A knock at the door broke my concentration. Nick. He must have came back, and I knew for a fact he wouldn't leave again this time.
I got up from my position, huddled on the sofa and moved to the door.
Opening it, I found myself staring back at the last person I expected. Catherine. Just great!
Catherine had her 'mother look' on her face. I couldn't help but give her my 'death glare'. I didn't want her here, trying to talk me into not doing anything stupid. I wasn't even sure if I was going to do anything stupid. I tryed to get rid of her as quickly as possible.
'Look Catherine. I'm fine okay? Nick.. didn't know what he was talking about. I just snapped.. but I'm okay now. So you can go now. I'm really okay.' I did the best I could to get her to leave but she just stood there.
'Listen to me Sara. You will either talk to me or I'm taking you to the hospital. It's your choice.'
'Get out Catherine. I will not talk to YOU, of all people, and I will not go to the hospital.' I spat out the word 'you' like it was poison. Catherine just stood and took it. She still looked concerned.
'Sara. If you won't talk to me, talk to a friend or family. I know we aren't the best of friends or anything, but we all need someone. I will be here for you if you need someone. Right now, you need someone.'
I understood what Catherine was saying. After all if it was her in my position I would do the same as her. I fought back the tears but still they streamed down my face. Catherine pulled me into a hug and held me there for awhile. I felt wanted when she held me, all my pain just disappeared.
'So. Lets talk.' She whispered in my ear. We broke apart and I went and sat in the position I had been in on my sofa. Catherine joined me on the other side.
'I don't know where to begin..' I spoke softly. So I began at the beginning. I told her everything about my family, about what happened to me through everything. I told her the feelings I had been feeling. She just listened and held my hand, squeezing it gently to let me know she was still there.
When I had finished, she apoligised. She was sorry for everything she did to me, and everything she didn't. I didn't blame her at all. I knew we got off to the wrong foot, and she got the wrong impression of me.. but I did nothing to change that impression. I was as cold to her as she was to me, but still she apoligised.
'We are all here for you Sara, whether you think we are or not. You want me to stay for a while?'
I thought for a minute before shaking my head. I was grateful for Catherine listening and being here but I wanted to be alone again. She understood
After she left I felt loads better. I no longer wanted to die. I wanted to live and discover so many more good things in life.
This isn't the end for me, it's a whole new beginning.
Fin.
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