Disclaimer: I do not own Saiyuki.
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I had a dream, of that previous night of me being raped. In the dream I didn't see the rapist face, and he was moaning a lot. I felt the pain again when he thrusts into me. It was like it was happening again. He finally finished I looked at him and to my surprised it was Sanzo.
Suddenly I woke up, I sat there breathing deeply I couldn't believe that I dreamed Sanzo raped me. They say dreams usual tell you something or it was the future. I was sure Sanzo wouldn't rape me but still I became scared. I shook Gojyo to awake him, "Gojyo...Gojyo wake up! Please..."
The kappa groaned and looked up at me, "What is it Goku?"
"I had a nightmare...and...it was about..." The kappa sat up and put a hand on my head. "You don't have to say it monkey...its still fresh in your mind it'll go away."
"I know but it was Sanzo! Sanzo was raping me!" My voice sounded if I were going to cry.
The kappa looked shocked, "Its probably because Sanzo said those things. I'm sure Sanzo wont rape you monkey."
I nodded, I knew Sanzo, and he would never hurt me that way and besides Gojyo was right. I probably dreamed that since Sanzo said those things about me being raped.
"Goku maybe you sure go talk to Sanzo right now. Or you wont be able to sleep..." Gojyo was concerned or something, I've never seen him like this. He probably feels bad about what happened, I'm sure right after I make up with Sanzo he'll call me stupid monkey again.
I nodded, "But it's late..."
The kappa laughs a little, "Who cares? The monk needs to be awaken sometimes, he was an ass you need to go make up with him."
"I'm afraid...I'll end up telling him..." I thought about Sanzo calling me a child because I would tell him I loved him.
"Telling him what Goku?" The kappa was curious and I kind of let him know I kept a secret so I couldn't keep it a secret anymore.
"I love him...and I'm afraid he'll push me away and say I don't understand true love because I'm only a child." I looked down at the bed ashamed for loving him.
"You're right he will say that, but did you see his face before I threw up? He was upset because he called you names and said rude things. I'm sure he'll understand." The kappa looked at me.
I nodded and looked at him, "Yea but would you think its strange that I tell him after I get r-"
"Don't say it..." The kappa looked away. "You're bringing yourself down to the level as a helpless child. And yea it is strange but loving him might help you heal the wound."
I nodded, "If I get Sanzo's love back then I'll be able to forget."
The kappa looked at me again and I thought a smirk came across his face but it was dark so who knows, "You'll never be able to forget but If Sanzo does he will help you forget. Unless you make a sweet memory tonight."
"Sweet memory? Are you meaning me and him have s-" the kappa put his hand on my mouth and pull me in and whispered into my ear, "Yes that...it'll undo the things that happened to you."
I felt as If I were blushing but he was right, maybe Sanzo could undo the things that happened. No I was sure, "Thanks Gojyo..." I got out of bed and left the room.
I went to Sanzo's room, he sat there on his bed staring at me as I came in. I walked in front of him, he gave me a look as If he was angry with me. "Sanzo...I'm s-"
"No...you don't have to apologize for anything." He got up and walked over to the window and stared out it. "The truth is I was worried, but it got to my head and that's why I kept asking and making it sound as If you wanted to be raped."
I walked up behind him seeing his reflection in the window look at me, "Sanzo...I thought it over and I forgive you. I only can because I love you."
Sanzo shook his head, "I understand you might think that because I saved you, but you're too young to understand true love."
I knew it! I knew he would tell me, "No I'm sure you're the one I love Sanzo."
He for sure saw the look I had, it showed I wasn't lying or kidding around. Sanzo sighs and turns around to me and he kissed me.
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Ha-ha! Lots of good stuff in next chapter!
DarthRhi