There were tears rolling down Yunda's cheeks as she clutched her stomach. The white sheets of her bed were stained with the salty tears, but she paid no mind; not even to the burning sensation on her face, nor the throbbing pain from her temples.
No words could describe what was going on in her mind. So much fear, doubt, and confusion clouded her thoughts and made her think so much on what could have been. What she could have done. She had ruined her life at the Jedi Temple and possibly Klip's, if anyone ever found out what was going on between them. She loved a man, but it was not allowed. The love they shared was forbidden! For the Jedi, it was a black hole in space which a pilot never wanted to venture into, for the fear of begin killed. Everything was in shambles!
Did she really do the right thing in turning Klip away the night before; rejecting him? The way he spoke to her, the way he looked at her made her know that he did 'love' her, but it would never work. Like she had told herself before the love they shared was forbidden!
Her dark eyes gazed out the floor length window but peace did not come to her soul. Usually the movement of the planet caused her to be calm inside but it only seemed to make the tears fall harder. She was going to have a child. A child which was not allowed and even seen as sin in the eyes of the Jedi council. She and Klip, not to mention the other students, knew what would happen if they were caught in any form of relationship with another student other then friendship. It was just not allowed. What was she to do?
She could not tell Master Corran what she had done, and what was going to happen, but she could not just run away from the temple. It would bring shame upon everyone! There was no one whom she could confide in except QuiGon. He was a good friend, but he could not offer any advice for he was still in shock from what he had heard from his dear friend. She could talk to Klip about anything as well, but not about this. He must never know about this, Yunda thought. That would only make him more adamant about sweeping her away to another system.
Her mind drifted to Zen. The punishment that he received was not unthinkable, yet it was enough to make him think twice about his actions. Maybe it was her turn to rise up and admit what she had done. Then she thought of Klip. He was doing so well in his training and everyone agreed that he had the material to become a Jedi Knight and one day a Jedi Master. What if this made him lose all respect with the council? No. She would bear the burden alone. Take the punishment on her shoulders. Whatever the council would do to her was not the issue. She wanted to protect Klip and this child. Never could she live with herself if she had brought Klip's chance of becoming something in this world because of her. She thought of staying but it could not be done. Yes, she was only seventeen and had no clue what it was to be a mother, but she knew that she could not go a day watching her child grow up about her, never knowing who she was. It was best she left.
Taking a glance about the red walls, Yunda let out a long sigh. The tears had stopped and all that was left was the red color in her eyes; the evidence of a weeping soul. She slid off of her bed and out of her room. The tiny room which joined Yunda and her master's bedrooms was very tidy and clean; meaning that the cleaning droid had already come through this sector. Yunda rubbed her eyes and stood up tall. She could not break down in front of her master, and definably not in front of the council. As she lifted her fist to Master Corran's door, she hesitated only for a moment. Indeed he was there, going over some files for a friend of his. His yellow eyes glared down upon her frame; his mind sensing the trouble in her heart. "What is wrong, child?"
Fighting the quiver in her voice she dropped her eyes to the ground in shame. To look him straight on would break her; just like a child looking straight into the eyes of a father. "I need to speak with you..."
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Well, here is the next chapter. We still have a long way to go before the end… and it is kind of twisty…
Her mind drifted to Zen. The punishment that he received was not unthinkable, yet it was enough to make him think twice about his actions. Maybe it was her turn to rise up and admit what she had done. Then she thought of Klip. He was doing so well in his training and everyone agreed that he had the material to become a Jedi Knight and one day a Jedi Master. What if this made him lose all respect with the council? No. She would bear the burden alone. Take the punishment on her shoulders. Whatever the council would do to her was not the issue. She wanted to protect Klip and this child. Never could she live with herself if she had brought Klip's chance of becoming something in this world because of her. She thought of staying but it could not be done. Yes, she was only seventeen and had no clue what it was to be a mother, but she knew that she could not go a day watching her child grow up about her, never knowing who she was. It was best she left.
Taking a glance about the red walls, Yunda let out a long sigh. The tears had stopped and all that was left was the red color in her eyes; the evidence of a weeping soul. She slid off of her bed and out of her room. The tiny room which joined Yunda and her master's bedrooms was very tidy and clean; meaning that the cleaning droid had already come through this sector. Yunda rubbed her eyes and stood up tall. She could not break down in front of her master, and definably not in front of the council. As she lifted her fist to Master Corran's door, she hesitated only for a moment. Indeed he was there, going over some files for a friend of his. His yellow eyes glared down upon her frame; his mind sensing the trouble in her heart. "What is wrong, child?"
Fighting the quiver in her voice she dropped her eyes to the ground in shame. To look him straight on would break her; just like a child looking straight into the eyes of a father. "I need to speak with you..."
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Well, here is the next chapter. We still have a long way to go before the end… and it is kind of twisty…