I love Lupin though…sigh
Stuff foe 'April Fools' fic- I might be like 2 days (OMG) before I update it! Have no fear…I just want to have a really good prank for Siruis and true fully I am kind of lost as to want to do with him. If you want to e-mail me any ideas or sites with April Day pranks on them I would greatly appreciate it. I will give you the credit too…who do you think I am? Snape?
I also just want to add that I was invited to help write a multi-author story! I am so honored! I have only been writing fiction for only a week! THANKS, It wouldn't have been possible without your guys support!
Remus was violently shaken from his thoughts by a loud crack of thunder over head. What was he doing? He couldn't be wasting time like this! Remus ran faster through the rain with more determination to find…
"Nymphadora!"
He could feel his throat getting more scratchy and sore as he screamed through the rain.
She wasn't hiding from him was she? Another peal of thunder cracked over head. Finally realizing it was dangerous to be out in the thunder, Remus took cover under a near by overhead awning. "This is the astrological tower…" He thought to himself, his mind going a little fuzzy. Hoping that Nymphadora was smart enough to take cover also, he thought about what had happened in the hospital wing for the first time.
"She doesn't care! Neither do I!"
Remus was shocked to say the least. He knew that some of the order had known what had gone on between them but neither of them had ever mentioned it in front of anybody but themselves.
"I should have known it couldn't stay a secret forever." Remus thought while staring up at the sky for a answer to all his questions, "What will I do now?"
His plan had been to find Nymphadora but past that…
"What will I say to her? I don't think I can talk about 'us' again." thought Remus quickly adding out loud, "Or lack of."
That bloody kiss. It was its fault. It had been in the rain too. Remus still remembered it like it had been yesterday. Everything he had been trying to ignore for months had all exploded in that kiss. So warm, on fire. Remus got warmer at just the thought of it. The world had seemed like it was flawless during it, a feeling Remus had never felt before. Like nothing could go wrong. He had held on to that moment till,
"I love you, Remus"
Still staring up at the cloud filled sky, Remus let out a low moan. Those damn words. Why did Nymphadora have to say them and why did he have to reply before he could stop himself?
"I love you, Nymphadora."
After he had said that, she had broken the kiss and brought her face at a distance to look at him. He had seen love in her eyes then. Unconditional, love. He had been frighten because he knew what Nymphadora could see in his eyes.
The same thing.
The reality of the situation had hit him then like a violent wave then. They loved each other. But, it was a love that was wrong on so many levels. They could never do this. It was wrong.
Remus thought back to how he had removed his arms from her back and with a splatter of pathetic excuses had ran, much like he had been a few moments before. He knew he had just left her there, but he had to run. The feelings were too much. They still were.
Remus shuttered lightly as he thought back to how cold and unfriendly those first rain drops had felt against him, after just holding Nymphadora. He had been so warm just moments ago.
"Why? I love you! Those excuses aren't good enough!"
"Why are you doing this, Remus?"
"Stop acting so bloody noble!"
"I LOVE YOU!"
Remus could feel his eyes beginning to fill with tears. All their arguments had always ended with Nymphadora just looking utterly defeated. Like a dementor had sucked out all her happiest memories. He felt such guilt. But it was for her own good. If Remus just excepted her emotions, he knew there would be no turning back.
"She doesn't really want me." Remus said to himself, he had thought that so many times over the last couple of months.
Another peal of thunder shook his mind again.
"Please be safe, Nymphadora." Remus silently prayed.
OWARI
Sorry, I have to end the chapter a little faster then I wanted too. I woke up sick and need extra sleep before work. Please, understand. I will update when I get back from work (I hope), so please be patient with me! Once again, I love you all!