"Regret"
by Colin Taylor
My Dearest Hermione,
Looking back at life and everything that has happened, I really don't know where I went wrong. I guess some bad things just can happen to good people. I don't know why I couldn't just have a normal life, it didn't help being one of the best friends of Harry Potter. I'm not going to lie and say it was easy having been through all the trials with him, but I know it was worth it and I don't regret it. I just wish he was alive and he, you, and I could just hang out worry free like the good old days… Days when I'd wake up in my room on the top floor of the Burrow to Fred and George's explosions from their crazy inventions… Days Bill, Charlie, Fred, George and I would all play quidditch in our back yard, when they were still living at home… Days when all I had to worry about was getting my potions essay done… And days I would beg you to let Harry and I study your History notes before all our exams. I will miss you, for you're my only living friend I have left, my family was killed by Death Eaters. You never really know how much you love someone until they are gone, I figured that out the hard way. I always dreamed of leaving the Burrow and doing great things. But now that I don't have any of that anymore, I realize how much more important my family is, how much I really loved them. But now they are all gone. I guess that is why I am going to take my own life. Anything is better than this. I just wish I didn't have to leave you all alone. I really did try to move on, mainly for your sake. But I feel like I can never be happy again. It's kind of ironic, I never thought I was going to kill myself… I always figured I would die in some heroic way, or I'd live to a ripe old age, but I also never though I could be in such pain that I am in. Hermione, there is something that I never had the courage to tell you, but I guess now that I really have nothing to lose I can say it. I love you. I have loved you I think ever since fourth year. I really was jealous of that Krum. I would just die if you abandoned me. I guess the reason I never told you is because I didn't want to ruin our friendship if you thought differently. I would have rather been merrily your friend than risk you leaving me. I am truly sorry I haven't said anything earlier if you feel the same about me. But I guess I can't turn back time, or I would have changed everything. My only regret is that I couldn't be there for anyone, I couldn't stop Mum or Dad from dieing in for the Order, and I couldn't be there for Harry when he needed me most. Hermione, please thank Lupin and Tonks for being like parents to me when Mum and Dad were gone. But most of all, I thank you for helping me after I had no one else left. I bid you farewell.
Love,
Ron