Kenshin said, trying to comfort me.
He sat across from me.
"I'm sorry," I said wiping my tears away, "I'm such a crybaby that's the only thing that comforted me when I was little."
"It's okay, I understand," Kenshin started.
"But you don't," I interrupted, "I'm surprised I'm even here sitting with you right now. I've had so many suicidal thoughts it's not even funny."
We were quiet for a second.
"I do understand. When I was younger I watched as my foster family was killed, I went through the Japanese revolution, I was named Battousai the manslayer, and I turned out fine. I think I should understand a little," Kenshin protested.
"I know that whole story but you're not like me. You killed people; I'm too scared to kill anyone. I'm scared I might enjoy it too much, so I don't kill….anything. I just want a normal life which is probably never going to happen," I replied.
"I understand. Even I probably would have suicidal thoughts if I was treated like you were, but that part of your life is over now. You're starting over, just like I did. You would never enjoy killing. I promise. You're too good at heart to want to seriously hurt someone," Kenshin said.
I sighed, "Yeah I guess."
My eyes dropped down to the floor.
"I don't guess, I know," Kenshin said.
I looked up at him for a second.
"Come on let's go practice,"
Kenshin's mood turned from serious to happy in a matter of seconds. I smiled and Kenshin stood up and left. I sat there for a moment longer before going to get my sword.