Disclaimer – We do not own Kingdom Hearts, nor have anything to do with its characters. This is a story for our own little amusement, not a reason to get sued.
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How this works – Okay, this story is not going to be like most other ones, so listen well.
Two friends decided, one day, that they wanted to make a fanfiction based on Kingdom Hearts because, well they're obsessed. But they didn't want it to be just like any other story, you see. And seeing as each friend had a different 'heart throb' – well, let's just say, Letters of the Faded Heart was born. If you don't read this, believe me, you will be confused.
Each chapter will be a new letter, either from Sora or Riku (All of the odd chapters will be Sora writing to Riku, and all of the even chapters Riku writing to Sora). Takoda writes the chapters in which Sora writes the letters, and Montana writes the chapters in which Riku writes the letters. Confused yet?
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Author's Note (Takoda) – Har, I get to go first, 'cause I'm awesome xD Right. Incase you skipped the little part above, I'm writing a letter as Sora. But, this chapter is going to be slightly different – Sora is writing a love letter to Kairi. Do you sense a plot coming on? I DO! I DO!
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Letters of the Faded Heart
Chapter One
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My Dearest Kairi,
You don't know how many days I've sat here dreaming about you. You can't count how many tears I've cried for you. You can't hear how many times my heart has skipped a beat over you. But seven years is a long time, isn't it? The only time I get to see your pretty face is in my dreams – and even then, it's not enough. I wish I could have told you so much, back on that island… and now I fear that I'll never get the chance. What if I lose you? What if I lose myself? Darkness isn't an easy thing to battle, Kairi… not even light can dominate it forever. And you especially should know that exposure to darkness for too long can infect your heart.
And I want to tell you something now, just incase that happens to me. Because I don't want you to keep waiting (if you even still are) if there's a chance that something could… happen.
You see, I don't want to hurt you. I've never wanted to hurt you. I would rather kill myself than see you in pain. So, when (if) my heart becomes tainted, you need to understand… I won't be able to come back. It wouldn't be worth it, anyway. When I finally got there, I'd probably be a Heartless… running around like all of the other brainwashed souls…
Do you remember the time that I did turn into a Heartless? I thought that I'd never be able to get out of the darkness. I couldn't see anything, I didn't know if I was falling up or down… and I couldn't remember anything. I forgot about Riku, and Donald, and Goofy… and everything about Destiny Islands… thinking back now, I doubt I'll ever come across another moment where I'm as scared as I was then. The only thing left in my memory bank was you, and there was one question that kept ringing in my head: What if I never get to see you again? I didn't want that to be my last memory – you lying there, unconscious, heart lost within mine. And I remember following a trio – the faces were but blurs – not knowing what I was doing, not knowing what I was after. You see, Heartless usually crave hearts; they need them to survive. But that was the last thing on my darkened mind. And then, you saved me… because you were my light; the only thing that could get me away from that life of hell. And I just really want to say thank you, for everything that you've done… for everything that's happened. Without you, I would have nothing else to live for…
Really, I wouldn't. Seven years is a long time for a band of Heartless to grow, and I guess I was just careless… I didn't bother training, all I could think of was how to get back to you… and I know I should have listened to them, I should have done everything I could to prevent this…
They're dead, Kairi. They're all dead. Because of me.
It was at night, when they decided to attack, which is pretty cliché in itself – but I knew it had to happen sooner or later. We just didn't think it would be now. We were sleeping, at the time, and I didn't hear them at all; their stealth had improved. Donald woke up to a bone-chilling breeze, only to find a pair of bright yellow eyes staring at him in the darkness. Once he yelled, I woke up, as did Goofy, but there was little that we could do… they were so powerful… so much larger than I had remembered them. Not even my keyblade seemed to make them flinch – and they're supposed to be afraid of it. Before I knew what was going on, two Heartless had me pinned up against the wall, and I thought everything was over for me – but instead, I saw two black claws thrust into the chests of my partners; my friends. Their hearts were stolen from them in seconds, and they disappeared…
As did the Heartless. They scurried away, leaving me in the darkness of the King's Castle, alone.
And it's all my fault. If I hadn't been so foolish; if I had decided to stop thinking about myself, I wouldn't be so afraid right now. They could come back at any moment for me, and I'll never know when… why didn't I listen to them? Just because I wanted to see you? But there's no way that I can blame you for anything that's happened, this week… or has it been a month? … Or even a year? I've lost track of time. The only thing that matters now is how long I've been away from you…
I also want you to know that I'll never forget to return your special charm – the Oathkeeper, in it's Keyblade form. I'd like to hold onto it for a little bit longer, though… just a little while. Right now, it's the only thing to keep me company, since everyone else in the castle has… either fled, or died from the raid. My thoughts are with the latter – it just doesn't seem right that they would leave me here. But if anything, anything at all begins to make me think that I might not be able to make it back, I'll find a way to get it to you. At least I won't break all of my promises…
And I'm sorry about what happened to Riku – that's my fault, too. I could have gotten him out of there… Kingdom Hearts, the door was called. Ansem was bent on calling it the 'door to the darkness,' and all though that's not entirely true… I can only imagine what kind of torture he's going through. My plans were, as soon as I could find a way to get back to you, to get Riku out of there, and go back to Destiny Islands. It just… didn't work. Nothing worked. I could have accomplished so much, if only I hadn't been so lazy, and so careless. I guess you were right, when you called me a 'lazy bum' all of those years. I should have taken your advice, and actually applied myself to something. Look where it's gotten me now…
And I wanted to bring him back with me so badly, too. I wanted all of us to be together on the island again – just like it used to be. But I guess nothing can be like before, can it? Now, we're always going to have that little memory of the Heartless, of Ansem, of all of the evil that haunted our island…
But… what's it like over there? Does anyone else remember me? … How are my parents? And Selphie, Tidus, and Wakka? How're you doing? I know you never really used to like hanging around the other trio on the island – I really hope I haven't caused you to have to be alone. Do the people there still think about the day that the island disappeared? Just remember; since I'm the Keyblade Wielder, I'll do everything I can to protect you guys… even if that means I'll have to die trying. And there's no sign of the Heartless there, yet, right? I don't have a way of transportation… the Heartless destroyed as much of the Gummi Ship parts as possible. And without anyone around to help, I'm absolutely clueless on how to reassemble it.
I just want you to make sure that the dark hours are never longer than they should be. If anything like that happens, please, get the hell out of there… as fast as you can. Go anywhere – anywhere at all – just find somewhere safe. Heck, you could even try searching the island head-to-toe for some sort of Gummi Blocks. There must be someone there who knows something about them. I just want you to be careful, because now that the Heartless have invaded this world…
It's dark all the time.
Every little shadow on the wall makes me jump. Every little light in the distance makes me shiver. I just don't want a remake of the day that… I became alone. And I want to be with you, I want to find you again… I don't want to break any more of my promises. I bet you must think I'm a terrible friend, huh? Going off for seven years…
But there's one thing that I'm still afraid of, and I wonder everyday. Do you still remember me? What if you don't even know who's writing to you? It's true – I could just be some lunatic trying to mess with your head. And what if you've moved on? I mean, sure, you're 21 now, and so am I, and we haven't bound ourselves together or anything, but… I guess it just would be hard for me to accept. For all of these years, I've thought that we had something special, and it might not mean a thing… you might not even be thinking that, you know? And… I guess there's just one thing that I've been trying to say all along, and even from, well, the day that you arrived at the island…
I love you, Kairi.
It's hard not to say that face to face. It's hard not to know what your reaction will be when you read this letter – and it's even harder to know that you might not remember me, or you might just not care anymore. But I've waited so long to tell you that… so long to tell you the truth. So, please don't be surprised about me saying that… or disgusted, or scared, or something. But I really do love you – that's why I can't seem to get you out of my head. And I miss you so much…
So please, be careful, and watch for what I said. I don't want anything to happen to you. And, you know, if you have the time, I wouldn't mind a little letter back. Like I said, I have no one to talk to around here anymore except for invisible objects, and it'd be nice to hear from you again… even if it's only in writing. And believe me, I won't be going anywhere any time soon…
Craving to see your face again,
Sora
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Author's Note (Takoda) - Whoot, there y'go :D Enjoy, and review :3