NOTES:
Fujipuri: It's less innocent in this chapter. I love this chapter. It makes me squee. XD If Hyde wore Platinum Egoiste, I would be fairly confident that he's madly and secretly in love with Gackt. Kei gets a bit more perverted in this chapter, don't worry.
YaoiKitty: If Gackt likes carnivals, I think I'd die. Because carnivals are amazing. And they will get farther in their relationship in a couple chapters… And I was gonna add a note to the end of chapter three wishing you a happy birthday, but I completely forgot.
Tsuki: Meh. I already answered your questions in a review to you. xD
NOTE: LOST MEMORIES IS ON HIATUS AT THE MOMENT. I had to save it to a disk and I tried to copy it back into my folder and the disk died, so I have to rewrite the two chapters that were written.
Chapter Four
When Kei and Sho arrived home after their date, Sho went straight to his room with Kei following closely behind. Sho had been stonily silent the whole way home and wasn't saying anything to Kei. "Sho?" Kei said softly, stopping in the doorway of Sho's room. "Sho? Are you alright?" Sho sat down on the edge of his bed. Kei walked over and kneeled down in front of him. "Answer me, Sho."
Sho looked up and stared at Kei before lunging at him, capturing his lips in a kiss. He ended up pushing them both backwards so they were laying on the floor of Sho's room, Sho pinning Kei underneath him. He slipped his tongue into Kei's mouth slowly, hearing a low moan from the vampire. When Sho pulled away, both men were breathless.
"Sho…" Kei whispered, breathing heavily.
"I don't know how I survived—" Sho breathed, planting kisses on Kei's cheek. "—without your kisses—" He kissed Kei's nose. "—every moment—" He pressed his lips to Kei's forcefully, pulling away quickly. "—of every day."
"I take it you're happy?" Kei asked.
"Very…" Sho breathed, kissing Kei's neck affectionately; Kei shivered in response.
"Sho—can we talk?" Kei asked as soon as Sho's kisses reached his shoulder. Sho looked up, worried.
"A-alright." Sho said, helping Kei up onto the bed. Kei smiled softly and gently held Sho's hand within his own. He tenderly kissed Sho's fingers.
"Sho," he said softly, kissing the back of Sho's hand. "Do you think…we're going too fast?" Sho shook his head. "It's just…I don't want to rush into things too quickly." Kei pressed his lips to the palm of Sho's hand. A soft moan escaped Sho's lips. "I've waited this long. I can wait just a little while longer…" Sho smiled softly. He pulled his hand away from Kei's warm lips, pulling the vampire close.
"I don't care how fast we're going," Sho told him, his sapphire eyes staring warmly into Kei's. "I'm happy…you are too." Even though it wasn't a question, Kei nodded and smiled.
"I am happy…I've waited as long as you for this to happen…" Kei breathed.
"Then why does it matter how fast we're taking things?" Sho asked. "We're grown up—"
"Maybe not you…" Kei said. Sho made a face.
"—We're in control of our lives. Can't we do whatever we want?" Kei couldn't think of anything to say. "You agree with me, don't you?" Kei nodded his head. "Then stay with me tonight, Kei." Sho said tenderly. Kei's eyes widened in shock. He didn't know Sho could be that bold.
"S-Sho," Kei said. Sho looked away, his cheeks reddening rapidly.
"If you agree with me, then stay…" Sho said, barely a whisper. They sat in silence for a few moments, Kei wondering what he should answer. He really didn't want to rush into things, but if he turned down Sho's offer, would he lose the man forever?
"Okay." Kei whispered softly. Sho turned his head and stared at Kei.
"W-what?"
"I will…" Kei breathed. "I'll stay." Sho squealed in delight, hugging Kei tightly. "C-can I go get into my pajamas?" He choked out. Sho let go of him.
"Yeah. I'll change, too." Sho said as Kei walked over to his room to change into his pajamas, which consisted of a pair of baggy, flannel, black pants. He took off his leather pants, quickly slipping into his pajama pants and throwing off his coat and shirt. He walked over to the mirror and ran a brush through his hair quickly. He set the brush down and walked back to Sho's room. The door was closed. Kei tapped on it lightly and heard Sho said 'Come in'. Kei opened the door and stepped inside, closing it behind him.
"Why's it so dark in here?" Kei asked, his night vision beginning to start up. Sho was laying down on his bed on top of the covers.
"Because I turned off the lights…" Sho replied, sitting up. Kei watched the man's white teeth reflect the moonlight coming through the window as he smiled. "Wanna sit on my lap?" He asked Kei. Kei smiled and walked over, sitting down on Sho's lap.
"Love to." He said. As he wrapped his arms around Sho's neck, he realized that Sho was wearing his standard red pajama pants and no shirt.
"You aren't wearing a shirt, are you?" Sho asked him, pulling him closer.
"Nope. Neither are you, I noticed." Kei said, resting his head on Sho's bare shoulder.
"Apparently shirts are out of fashion." Sho commented. Kei sighed. "Tired?" Sho asked him.
"I guess so…" Kei replied.
"You don't think I can wake you up?"
"I don't know. That depends on exactly how you intend to wake me up."
"What?" Sho asked, confused. Kei merely shook his head and pressed his lips to Sho's. "Kei…" Sho breathed as Kei's lips left his and trailed down his neck. Kei stopped when he reached Sho's shoulder and pushed the man back onto the bed. "Kei—you do realize this was only our second date tonight…"
"Things seem to progress fast between us." Kei whispered as he slowly kissed Sho's bare shoulder.
"Mmm—tell me about it…" Sho breathed as Kei's kisses trailed down his bare chest; he wrapped his fingers through the vampire's soft hair and jumped slightly in shock as Kei dipped his tongue in and out of Sho's navel. He tugged on Kei's hair and heard a hiss from the vampire.
"Don't tug on my hair!" Kei told him as he laid down next to Sho.
"So does that mean we're stopping?" Sho asked, turning to face Kei, who had a smile on his face.
"So you're having fun, are you?"
"Yes." Sho replied breathlessly.
"In that case…" Kei said softly, leaning forward and capturing Sho's lips in a kiss. Sho slipped his tongue into Kei's mouth as the vampire wrapped his arms around Sho. Kei slid a hand down to the waistline of Sho's pants, hesitating for a moment. He slowly slid his hand underneath the waistline and gasped into Sho's mouth. "Sho!" Kei gasped, pulling away from their passionate kiss.
"What?" Sho asked, breathing heavily.
"You…aren't wearing underwear, are you?" Sho merely grinned and pushed Kei back into the mattress, hovering over the vampire. He pulled the vampire into another passionate kiss and slid his hand down Kei's side, his hand slipping below the waistline of the baggy pants.
"Neither are you." Sho replied seductively. He leaned down and slowly kissed Kei's bare shoulder; Kei stifled a moan.
"Sho…" Kei moaned as Sho's hand began to slide down his leg. Sho withdrew his hand from Kei's pants and was pushed to the side by Kei. "My turn." Kei hissed, laying on top of Sho. He pulled Sho into another passionate kiss and slid his hands down to Sho's waist. Slowly, he began to pull downwards, but was surprised when Sho pushed him away.
"No, Kei." Sho whispered. "Not yet." Kei stared at him for a moment. "I want to wait …" Kei nodded and laid down next to Sho on the bed, closing his eyes. Sho gently pulled a sheet over them and laid down. He rested his head on Kei's chest and placed a hand on Kei's stomach. "Are you mad at me?" Kei opened his eyes and looked down at the man, smiling.
"No, Sho. I'm not." Kei replied, wrapping his arms around Sho and pulling him up so that they were facing each other. "I could never be mad at you." He silently added "I love you too much". Sho snuggled closer to Kei and closed his eyes.
"Good." Sho replied. Kei smiled and reached down, pulling a heavy blanket over the sheet already covering them. "Won't we be hot?" Kei simply kissed Sho's forehead. "That's not a legitimate answer, Kei." He said through a yawn.
"Go to sleep, Sho." Kei whispered to the man. "I'll be right next to you the whole night."
"'Night, Kei." Sho breathed.
"Goodnight, Sho." Kei replied, watching the man fall asleep. After a while, he closed his eyes.
"Kei?" Sho said softly a little while later.
"Hm?" Kei asked, opening his eyes.
"I forgot to kiss you goodnight." He replied, smiling.
"You're so childish. You don't have to—"
"But I want to." Sho told him, putting his hands on either side of Kei's face. He leaned forward, licking his lips, and smiled at Kei. "I'm glad I found you that day, Kei." Sho whispered. "If I hadn't…I don't know what I would be doing without you."
"Oh Sho—" Kei said, touched by Sho's words. "I lo—" But Sho cut off the end of his sentence by pressing their lips together. Sho slid his hands down Kei's back slowly and pulled out of the kiss.
"Goodnight…" Sho whispered, resting his head on Kei's chest.
"Goodnight." Kei replied. He closed his eyes, Sho's deep breathing lulling him into a deep sleep………
Kei woke up the next morning to find Sho staring up at him, his head still resting on his chest. "Morning, Kei." Sho said.
"Good morning, Sho-chan." Kei replied, smiling widely. Sho stared at him.
"Kei…"
"Oh? I'm not allowed to call you Sho-chan? I've known you for—"
"No, no! That's not it!" Sho interrupted. "It's just…surprising that you'd suddenly call me that."
"What's so sudden?"
"Kei—we've been going out for four days!"
"Really? I thought it was three."
"Kei-kun—"
"Sho-chan, did we not just make out last night?" Kei asked, smiling.
"Yeah, we did," Sho replied, blushing slightly.
"And didn't it cross both of our minds that it could have gone a lot farther. And I mean a lot."
"Well, yeah, but—"
"Which means that you find it uncomfortable for me to be calling you Sho-chan."
"No! It's just—" Sho swallowed hard. "I…I'd rather no one find out about our relationship yet, Kei." Kei's smile faltered.
"Oh…" Kei said, glad that he didn't get the time to finish saying "I love you" to Sho the night before.
"Kei—I just don't want them to reject you."
"You mean you don't want them to hate me for having a crush on you for the longest time?"
"No, it's not that—" Kei sat up, pushing Sho off of him.
"Sho-chan. I know what your concern is, but aren't we just a little too old to care what others think about us?"
"Just because I'm nineteen doesn't mean I'm grown up, Kei!" Sho shot at him. Kei's breath caught in his chest. He turned and sat on the edge of the bed.
"I'm sorry, Sho." Kei said, not wanting to look at Sho. "I never realized that you still considered yourself a child." Kei's brown eyes stared into Sho's. "Because you're much older in my eyes. In my eyes, you're grown up. You're someone who I depend on to keep living. You're the only thing keeping me in this world, Sho. I thought you would have realized that by now. But a child never realizes things like that." Kei looked away, a tear slipping down his cheek. "I'm sorry I misjudged you." Kei stood up and walked out of the room, not daring to look at Sho. Sho, on the other hand, looked broken. He was regretting what he had said. He heard Kei's door click shut softly. Sho bolted out of his room and stopped at Kei's closed door. He slowly opened it and walked in to find Kei standing in the middle of the room.
"I didn't mean what I said!" Sho blurted out.
"No, you did. Because it's true." Kei whispered.
"IT'S NOT TRUE!" Sho yelled. "Kei—I'm stupid! I blurt things out that I shouldn't! I never realized that I mean that much to you." Kei watched a tear slide down Sho's cheek. "Kei-chan. I'm sorry."
"Sho." Kei said softly, walking up to Sho. He brushed away the tears falling down the man's cheeks. "Don't cry, Sho." Kei whispered. He pulled Sho into a warm hug. Sho sobbed into Kei's shoulder. "Don't cry." He paused. "I love you." Kei said softly into the man's ear. Whether Sho had heard him or not, he didn't know. Sho simply continued to sob into his shoulder.
Once Sho had calmed down, Kei sent him to the bathroom to take a shower. "Just calm down, Sho." Kei told him before he closed the door. As Sho stepped into the steaming shower, he closed his eyes.
"Did I just imagine him saying that?" Sho asked himself softly. "I'd tell him how I feel, but if I imagined it…would I scare him away? I couldn't…"
My dream was amazing the other night. For some reason Gackt was at my house and I was showing him the summary for one of my fics and this is how it went: Gackt: "Kei x Sho!" Me: "(innocent smile)" Gackt: "(pouts) Why am I on the bottom?" Me: "XD!"
And then I was woken up by a really, really loud thunderstorm. So I never really answered him. xD Leave it to Gackt to say something like that. Or—leave it to my mind to make Gackt say something like that.
Don't you feel bad for Kei? (pats his head) It'll get better, don't worry.
Oh yeah. And I went to a Tigers game the other night (they lost, duh! xD) and my brother got cotton candy so I ate some of it. And I kept giggling because I was thinking of my fic. I think my brother thinks I'm crazy. And then during the seventh inning stretch, they had some stupid camera game where they would point the camera at two people and they'd have to kiss. So it was all boyfriend and girlfriend, husband and wife, dad and baby. And then amazingly, they got two guys to kiss. And I was like: "YEAAAH!" except they weren't hott. But it was still good. :D
And my brother's birthday was a few days ago and we went to Hatchy's, which is Darien Hatcher's bar. (Hatcher is/was a player for the Red Wings. But we had to let him go because of the stupid pay cuts and crap. ;-;) And it was really good. End random.
So…yes. Umm…REVIEW. (and I like long reviews like Tsuki. :D Long reviews are fuuuun.)