Title: Oh.
Author: Englemyer
Spoilers: Anything from season four and before and of course the promotions of any SGC officer.
A/N: I know this may sound freaky, but I have had many sleepless nights over this story. I watched Grace for the first time in November last year. A couple of weeks ago I just could not sleep when this story kept popping into my head, so I better get on with it! Oh, and thanks to my betta Jiltf.
DISCLAIMER: Um pretty much I don't own anything and I don't own the song addicted by Kelly Clarkson.
Carter walked through the SGC heading towards General O'Neill's office. She had a lot on her mind in the past few weeks. Well not really the past few weeks, the past 4 years. But it all really became relevant when the president made a personal phone call to her exactly three weeks from the day.
This was it; she was going to tell him. She was not going to chicken out for the second time this week.
As she was thinking she drifted into Jacks office automatically. She took a seat straight away after he waved her in as he was on the phone. She started playing with the lamp cord on his desk. He looked at her and mouthed "sorry" as he was trying to wrap up the phone call.
He finally hung up the phone as Sam was lost in her own thoughts. The sound of the phone being placed on the hook startled Sam.
"So Carter what can I do for you?" Jack asked as he crossed his hands on his desk in front of him.
"Um, I need to talk to you about something." Carter stammered.
"What's wrong? Is everything ok?" Jack asked concerned.
"No." She answered plainly as she looked away from him whilst trying to swallow the lump in her throat.
"Carter?" Jack asked becoming impatient and more worried.
"Well sir, I just came to tell you some news of my dad." She chickened out again. She couldn't bring herself to do it after all these years.
"Oh," Jack frowned. "Well how's Mark doing?" He added for good measure.
"Um, I don't know haven't really had a chance to talk to him." She said calmly.
"So what news have you got?"
"The memorial service is going to be held in 3 days, and I want you to be there." Carter nearly whispered.
"Sure, do you need a lift?" Jack saw how tired Carter looked but there was nothing he could do.
"Yes, that would be great."
"Right, anything else you need just give me a yell."
"Actually, there's something else." This was it; she was going to tell him.
"Yes?"
"For 4 years, there was a secret kept between myself, General Hammond, Cassie, my dad and Janet. I thought now would be a good time to let you know since the recent passing of my dad." She said trying to smile but was not really succeeding.
"Carter, if there is anything I would probably know about it, I have the highest clearance." Jack stated.
"No sir you wouldn't, it has been sitting in the president's office until I felt it was the right time to tell you." Sam continued fiddling with her hands. As Jack was getting more and more nervous.
"What I am trying to say sir it that…Daniel"
Sam was interrupted as Daniel entered Jack's office.
"Hey guys what's up?" Daniel asked as he sat in the chair beside Sam.
"Nothing, I was just leaving." Sam muttered heading for the door.
"Carter wait!" Jack called as she was shutting the door.
"Was I interrupting something?" Daniel asked suspiciously.
"Yes!" Jack said agitated.
"What?" Daniel asked.
"You have the worst timing ever." Jack stood and headed for the door.
"What happened?" Daniel now more curious than before.
"She was about to tell me something about a secret she's been keeping for years, I have to go find her." Jack exited the room.
Sam made her way from the check point and to her car. She got in as quick as she could. She slammed the door and before putting her key in the ignition she hit her head against the steering. "Why am I such an idiot?" She kept repeating to herself.
"Hold yourself together solider." She hindered. She started the car and headed for home. She turned on the radio.
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down.
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I am running from you all the time
And I know
I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek
As misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know
I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never going to quit you over time.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think.
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like it's not me like it's not me
It's like I'm lost…
Sam turned the radio off as she was just not in the mood for this particular song at that exact moment.
She arrived at her house and got out of the car and went inside.
Jack had just made it past check point as he was held up by Walter telling him about some meeting for the next day.
He reached his truck, opened the door and got inside. He hit his head into the steering wheel. "O'Neill you're an idiot you should know what's wrong with her." He repeated.
He then straightened up. "Pull yourself together O'Neill." He muttered to himself.
He put the key in the ignition and made his way to Carter's house.
He eventually arrived at her house. He parked his car behind Carter's. It had been so long since he had been at her house; in fact it had been 3 years. And she wouldn't let him in because she was seeing that "Alien guy" anyway. Before that was just after the Za'tarc incident.
He finally got out of his car and walked to her front door. He knocked twice. Sam answered the door with a little girl standing behind her. She had long light brown hair and deep blue eyes. She was rather short as if she were 4 or 5 years old.
"What are you doing here?" Sam asked as she was slowly getting paler and paler.
"Mummy who's that?" The little girl inquired.
"Can I come in?" Jack asked as Sam opened the door further and shut it behind him. The little girl never left Sam side.
"Have a seat." Sam directed Jack to the couch.
Jack sat down and the little girl sat beside Sam.
"Hi, what's your name?" The little girl asked.
"My name is Jack. What's yours?" Jack asked.
"My name is Grace." She replied.
"Ok miss Grace, it is time for you to go to bed. Say goodnight to Jack and then I will tuck you in." Sam said as she clapped her hands.
"Goodnight Jack, I will see you another day!" Grace said enthusiastically.
"I will meet you up in your room in a minute ok?" Sam asked.
"Yes mummy." Grace headed up the stair case.
Mummy thought Jack. "Oh."
Sam headed into the kitchen and turned on the kettle. Jack watched every move Sam made as she moved around the kitchen.
"Do want anything to drink?" Sam asked nervously as she placed two mugs on the bench.
"Nope. What's with the Mummy routine anything you want to share? Or are you just going to keep avoiding that?" Jack asked.
"No. I'll tell you everything after I put her to bed. Coffee is in the last cupboard on the right down the bottom. I'll be back in five." Carter made her way up the stairs.
Jack took her offer and made them both coffees he knew he wasn't going to drink. He tapped his fingers on the counter in front of him waiting for the kettle to boil. It started whistling and he poured the boiling water into the two mugs. He placed them both on the coffee table in front of the couch.
He sat down on the end of the couch and picked up one of the mugs and just stared into it.
Sam walked down the stairs and took a seat next to him.
"So?" Jack asked
"So, that was Grace." Sam answered as she picked up her cup.
"She's your daughter?" Jack shifted uncomfortably on the couch.
"Yes." Sam answered plainly.
"Oh..?"
"Don't you want to know who her father is?" She asked getting frustrated at his lack of interest.
"It's really none of my business is it?" Jack faced her and stared into her eyes.
"Jack, please."
"What do you want Carter a parade? You kept a secret from me, a huge secret, and, and…"
"She's yours Jack." Sam interrupted.
Silence filled the room. They just sat and stared at each other.
"How when…why didn't you tell me?" Jack whispered.
"I didn't know how under the circumstances."
Jack became angry "Under the circumstances that I had fathered a child? What did you think I let this one shoot itself as well?"
Sam recoiled in shock at the thought that he could even image him an unfit parent.
"When we were beneath the surface. I fell pregnant. The deal was if I told you, you would be court marshalled straight away. But, if I kept it a secret so we could still do what we do without punishment." A tear flowed down Sam's left cheek.
"I wanted to tell you, I really did. But what else could I do when they put both of us in a situation like that." Carter added.
"What deal who put you up to this?" Jack said sounding concerned.
"What do you mean?"
"Well when I went to Kinsey's house to clear Hammond's name with Maybourne, he told me, he had enough dirt to get you out of the air force so fast you'd be a janitor for the rest of your life. I didn't take any notice of it before, but that must have been it. Did he threaten you?"
"What else could I do Jack. I wanted to tell you for so long. When Kinsey died I got the clearance to tell you from the president 3 weeks ago."
"Oh."
"Is that it? Oh. Be angry, or be happy Jack, just don't say oh!" Sam said annoyed.
"What am I meant to say, I have a daughter…a daughter whose mother is the smartest most intelligent women in the world. I have wanted something on the lines of this for a long time now. Now that I've got it, I am a little shell shocked." Jack said as he took her coffee cup and put them both on the coffee table.
"Look Sam, it's going to take me a while to compose myself. You've had 4 years, I've had and hour." He caressed her cheek and she melted into his palm.
"Jack I have wanted to tell you so long. Before my dad died, he told me not let anything stand in the way of finding happiness. I was determined to tell you and that just gave me more of a reason to tell you." She brushed her lips against his.
They pulled apart and just stared at each other.
"What about Pete?" Jack broke there stare.
"He's gone. I couldn't marry someone I couldn't love." She kissed him again.
"I love you, you know that." Sam smiled at his comment.
"I always had a guess you did." Sam replied. "Oh, and I love you too." She added with a smirk.
The end
"A/N: Hope you enjoyed it. Tell me what you think.