Ok people I know I said this would be the last chapter but I changed my mind, something's needed to happen before I could use what was my last chapter. Get it? OH actually it may be three more chapters!
Sara paced her hospital room, Grissom was late he had promised her he would pick her up and take her home. He knew how much she wanted to get out this place and the hospital refused to let her get a cab.
"Where are you?" she asked out loud hopping maybe a passing person would take pity on her and drive her home.
Grissom was flooring it. He had been at a crime scene and completely forget that he was supposed to be picking Sara up. Catherine had offered to do it for him but he wanted to take Sara home, it would be a way of showing he cared without actually having to form words. He knew now she would be pissed. He had visited her nearly everyday and was in a way dreading this day. He new she would want to go home and stay there by herself despite the fact she was scared not which she'd admit it. Now the inevitable was happening, last visit he had used all his safe conversation, talked about cases and old times. Even though he'd found some of them weren't as safe as he thought. He had to explain why he had turned Sara down for dinner the first time and somehow Sara managed to put it much better than him.
"You have the emotional range of a teaspoon" he thought he had probably been demoted to a knife maybe a fork if he was lucky. He had rehearsed several times what he would say to Sara. How once they got back to hers he would offer to stay the night. She would argue and he would stay anyway. Now was a different ball game he was nearly twenty minutes late. The traffic was hardly moving he could swear he felt the anger in Sara when his phone broke his train of thought.
"Catherine"
"I know I'm late did Sara ring you?"
"Did she sound angry?"
"Erm. What do you say to someone like that? Maybe I should get flowers?"
"Ok so not flowers WHAT THEN?"
"Fine" he put the phone down.
"How I'm I supposed to know what to do I have the emotional range of a teaspoon" he said to himself pulling into the car park.
Sara sat on the edge of the bed, Catherine hadn't been much help she even heard Warrick asking if Grissom remembered. She had thought she made progress in helping Grissom connect with people and the world again. He had told her how he liked to ride roller coasters and secretly always wanted to go to a baseball game with Nick. They had taken things slow since the first kiss. That had happened in the heat of the moment and now and advance required actual though before hand. This was something that clearly worried Grissom. They had kissed a couple of times each time Sara had been the one to start it. Several friendly forehead kisses had been given by Grissom as he left her despite the fact he had openly kissed her before. She knew what was coming next the talk. The one about work, age differences and what each wants. Now that was something that actually scared Sara Sidle.
"Sara I'm sorry," announced Grissom appearing in the doorway.
"Lets go," said Sara coldly pushing by him. Grissom picked up her bags and followed her quickly along the corridor.
"You forgot didn't you," she snapped as they stood waiting for the elevator.
"Yes" he replied sheepishly. The walk to the car was silent, Grissom could feel the waves of anger coming of Sara but didn't know what to say.
"An apology would be nice but that would involve taking others feeling into account" Sara said slamming the car door as Grissom reached to close it for her. She struggled with her seat belt unable to reach round with one hand.
"You want some help?"
"I'm not helpless," snapped Sara managing to force it to click round.
"I'm sorry I forgot," said Grissom starting the car.
"With you it's always to little to late," replied Sara staring dead ahead. Grissom turned to look at her.
"Sara I…" he trailed off not knowing what to say.
"I guess Catherine was right you were burned bad. If you talked to me it might help but no you hide away in that shell" her voice now became angry again. "You told me the reason you wouldn't go to dinner with me was because you were scared of losing your job. I get that, most of your life it's been your job but now you don't have that to hold you back so what it?"
"I was burned. My girlfriend of five years walked out on me one day with no warning" Sara's icy surface broke and she turned to face him.
"I guess it was because I couldn't talk to her, we talked but never about important stuff and I know that the same thing will happen once you realise I can't change"
"Grissom you can change. You have, this stuff were talking about is important. You think I go telling everyone about my past" she gently put her hand against his leg.
"You did the hardest thing, you let your emotions show and bundling them back in now is to late."
"Sara I don't want to hurt you"
"It's to late for that. You go back to your old self and you will have. Just because you don't connect with people doesn't mean they don't with you. I can't help how I feel and neither can you. Gil you saved my life and I will never forget that" Grissom turned to face her, she never called him Gil.
"My mother always told me I wouldn't get the girl if I sat in the corner"
"We can sit there together. Just talk to me that's all I ask" Sara met his eyes as they pulled up by her apartment block. A tingle ran down her back as he looked at her in the way he hadn't since he pulled her from the water.
"You want to hear about my mother?" he asked as Sara allowed him to help her from the car.
"Yes" it may not be the most in death conversation but it was a start. Grissom's whole body tingled as his skin rubbed against her. This for him was new territory and he didn't quite know where he was, as there was no map labelled the road to a life with Sara Sidle he guessed he would have to get a compass and ballpark it.
" I've taken a month of leave. You hungry?" asked Grissom once they got inside.
"Yes. That hospital food I wouldn't feed to your spiders. Wait you choose not to work". Grissom laughed opening up her fridge to find very little.
"Well I think I can just about make omelettes and yes I choose I wanted to spend some time with how did Cath put it 'my head out the microscope'"
"You cook?"
"Yes my mother taught me. Sit down" Sara looked at him sternly leaning on the doorframe in the kitchen.
"I'm fine" she replied watching him cook.
"So what about running the lab they offer you it?"
"Yes. I said I'd decide after my leave"
They sat and watched a film that was on TV while they ate. Sara now lay stretched out on the seat half asleep while Grissom did the washing up.
"You want me to stay tonight?" he asked coming back into the living room.
"But I think I should have the sofa and you the bed, after all you did just get out of hospital"
"Thanks but I'm fine," mumbled Sara as she wondered of to her bedroom.
"Well I'm tired and shouldn't drive" lied Grissom who was still wide-awake.
"Fine"
Grissom lay down on her couch, he was going to sleep in the same house as Sara well it was a start.
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