Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi: The Next Generation.

A/N this is my real account, i had posted this story on my friend jes' account, and it will remain until she deletes it

I opened the door to my house once more. It was the third day after moving back in with my mom. Silence welcomed me. I walked into the family room, only to find my mom, lying on the couch. Bottles of rum lay scattered on the table amongst other assorted bottles of boose.

"Mom? Are you okay?" I asked. Staring at the table, and then at my mom.

My mom groaned. I sighed, "Not again! She promised! She said it was only day by day though, but not this!" I trudged into my room, and closed the door. I pulled up my sleeve, and pulled down my armwarmer. Scars shown all over my arm. Suddenly my back pack dropped onto the ground. My cd case fell out and I kneeled to pick it up. Suddenly the temptation to cut, to take the pain away, came back. I opened my cd case to find my my compass without the pencil right there. I picked it up, and began to cut.

Tears fell from my eyes. The pain was just like the first cut I had ever made. Blood fell onto the floor. I pulled my sleeve, and arm warmer back into place, and placed the compass back in its place. I sat down amongst my homework. The night went on, and finally I fell asleep in my bed. I awoke to the sound of my mom puking in the other room. I sighed, and tried to block out the noise. I stared at my clock: 3:04am. I rolled over, and decided I should get up, besides my alarm goes off in about 3 hours.

I slipped off my bed and got ready. Then I stepped out into my kitchen to try and find something interesting to eat. When I stared over at the couch, my mom was pouring a glass of whiskey. I sighed, and took my breakfast into my room. I sat there trying to decided whether to go back to Sean's apartment.

My alarm went off, and I stared in amazment at how much time had passed. I picked up my back pack, and decided to get to school early. I headed off, only to run into Paige.

"Oh hello Ellie, the cutter of our school?"

Istopped dead. "Don't stop, keep moving, act like everythings normal.."

"Used to, I used to be a cutter, but not any longer."

I pushed on, I hurried towards Degrassi. Tears began to fall from my cheeks, and broke I into a run.

The bell rang for first period. I sat down in math, and sighed when the teacher announced that there was another pop quiz again.

The intercom speaker came on. "Mr. Armstrong could you please send Ellie to the guidance office?"

"Yes, in just a minute, she's taking a test"

I sighed. "Not again! Paige knew didn't she, that's why she mentioned the cutting? She was just trying to see my reaction to see if she was right!" I tried to finish my math test, but my thoughts continued to pour over Paige, and my drunk mother. She handed her test to Mr. Armstrong, and headed towards the guidance office. She stared at the bathroom nearby on her way there. She was about to push open the door when she heard approaching footsteps, and hurried on towards the guidance office.