Chapter 25

Angelus groaned with the force of his orgasm, opening his yellow eyes he stared down at the woman beneath him, her ripe body, he could feel himself hardening he couldn't wait for her to wake up, he didn't think he could ever get tired of taking her time and time again. He had vamped out when he came but his human features appeared leaving him looking like any other man.

His Cordelia was definitely a hell cat in bed, he could teach her so much the years to come were going to be exciting. A frown marred his handsome face. Why had she come to him? Why did she have sex with him? Something was going on, but what?

*****

A blonde tall elegant female slowly walked into the room, a bad lay down naked with a naked woman covering him, and chains littered the floor around the table they were on.

"Well, well, well it looks like someone had fun and I missed the party, damn." She snapped her fingers and grinned as the naked vampire sat up quickly cradling the brunette to his chest.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" He growled.

Just then Cordy sucked in a breath and came back to life, gulping in air Angelus stared down at her, Amanda smiled at the distraction it hadn't been planned that way but whatever works. With the vampires gaze on the naked woman the blonde immortal raised a tranquilliser gun and pulled the trigger. Angelus looked up to late he was just in time to see the bullet come at him and enter his shoulder.

He looked around dazed. "Bitch." He muttered as he collapsed on the table dragging Cordy with him.

*****

Cordy paced the floor waiting for Angel to wake up; she hoped it was her vampire. After Amanda had knocked out Angelus she had wanted to stay and help the brunette. Cordy smiled at the look on the other immortals face when she came to help her. She had been straddling the vampire so some things the blonde woman could not see, thankfully. Cordy had dressed herself and then dressed Angel and waited then one by one everyone else joined them the AI gang, the Scoobies, the immortals and Lorne.

There was a groan from the table and everyone turned and stared and watched as Angel started to wake up. He looked around seeing all these eyes staring at him he started to feel self-conscious. Slowly the memories began to come back first of all one by one then as if it were a flood they all came rushing through all the things he had done and said, the things he had planned to do. His eyes fell on Cordy as she stood there nervously looking at him and all he think was how good he felt in her as she slammed down on him over and over again, as her breasts moved, how enticing she looked, her head thrown back as she screamed in ecstasy. His eyes darkened with arousal. Angel shook his head clear, how could she ever be near him again? How could she ever love him now? How could any of them be around him? He closed his eyes as the guilt swept through him.

Cordy watched as his face changed and she knew each look, especially the final one, guilt.

"Angel, sing?" She asked softly.

His eyes popped open as he looked at her.

"What?" Angel asked curiously.

"We need to know if it is you and if your soul is permanent." The brunette explained.

Angel opened his mouth and sang a few lines of a song and as he sang he stared at Cordy.

Only you have to power to move me
and together we'll make the whole
world move in sympathy
but I could see before

only you have the power to move me
take me hold me mould me
change me and improve
it's not funny any more

there was I wondering why
every days a peer into the distance
now with you the light is shining through
you gave me life not just existence

only you have the power to move me
and together we'll make the whole
world move in sympathy
only you have the power to move me

there was I wondering why
every days a peer into the distance
now with you the light is shining through
you gave me life not just existence

only you have the power to move me
and together we'll make the whole
world move in sympathy
bright' in up the darkest sky

if only you use the power to move me
take me hold me mould me
change me and improve me
we can make it happen you and I

Lorne turned and looked at them a smile on his face. "It is our talk dark and broody one and no more probs with the happiness, he get as happy as he wants."

Every breathed deeply they had no more worries of Angelus if Angel had a moment of true happiness. It was a relief to have that of their minds.

Tears formed in Cordy's eyes as he sang to her, but as soon as it was finished he looked away she could still see the guilt etched in his features. She ran to his side and gently brushed the side of his face, he looked up at her and Cordy smiled sweetly at him as she started to undo the chains the held him captive.

"Angel." She whispered as he was released.

"I'm uhh I'm so sorry." He saw Buffy, Dawn, Methos and he looked at Cordy once more and ran out of the door up to his room.

Cordy looked around at the others and ran after him.

*****

Angel was curled up on his bed, his back was to the doors as the memories, and thoughts and dreams of Angelus ran through his mind. He choked trying to force the tears, the fear, the pain and the guilt back down but he couldn't, all the emotions overwhelmed him and the tears started to flow.

Cordy opened the door and stood there at the weeping vampire, her heart broke seeing all the pain he was going through. Kicking of her shoes as she walked she climbed on the bed next to him. Angel turned to look at her, she help out her arms and he collapsed in them. Both of them wishing that she could make it better but knowing that they had to work it through together.

*****

Everyone else sat in the lobby glancing up the stairs wondering what was going on up in Angel's room.

"So Angel is back for good then?" Xander muttered, he missed Anya but it did make him realise how much he loved and still did love Cordy and deep down he was hoping that they could have got together but there was no chance of that now, even Buffy no longer had a chance with Angel. They had both lost their first loves.

"Looks like." Buffy muttered, it was finally sinking in that Angel truly was over her and instead of feeling bad it felt as if a weight had been lifted of her shoulders, she would always love him and she may never be totally over him but she had a closing on that part of her life, maybe this meant she could look forward and find someone for her.

"Are you ok Buffy?" Dawn asked quietly hoping her sister was not hurting too much.

"Actually I am, I'm good. I feel better." The blonde slayer smiled a big grin she felt free.

Wes looked around at the group of people, ones that would never have met under normal circumstances.

"I think it's time we all get sleep." Wes told them all, since this had happened none of them had any rest at all and he didn't know about the others but he was exhausted.

*****

Angel opened his eyes and laying in his arms was Cordy, he never thought that this would happen after everything he done and what had happened to her. He brushed some hair away from her face, the brunette mumbled in her sleep and snuggled deeper into his chest. The vampire wrapped his arms tighter around her, hoping and praying that they could get through this.

The corner of his eyes caught her gaping top showing just a glimpse of her breasts, his had desperately wanted to touch them, but he had already taken advantage of her once. He closed his eyes and a fantasy of Angelus' came into his mind, the vampire slamming her against the wall in game face, her eyes wide with fear as he took her hard, pounding to her body watching her writhe and scream with each powerful thrust.

His eyes flew open Angel tried to move away from the sleeping woman afraid of what he might do to her.

"Angel?" She whispered slowly becoming more and more awake.

"Cordy I can't. I might hurt you." He stuttered.

"You won't Angel." Cordy said her eyes shining with love as she stroked his cheek, he leaned into her hand.

"The things in my mind, the things my demon wants to do with you." His voice tremored.

"Well when you are ready tell me you never know I might want to do it with you too. I'll never judge you Angel you are a vampire, I will never turn away in disgust, I may say no but you may say no to me sometimes." The brunette laughed.

Angel had missed her laugh, her light and he laughed to. "When do I say no to you and when do you listen."

"I listen, I may not do what you say but I do listen." She told him haughtily but the light in her eyes showed that she was joking. "Now that you are permanent soul boy you can always go back to Buffy."

"You don't mean that and you know I don't want to." He paused for a moment and looked at her. "But you can tell me one thing how? How is my soul permanent and how did you get rid of Angelus? Because his last memories are of coming inside of you." Angel watched as Cordy blushed. "And then being tranquillised by Amanda."

Cordy moved closer to Angel, they had slid apart as he had his panic attack and she laid on his chest her hair standing out against his pale skin. She felt him tense up slightly and she knew that they were going to have a long talk about Angelus and what he was seeing in his mind.

"Well it was Wesley who found it and if yours truly wasn't around it would have been doubtful that we would have got you back. Well it seems that there was this potion that could give your soul back permanently." She told him.

"Why didn't Giles know about this?" Angel asked.

"Maybe he did and maybe he didn't but it wouldn't have done him or you any good at that point." She laid her fingers on his mouth to keep him quiet as she spoke. "Ok it easy and to the point and none of the Wes waffle. There was a potion that we gave you after you were knocked out, for it to kick in you had to have a moment of perfect happiness as Angelus, which since you are here I am guessing that happened, but after the." She waved her hands around vaguely. "Happiness bit, you had to bite and drain someone or thing that had strong blood, normal human wouldn't do it and you had to drain them till they were dead, which is a good thing that I'm an immortal really and when you were tranquillised we just added the last of the potion and voila. Angel back and soulful." She said with a grin.

"So you slept with Angelus to get me back." He frowned at her, not sure if he liked that idea.

Cordy hit him on his naked chest. "I slept with you, YOU. Angelus, the demon is a part of you and I love all of you demon and human, but this is the one I want to spend my time with, the part that I fell in love with."

Angel looked her in disbelief how could this amazing woman love every part of him good and bad, she had already forgiven himself for so many things how could he be so lucky how could she forgive him what he had done to his friends, how could he forgive himself.

"Cordy I don't think, maybe you should go with the immortals." He said looking away from her not willing to see the pain and hurt in her eyes.

"Oh no you don't buster, we went through this before you and I are staying here and talking about this, so start talking already." Cordy said with determination in her voice.

Angel looked up at her, her hand was on her hip and she was tapping her nails against her side.

"What do you want to talk about?" He muttered trying to avoid any real conversation.

"Ok let's start of with what Angelus dreams of doing to me, once we get that out the way we will go onto the rest but that seems to bother you the most, that we can't go forward because you are afraid of what you might do to me. So tell me and tell me now."