From the bottom
of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to
know
you were my first love,
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of
my broken heart
I know I never told you this when you were alive, but you were my first. You were the first boy I ever had a crush on. I mean a real crush. You know – the kind where you can't sleep without dreaming about the object of your infatuation… Yeah, you were the first boy I ever fell for. And I fell hard. You were the first guy I ever hugged… or kissed… or made out with. You were the first boy I ever had made love to. I loved you with all my heart, but I kept it from you. I kept who I was from you. I look back and sometimes I think that maybe the only reason we were together was because I never told you… at least, not until the very end. I don't think we could've worked our relationship out in the end. After all, why would someone as down to earth and lovable and loving ever want to be involved with a jet-setting spy? Why would you ever want to be involved with me – a person who lies and cheats to do her job?
even through time may find me somebody new
But you died. I killed you. I never even had the chance to say goodbye. I'm sorry. But I hope you understand that I loved you. And I also hope you understand that I had to move on. I couldn't stay that way, bruised and battered… I had to try again. I think I found someone who really loves me. Me, not just the perfectly together front I presented to you… No, I think he loves me, even though I am not perfect. The first time he ever met me, I was still in love with you… I was wounded, both physically and emotionally, and I was not beautiful – no, I even had one of those awful wigs that come with the job on! – but he found a way to love me anyway. I hope you're happy for me because this time, I think I found someone who loves me as much as you. He makes me happy, he makes me laugh, and he makes me feel something other than pain again. But you were my first love and for that I will always thank you.
you were
my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from
the bottom of my broken heart