Ellie POV
I walk up the steps of Degrassi High heart broken. The guy I am in love with is in love with another girl. I still love him though, even though he doesn't know I do.. The worst thing is, he is my best friend. I know I should be happy he has a girl friend, but I can't help but thinking I have less chance with him. By the way.. His name is Marco Del Rossi and his 'girl friends' name is Serenity.. She's a lot more pretty then I am and she is popuular. She is more then I could ever be, she has natural blonde hair and great blue eyes. Sometimes I notice weird things in a person.. Like how when ever is writing some thing about Serenity he curls his y's and when he isn't he doesn't curl his y's.. Yes, I'm very observent. I like to be, all though people aren't very observent that I go to this school.
"Hey El, I hope you don't mind that Serenity's sitting with us." Marco said as I sat down for lunch. Serenity was, belive it or not shorter then Marco. You have to be really short to be shorter then Marco. Serenity was kind of a bitch to me, because Marco and I spent a lot of time together.. I just stared at him, giving him the stare that says "Why the hell did you not ask me!"
"Well if you want me to leave I can." Serenity got up.
"It's okay.. I'll leave you to alone, not like I'm wanted here anyway." I said getting up, as Serenity sat back down. I walked away throwing my lunch away.
Lately Marco Has been blowing me off to go on dates with Serenity. I mean yes once or twice is fine, but he's done it six times. I'm going to talk to him later, because I know he will ask why I left today in like that.
It was after school and Marco was supossed to meet me the dot he said he was going to make up for the lunch accident. It had been an hour since school had gotten out and he still hadn't shown. So I went home..
I'm losing my best friend.. I'm being replaced.. What did I do wrong, what does Serenity have that I don't? When I got home my mom wasn't there, I found a note on the frige.
Ellie, went out to see some old friends be back late.
Mom.
Old friends.. Old friends that she would go and drink with? I walked up stairs to my room and turned the radio on as loud as it could go.. I screamed at the top of my lungs, but it was muffled by the music. After that I did home work and things..
Serenity was so much more beautiful then I was, more pretty, more skinny, she was everything I wasn't maybe that's why Marco was with her..
I fell onto my bed and cried.. I just cried and cried, thinking of how much I love him and how much he meant.. And now the only person I had left I was losing.
I got up and went to the bathroom.. I got a paper towel and wipped my make up away. I turned on the shower, I got undress while I waited for it to get hot. I waited about five minutes then got in.. It felt hot and good, I didn't have any shampoo. So I had only conditioner. I headed for the soap when it fell, so i leaned down to get and saw the razor.. I don't want to die but I don't want to feel this way. I picked it up and cut my arm, and wrist.. I saw the blood in the water.. I didn't hurt as much as I did before.. But how long would not feeling last?