I walked out of the bathroom to find Marco waiting for me..

"Look I'm sorry I just have a lot on my mind." I said as he got up off the floor.

"It's okay." He gave me a hug and I hugged him back..

"Can I come over tonight, I wana make it up for blowing you off?" He asked as we went back to Mrs. Kawn's class.

"Yeah, you've already been there so you know what it's like.." I said as the bell rang and the halls filled up with students. Serenity came up and kissed Marco on the check.

"Hey Marco." She said putting her arm around him.. I just kept walking with them, she looked at me like 'go away he's mine now.'

"So umm wana come over tonight, my mom and dad are out of town?" She asked shifting her eyes away from me and to Marco. Marco looked at me and I gave him a 'whatever' look.

"Sorry, me and Ellie already have plans." He answered and smiled at me.

"Like a date!" She sqealed. She looked at Marco and looked like she was going to cry.

"No.. Not a date just a friend thing kay?" He said hugging her.

"How about tomorrow, can you come tomorrow?" She asked.

"Yes tomorrow kay." He said and kissed her lightly on her lips.. She stuck with us during lunch.

After school she left to go home she seemed sad that Marco couldn't come over tonight. We walked to my house, which wasn't that far fo me, but Marco looked like he was going to explode. I was just used to the walk I guess.

I walked up our steps and opened the door to find my mother on the couch crying.. She usually is sleeping or something.. Something was wrong.. When I opened the door she turned her head,

"Ellie.. I.. I need to talk to you.. Alone." She said looking towards Marco.

"Okay, umm just a minute I'll be right back." I said running upstairs as Marco followed.

"Hey I'll be right back just watch tv or something." I said running back down stairs and leaving Marco in my room. My mom was on the couch so I sat down beside her, I had the feeling something serious happened..

"Ellie.. You have to understand I didn't want this, your father did..." She said looking at me and contuining. "Your father and I are getting a divorce.. There's going to be a trial this saturday on who gets costidy of you." She said..

I knew I would have to go live with my father.. The judge would never let me stay with her.. But I did love her, she was my mother..

"I don't understand.. Why does he want this." I said getting up. "This isn't fair." I looked at her and she some how didn't even looked fazed..

"The trial is saturday.. So get packed." She said coldly.. She wanted me gone. She didn't want me, she wanted to pawn me off on my father!..

"You want this.. To get rid of me." I gave her the coldest look I could..

"No of course not honey." She said.

"You don't want me anymore.. Am I a disapointment... I hate you." I said running up stairs to find Marco watching tv.

I looked at him.. He could tell something was wrong.

"El, whats wrong?" He asked.. Tears started running down my face and he got up and walked over to me.

I hugged him and cried on his shoulder..

"My mom doesn't want me Marco, she hates me! I'm a disapointment to her.." I cried out.

"No El your not a disapointment." He said as we sat on the bed..

"There getting a divorce and she wants me gone Marco.. God neither of them want me!" I said starting to cry again. We both jumped at the sound of the front door slamming, she had left.

I looked at Marco and he wipped my tears away.. He leaned in and our lips touched, his tounge slipped into my mouth. He put his arm around my back. It was the best thing ever.. But.. Serenity..

"El.. I can't." He said looking at me.. I looked at him and cried, I got up and ran to the bathroom.

"Ellie I'm sorry." He said as I closed the door in his face.

"It doesn't matter anymore.. Nothing matters.. No one cares..SO WHY THE HELL SHOULD I!" I yelled out. I got the razor from my shower and cut furiously at my arm.. No one cared about how I felt, my mom didn't want me Marco kissed me then told me it ment nothing! It didn't matter anymore, without Marco I couldn't live.. Blood started coming out fast.. At first it scared me but then it just let it come. It hurt.. But soon it would be over. I could hear Marco yelling and screaming for me not to, he was frantically trying to open the door.. But it didn't budge..

I soon felt dizzy and knowing I would be out cold soon I had to lose as much blood as I could so I didn't have a chance to live. So I cut more and more, my head felt like twenty pounds and I finally let my head rest against the wall.. Everything started swirling together like a rainbow.. I felt everything go away while I got cold.. Really cold... It suddenly just stopped... I wasn't cold or hurt.. It just stopped...

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