At least I can manipulate his emotions for my own selfish needs!
Please read my important author notes at the end of the chapter!
Now the finale…
"I do want you Remus. More then you could ever know."
Remus jumped as he heard a voice from the shadows talk to him. Remus turned around and watched as the owner of the voice stood up.
It was Nymphadora Tonks.
He couldn't believe she had been there the entire time and he had never sensed her. The full moon was approaching fast and he usually was more aware during those times. He was just too tired and worn. The sleepless nights and hours of worry had effected him more then he had realized.
Tonks stood rooted to her spot for a moment in the shadows. Too afraid to approach him. She seemed to come to a silence resolve though and started to walk towards him. She came to stand just mere inches next to him. Tonks' robes brushed against Remus' arm.
Neither moved to break the contact.
Both just stared outside. Too afraid to say anything to each other.
"The weather makes me think of love." Tonks started in a unsure voice.
"Why?"
Remus watched as Tonks cautiously licked her lips and continued.
"The weather is sure thing that is going to happen. Winter, Spring, Summer, and Autumn. A never ending cycle. Going on for millions of years. A unbroken dance…"
Tonks eyes darted up to Remus' face and when she saw that he was paying attention she continued.
"Sometimes love can be violent, like this thunder and lighting. Cold like newly fallen snow. Warm and welcoming…like the first rays of sunlight after a storm. It is always changing. Becoming something new. It is different for everyone. Some people prefer dark to light. Some prefer newly fallen snow to the first flowers of spring."
Remus wondered what had made Nymphadora think about all this…
"Tonks, what do you mean by saying that?"
He watched as her shoulders sagged slightly and she said,
"Remus, you seem to prefer the dark. Why?"
Remus Lupin had no idea what to say.
She thought he preferred the dark?
He found himself repeating her question,
"Why? What makes you say that?"
"You push me away. I.." Tonks hesitated for a moment but continued, "I know you love me and I can't understand why you are doing this to yourself and to me. Why do you want to be miserable? We can be happy together. We deserve to be happy together. I want that. Why don't you?" As Tonks finished Remus could feel her eyes resting on him, instead of the outside world. Why must she make this so difficult for him?
Remus continued to glare outside at the rain, silently refusing to look at Nymphadora.
"Tonks…"
"Stop!"
Remus still didn't look at her.
"My name isn't Tonks! It's Nymphadora! God damn it, Remus!"
Remus couldn't help but look at her now. A look of complete bewilderment on his face.
Tonks glared at him.
"But, you hate that name…?" Had he missed something?
"I know. You think I do, but I don't. Only you can call me it though. You call me 'Nymphadora' because you care about me. It singles me out to you. It's like calling me a special name, like 'darling' almost. So," Tonks glare intensified, "I am 'Nymphadora' to you…unless your feelings have changed.
God, if his feelings had changed it was only because they had grown stronger.
"Nymphadora…" Remus knew there was something more that he was going to say but the way her eyes had changed instantly from a glare of irritation to a glaze of love was too much.
"Don't look at me like that!"
Remus regretted snapping at her but this had to stop.
Now.
Even though he had said it millions of times before he said it again. Hoping that maybe this time it would have the effect that it was suppose too.
" I am too old for you."
"I like older man."
" I am too poor for you. I could never give you the things you deserve."
"I have done nothing special to deserve wealth. I don't care about material things."
"I am too dangerous. I am a werewolf, a dangerous animal."
Tonks rolled her eyes.
"Remus if you are a dangerous animal then I am the Easter bunny."
Remus let out a light chuckle against his better judgment.
Tonks gave him a heart warming smile.
This wasn't going how he had planned.
Suddenly her arm, the one that had been brushing up against his, moved and her hand went up to cup his check.
"I love you." Her voice was wrapped in love and honesty.
Remus realized she truly meant what she said. It wasn't a little crush or fling. She wasn't going to quit until she got her way.
Not now, not ever.
The feels in Tonks voice wrapped itself around Remus' heart and he felt a calm he had been missing, with out ever realizing it.
"Leave me alone, Tonks. I want to be alone"
Maybe he had expected words of hatred to come from her next, a look of pity or slap in the face. Anything would have been better then what she did next.
Tonks' hand quickly recoiled from holding his check, like he was red hot to the touch.
She just looked at him, without saying a word. A pained expression in her eyes. Tears started to fall down her checks in quick repetition. Then she ran.
He watched in stunned silence as she ran into the rain.
Lighting broke him from his thoughts.
He had to follow her.
What had he just done!
Acted like a complete idiot, that was how he had acted.
He had to stop fooling himself.
She was right.
They deserved to be happy.
He wanted more light in his life.
Remus was sick of living in the dark.
"NYMPHADORA!" Remus screamed, as he ran after her, with a new burst of energy.
He thought of holding her in his arms, kissing her over and over again without fear, telling her that he loved her everyday for the rest of their lives, seeing her hair bubblegum pink again. Remus felt an energy he had never had before.
"NYMPHADORA! I LOVE YOU!"
He watched as her retreating figure stopped and turned.
Tonks mouth was wide open in astonishment, her eyes wide, cheeks flushed.
She started to run towards him now.
He just stretched out his arms, in welcome. To welcome her home.
"Remus!" She said his name in a breathless squeal, as she pounced him.
They both fell onto the ground. Tonks landed on top of Remus as he went splat in the mud that had been created by all the falling rain.
"Oh, god Remus." Tonks said while wrapping herself around his body. "You are the most difficult man I have ever met!"
A huge smile played on her lips.
"Nymphadora…Just shut up and kiss me already. It is very mean to…"
Tonks did as she was ordered.
Her warm body was pressing him into the wet mud. He didn't care though, he didn't care about anything then other then feeling her. He opened his mouth wide letting her tongue full entry to explore. He felt no need to hold back. There was no need to now.
Tonks' hands played with his hair, pulling lightly, stroking.
Remus' hands found their way under her shirt. He felt her warm back, indulgencing his senses with all she had to offer.
One thing was missing though…
Remus lightly torn his lips from hers and said in a husky voice,
"My favorite color in bubble gum pink."
Tonks just looked at him for a moment and then eyes gleaming with mischief, she closed them and changed her hair color.
"That better, love?"
Remus just shook his head and brought her lips down to his for another kiss.
Now he was kissing the Nymphadora Tonks that he loved.
His tongue started to invade her mouth inspecting every corner. Drinking in everything.
He knew that she could feel how much he needed and wanted her, but he didn't care. He had no need to be embarrassed. He would feel her firm nipples pressing against him and knew her want was equal to his.
The rain feel on them drenching them but not making them cold. Nothing could break the warmth they both felt.
He started to kiss the side of her mouth and slowly made his way down to her neck. He could feel her arch to meet his lips. Remus knew he was sucking and biting harder then he should but…
"Oh, god. Remus, that feels so…don't stop." Tonks grabbed his hair and pushed his face back down to her neck.
Maybe it wasn't too hard after all.
He continued his assault on her neck and jaw, till she pulled his hair roughly so that his neck was open to her lips. He felt her tongue make circles on his neck and she started to nip at his ear lobe.
"Do you like that, Remus?"
"Yessss…" Remus uttered in a low hiss.
"Good."
God, she was cruel and he loved every moment of it.
How long they kissed he'll never know.
But one thing he did realize, a little while later, when he looked back at that day.
The thunder had stopped quite mysteriously when he had just said the words he had just needed to say all along.
"I love you"
OWARI
OMG! Do you realize how LONG this is! I hope you are all satisfied! I really enjoyed writing this…I love the end!
My confessions: The part with the weather being like love, that is a philosophy I have had for a while and I guess it just seemed to fit this story. I hope everyone understood it!
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VERY LONG AND VERY IMPORTANT AUTHOR'S NOTES PLEASE READ!
Ok, here I go.
I have been gripped by the holy ghost of all fanfic writing or the devil.
I am still debating.
My insane idea.
I want to write a story about Remus and his years at Hogwarts. All 7 yrs. Crazy, huh?
I mean do it good too. Research, reading all 6 books again to get the feel they are written in. I mean do it VERY good. Like writing a novel about it all.
The only differences…
A. Try and make it a little more cheerful.
B. Have Tonks been the same age as Remus.
I love Remus/Tonks (duh) So, I would want her in the story. She would still be able to change her appearance and be Siruis' cousin. I just want to include her.
I would have to do a lot of reading and such to make sure it was very true to what Rowling's has written about them. It would take me a month or two to start. But, I would still write other fanfic as I write that one.
It is just a big idea that I want serious feedback. If I get nothing then I won't do it. Or if everything thinks they wouldn't be able to read something that big. I won't try it. I have to get more then a couple of replies to do this. Sorry, if I seem rude.
Well, there it is! Please think it over and let me know what you think! LONNA