Our kiss was so perfect. But it lasted only for about 1 minute,
maybe not even, because then Soda pulled away from me, and I
couldn't believe my eyes, he just turned around and started to
walk away without saying a single word.
I don't know anything anymore I mean the kiss, did it mean something? Yes I think it did, because you don't just go off kissing people unless u like them, right? I don't know... But I really want to find out the answers to this and all of my other questions about Soda. God I am so confused.
I went off to the park. I couldn't just go to the Curtis's after what had happened between me and Soda, knowing that he might be there.
The kiss... it made me realize something, it made me realize that I wanted to be with him, more than anything.
I decided to wait and see what will happen next. But a week passed by, and nothing did.
This was different now though because I couldn't stop thinking about him throughout the day, and couldn't sleep at night because I had dreams about him. I wanted him so bad, wanted to know that he is only mine; I wanted to wake up every morning seeing him sleeping soundly beside me. Most of all I wanted that kiss, the kiss that now changed my life forever.
The next day when the morning finally came I decided to tell Soda how I feel, I just couldn't take it anymore, I needed to know if he feels the same about me, if he likes me.
But what if he doesn't and the kiss just meant nothing... Then our friendship will be ruined forever, but I have to tell him how I feel and hope for the best. He's the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and deserves to know how I feel about him.
I came to his room and knocked on the door, he was still asleep I think, I'm not sure, so I decided to open the door myself. When I did open it, I wished that this was only a dream. No, this can't be happening, Soda would never do this to me! Hot tears started streaming down my face, I tried to stop them but I just couldn't.
Soda was on the bed, still asleep but he wasn't alone. There was a girl beside him about 15 years old, I couldn't figure out who she was, because she was turned around so all I could see was her back. But I didn't care anymore, I just closed his door back and stood there shocked with tears streaming down my face for about 2 minutes. Then I ran out of the house.
That horrible day, that moment I wanted to die. I kept running until I couldn't anymore, so I stopped and cried, but this time I didn't try stopping the tears, I wanted to cry, still I couldn't believe what I just saw so I thought maybe if ill cry, all of it will just go away, but once again I was wrong, it didn't. When I finally managed to stop I saw some kind of a bar just down the street and I went there. Usually I don't drink, but this time I did, I just couldn't take it, this was too much for me. How could he just do this to me? I mean first he kisses me and makes me think that a guy like him could actually like me, and then......then he sleeps with another girl, acting like nothing had happened. After I was really drunk I went off to the first guy I saw and started flirting with him.
When I woke up, I found myself on the bed completely naked, with a guy sleeping beside me. I had a headache again but this time I knew that it was from crying and drinking too much.
I couldn't remember much, except for the part that I saw Soda with that girl sleeping on his bed, and ran out. Then I also remember when I couldn't stop crying and went into the bar that I noticed down the street, and then I got drunk.
I couldn't remember what had happened next, but from what it looked like, I had sex with a guy I didn't even know. Oh my god! I lost my virginity to him, something I was cherishing through all of this time for that someone special...someone that never came....
I don't know anything anymore I mean the kiss, did it mean something? Yes I think it did, because you don't just go off kissing people unless u like them, right? I don't know... But I really want to find out the answers to this and all of my other questions about Soda. God I am so confused.
I went off to the park. I couldn't just go to the Curtis's after what had happened between me and Soda, knowing that he might be there.
The kiss... it made me realize something, it made me realize that I wanted to be with him, more than anything.
I decided to wait and see what will happen next. But a week passed by, and nothing did.
This was different now though because I couldn't stop thinking about him throughout the day, and couldn't sleep at night because I had dreams about him. I wanted him so bad, wanted to know that he is only mine; I wanted to wake up every morning seeing him sleeping soundly beside me. Most of all I wanted that kiss, the kiss that now changed my life forever.
The next day when the morning finally came I decided to tell Soda how I feel, I just couldn't take it anymore, I needed to know if he feels the same about me, if he likes me.
But what if he doesn't and the kiss just meant nothing... Then our friendship will be ruined forever, but I have to tell him how I feel and hope for the best. He's the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and deserves to know how I feel about him.
I came to his room and knocked on the door, he was still asleep I think, I'm not sure, so I decided to open the door myself. When I did open it, I wished that this was only a dream. No, this can't be happening, Soda would never do this to me! Hot tears started streaming down my face, I tried to stop them but I just couldn't.
Soda was on the bed, still asleep but he wasn't alone. There was a girl beside him about 15 years old, I couldn't figure out who she was, because she was turned around so all I could see was her back. But I didn't care anymore, I just closed his door back and stood there shocked with tears streaming down my face for about 2 minutes. Then I ran out of the house.
That horrible day, that moment I wanted to die. I kept running until I couldn't anymore, so I stopped and cried, but this time I didn't try stopping the tears, I wanted to cry, still I couldn't believe what I just saw so I thought maybe if ill cry, all of it will just go away, but once again I was wrong, it didn't. When I finally managed to stop I saw some kind of a bar just down the street and I went there. Usually I don't drink, but this time I did, I just couldn't take it, this was too much for me. How could he just do this to me? I mean first he kisses me and makes me think that a guy like him could actually like me, and then......then he sleeps with another girl, acting like nothing had happened. After I was really drunk I went off to the first guy I saw and started flirting with him.
When I woke up, I found myself on the bed completely naked, with a guy sleeping beside me. I had a headache again but this time I knew that it was from crying and drinking too much.
I couldn't remember much, except for the part that I saw Soda with that girl sleeping on his bed, and ran out. Then I also remember when I couldn't stop crying and went into the bar that I noticed down the street, and then I got drunk.
I couldn't remember what had happened next, but from what it looked like, I had sex with a guy I didn't even know. Oh my god! I lost my virginity to him, something I was cherishing through all of this time for that someone special...someone that never came....