Disclaimer-I do not own any of the characters in this story… letter… thing.

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Author's Note (Montana)-Nope, I'm not dead. And yes, obviously, I have been putting this off for what… a gazillion months? But here it is. :3 Hope you enjoy!

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Letters of the Faded Heart

Chapter Four

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Sora,

Company? Wait, I thought you said company. Funny, I didn't know that a girl sleeping all the time, raspy breaths keeping me up all night, was company. I didn't know that a girl screaming out my best friend's name was company. I can't believe that you would think me visiting my parents' graves was company. Company, again, I say… ha.

Ohmy, it seems that silly me forgot to tell you all about our home. …about the people that we grew up with. I'm sure you expected everyone to be jolly over here. But, over here in Destiny Islands a lot of things haven't had a happy ending. Selphie died while she was still in her bed, people say they found her twisted around in a desperate attempt to free herself from the swarms of heartless that attacked her that night we left. Wakka died on the beach later that night, his blitzball still tightly held beneath his arms. His eyes were half-open, I do not wish to think what he saw while he died. Tidus escaped, but soon disappeared, as I heard. People say they overheard him mumbling crazily before he just merely vanished.

Both my parents died, their hearts were not strong enough. I can't say I didn't expect it coming, they never were the most caring people on the face of the planet. Although, your parents were always quite different than mine. Still, even your father's physical strength was not enough to keep the heartless off of him. His heart died before his body did. Your mother, though, had an amazingly strong heart. I'm sure you knew that as much as I did. It kept that heartless at bay. She is not in the greatest of conditions, but she is alive, at least. Your mother is in a state of darkness, like Kairi, right now. She is holding herself together, not letting herself give in to the dark.

So if you even think for a damned second that everything over here is magical and happy, you have many things wrong with your head.

It is also just peachy that you call our "home" perfect. Our beloved paopu tree is dead. Its withered branches hang low to the ocean now. Most of the buildings in this place are burned to their root. The ocean has taken on an ugly greenish hue, and a pretty vile odor when you get close enough to it. It is actually not that uncommon to see a fish with three heads swimming around mechanically. Pretty much the only thing that is same back here is the sand still has its unusually bright golden hue… but the sand is ruling over most of the island now. If there isn't a part that isn't sand on the island, I swear it will be soon. Reminds me of the desert in Agrabah. The dry, desolate desert.

You said that we were best friends, Sora, but how can we be best friends like this? I never think we truly were best friends. We always competed to win something that both of us wanted so bad. Sure, Sora, you were my absolute best friend before Kairi came along and things changed. I guess we both changed when we became good friends with the girl that arrived with the meteor shower. Our hearts opened up in a new way. A way that I had never felt before… love. Maybe I'll never know what true loves feels like because my heart is stained with the darkness, I feel like maybe I still have some Ansem in me. I can't lie to you Sora, sometimes I feel powerful, and that is a great feeling. But I know, deep down, that it isn't right. And then that feeling is washed over with something pure and unlike me. It boils me down to the core, and I begin to hope that one day I will feel as I used to. I hope to feel happy again, just plain, simple happiness.

A better feeling than anything I have in my life right now.

Well, for you I suggest that you pull yourself together, and get a hold on what you really need to do. The keyblade master is supposed to fight the heartless and lock the keyholes. I understand that sometimes it is hard, and sometimes it will drain the life out of you, but think about the lives it's saving. Think about how many worlds you have sealed from the darkness swallowing it up. And that, my gray-eyed friend, is what I believe is truly important. Seriously, what good is a Keyblade Master sitting at staring at walls?

Leave your own, useless pity party and look at what is happening. Heartless are multiplying by the second, and worlds are being opened one by one. And who knows, maybe you'll have to do this the rest of your life but you'll have endless peace after you die because you made a change in the worlds. You saved their lives, just like you saved my heart. You know what I am positive about? You'll survive, you always have. And I don't mean physically. Your heart will always remain pure because it has been pure all along. I mean, you even remembered Kairi's voice when you were turned into a heartless. When I was falling into darkness, I could barely remember anything. Ansem was controlling me, using me. It was terrible, and yet, it wasn't the worst I have felt.

I'm sorry I'm not caring so much about your mental welfare, but I know you can do this. The Sora I knew never gave up, or have you changed and decided it is all not worth it unless you could sit next to the girl you love? People in the world you can't save right now are soon never going to see the faces of the loved ones again. Can you live with yourself after you cause that feeling. I know that you aren't the root of the problem, but Sora you can do something! You can get up off your butt and move! The least you can do is at least search for the keyhole, who knows, you might actually find it. If you don't people will be thrown into immediate darkness, and will not be able to find the light. You'll soon feel that way, too, but you can't. You can't, Sora!

If you do, then you will for sure never be able to see her again.

Do you want Kairi to die, Sora? If you did then I should not have told her you were coming. She's alive and still breathing, if you wanted to know. Her face has turned a ghostly white, and her eyes barely ever open anymore. And you know what I will do tonight when she screams your name? I will kiss her because I am taking care of her for you. And maybe, who knows, she might open her eyes and see me. I don't care how she responds, I know how long I have been craving this moment. Maybe Kairi has no idea who she truly loves. It might just be me now since the Sora that she loved obviously isn't in you now, is it?

Sora, you are so blinded by your own woes you can't even see what is important anymore! That is just sick…

You are disgusting me Sora, just disgusting me. Pull yourself together, fight back, win! The heartless stole our world once, don't you even have the tiniest bit of anger towards them? Who cares if they die, they are the reason everything is so fucked up, not you. They have to die, they deserve to die… you know what? They need to die.

Why you, you ask… why did the keyblade choose you? Because you had the strongest heart.

--Riku

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