Disclaimer: Here comes another chapter. Hope it's good:)
Trish's POV
Days passed. I have been out of the hospital for a week now...My life has changed a lot...Soda and me..well because of all the times i hurt him, and the fact that it was Robbie's baby, i broke it off with him. I think..that breakin his heart once more was the hardest thing that I had to do in my whole life. I loved him...I still do, but i can't just lead him on, and my baby needs to be with his daddy. ( i found out that it was going to be a boy two days ago) Soda...he took it really hard, but now well he left Tulsa, told us he needed some time alone to think and figure out his life. I miss him, I miss him so much that in times when Robbie isn't home i cry. Everyday when i wake up, i hope that Soda will find enough strength in himself to forgive me...and hopefully move on. On the other hand i am not sure that i will be able to take it, i don't think that i can be strong enough not to cry if i see him with another girl.
I am going to have a family now...Robbie has proposed. We are going to get married in 5 days in a small nearby church. I love him too...i do...Just not as much as Soda, and i know for sure that he will never be able to take Soda's place.
Things change, and so do people...All i know is that i have to move on and at least try to give my baby boy the life and the childhood that i never had...
The doorbell rang...It was way too early for Robbie to be home form work yet...and Soda, he isn't supossed to get home for another week.
Opening the door...i saw a cop. It was hard to even imagine what had happened.
"Hello, i am lookin for Trish...Trish Cameron.."
"Hi...I'm Trish..is...is something wrong?" I answered quietly...
"Your fiance...Robbie..a heavy load fell on him..we rushed him to the hospital, but he did not make it..I am so sorry..." Said the cop while pulling out a piece of paper and handing it over to me.
"Here is a letter that he wrote while he was still concious..."
Without even thinking i took the paper and started reading...it said..
"Dear Trish...I am so sorry for leaving you like this, i promise that i never meant for this to happen...I never meant to leave you and our baby alone. I promise that i will fight until my last breath...but i am more than sure i will not be able to make it...I am so sorry and I just want you to know that no matter what i have always loved you since the first day i saw you..it was hard to take my eyes off you. I have a confession to make...Remember the girl coming over with Sodapop that night, saying that she was Kim and tellin you all the things about me and i said that she was lying...well she wasn't i did hurt her...I hurt her in so many ways..But i have changed. You changed me, and i will always be thankfull to you for that. One more thing, I just want you to know that I will die happy, because I know that I have a woman that had loved me until my last breath, and a baby that will have a happy childhood and one day will grow up to be a man, a better man than me. I have one last wish...Take Sodapop back, he is a nice guy, he has never hurt anyone and never will, I know that with him, both you and my little baby boy will be safe, and i still know that you love him, you always have and neither of you will ever stop loving one another...I am sorry...I wish i had more time to write, but it is gettin really hard to breathe and everything is gettin blurry. I'm sorry...
Love always and forever...
Robbie."
Tears were streaming down my face, I didn't even want to live anymore. I felt quilty for not loving Robbie as much as I love Soda. I wish that I was by his side when he was dying. I wish he woudl still be alive and would hold me tight saying everything will be ok. Loving me, and tellin me how much i mean to him. I miss him already...
...I thought i finally figured out my life...But I didn't...