Important author's note: This chapter is Tonks viewpoint of the LAST CHAPTER! I think it would be fascinating…
PS Sorry, I am very sick now. But, I feel a strong commitment to make sure I keepat itand write or my brain will explode from my ideas. And who really wants to clean that up?
I think after this chapter there will be one more…
However, I might be persuaded to write a bit about Dumbledore's funeral. I am such a tease!
TONKS POV----- for PREVIOUS CHAPTER
Another flash of light and a crack of thunder had told me that I needed to seek shelter.
Fast.
I saw a opening into a dark overhead passage and ran straight for it, quickly burying myself into the shadows. Before the storm and the darkness, would have had me going back into the hospital or at least in the hall near it. Not anymore though. I couldn't bear the thought of seeing him. I sobbed violently, thinking about what Remus must think of me now.
My body shook with silent sobs. Cold rain water mingling down my face with hot tears. My ears caught a sound in the distance over all the noise, it sounded like a voice.
"Remus…" I muttered. Great, I am now officially delusional. There was no way Remus would follow me into such a violent storm, after what I had done to him.
My predictions were proven false though as a figure, I would know anywhere, took shelter in the opening I had been in just minutes ago. I silently praised myself for hiding in the shadows. Even though I was completely hidden in them, a lone lamp illustrated Remus' features.
He looked worried and very deep in his own thoughts. That was most likely why he didn't see me right away. Remus had such a pained expression on his face.
"This is my fault. He must be thinking about how he can patch up what happened in the hospital wing. I really did mess up everything! I am such a fool!" I silently scolded myself for all the things that had I had done that seemed so rational just half an hour ago. Remus turned his head up to look at the sky.
I hated it when he looked like this. So old. So weary. Like he had nothing else to give the world. A look of totally and utter defeat. Had I been the one that had done this to him? My eyes pricked as tears started to gather in them again.
"Or lack of."
I heard Remus say to himself. I also let out a small gasp then but I managed to swallow it right before it passed my lips. "Yeah, my lack of everything. My manners, my morals…my wits." I silently told myself. For I knew what he was talking about, what else could he mean? He was disgusted with me.
I watched as Remus started to blush. What was that man thinking about? Remus let out a low moan. I heard it and shivered against my will. I had only heard a moan like that once before from him, it had been under a certain oak tree, many months ago. I watched still, staring at him now, as his eyes darted around the overhang, as if looking for some sort of answer.
I wish I knew the question.
My mind momentarily fluttered to thoughts about our one kiss. What I wouldn't give to do that one more time. No, not one more time. I wanted to kiss him so much, that I would lose track of the number of kisses shared between us. That wasn't all though. I wanted to make love to him too.
I, Nymphadora Tonks, wanted to make love, to Remus J. Lupin.
Blushing violently I torn my eyes from his figure, too embarrassed to look at him. I had had many daydreams about making out with Remus, but never that far. The thought stork me. Why had I never thought about it before? Maybe he was so revolted by the kiss that…
No, never mind. I knew the problems we were encountering now had nothing to do with physical attraction.
"She doesn't really want me."
To say that I was surprised when I heard Remus say that would be a huge understatement. What could he mean by that? Not want him! That was the most ridiculous thing that I had ever heard. Not want him!
I could take this no longer! I opened my mouth and a bolt of lighting broke through the sky overheard silencing me for a second.
OWARI
Short because that last chapter had been short! Makes sense, huh? Don't worry all will be revealed in the next chapter! WHEE PS. Very important author's note at the end of that chapter also.