Courtney inhaled and exhaled deeply once more. Nikolas stood on the roof still looking over the horizon. What just went on? What did they just admit to? Was it a spur of the moment action or was it the truth? All of a sudden the irony of a song he had listened to as a kid hit him. 'On the other hand there's a golden band to remind me of someone who would not understand; On one hand I can stay and be your loving man' but it wasn't that part of the song that stuck into his mind. It was the part that described exactly how he felt with Courtney. 'In your arms I feel the passion I thought it died; When I looked into your eyes I found myself; And When I first kissed your lips, I felt so alive; I've got to hand it to you girl you're somethin' else.'
He knew those feelings were wrong because each of them were married to other people. But how could something so wrong...fell so right? After standing there for a few more minutes he exited the roof only to run into Emily. "Nikolas what are you doing here? On the roof none the less..." She laughed but looked a little confused. "I'm visiting a friend...I'm on my way out...we can meet up tonight...I'll let you get back to work." he said as he began to walk out. "Nikolas..." She called out after him. "Yeah?" he said stopping and turning to look at her. "I-I-I Love you..." "Yeah..." He said turning once more to leave. "I Love You Too..." he said as he left. He decided to go to Kelly's after a quick bite to eat he went to the docks. The place Court and he shared his first kiss. However he wasn't alone. She was there as well.
Courtney heard footsteps and turned around startled. "Nik-" She stopped to catch the breath he had stolen away from her. "You scared me.." She said almost breathlessly. Was the lack of breath because he scared her or was it because everytime she seen him her hear beat a little faster, her pulse beated stronger, her breath got weaker even at the mere mention of his name or the sound of his voice? He smiled at her. "You're ok...It's just me..." He reassured her. She smiled back at him. "I'm sorry I left in such a hurry Nikolas that was rude...I just...I think I was in shock...but I've done some thinking...and...I think you're right...Maybe we like each other more then we should...but...but maybe the people we're with led us to each other...I'm not justifying anything or saying it's right but.." Nikolas looked at her.
"You're right." He agreed with her 110. She sighed being thankful he didn't think she was some insane basket case. She scooted over from where she was sitting on the dock with her feet in the water and he took it as an invitation to sit down so he did and stared out at the harbor. The sun was beginning to set and it looked so beautiful. "Nikolas...Can I ask you something?" She asked looking out at the sunset. "You just did..." he joked around slyly. "haha" Courtney laughed sarcastically as she poked his side. "Honestly can I?" "Sure" Nikolas responded smiling. "If...If I wasn't Married to Jax and you weren't married to Emily would you still be attracted to me if the circumstances would have been different?" She asked looking at him for only a moment before focusing on the sunset again. Nikolas thought for a moment then made Courtney look at her. "Yes I would...and it would be so much easier." He laughed as a smile broke upon her face.
'Everyone's known someone that they just cain't help but want' That song verse played in Courtney's mind over and over and over again. Her someone was Nikolas Cassadine. Knowingly it should have been her husband she felt a bit guilty and a little sad but Nikolas made her feel so good about herself. So needed and so wanted. She had thought that this was immature feeling these feelings for another man other than her husband. This was supposed to disappear after your teen stage you were supposed to mature but she just couldn't help it. Who wouldn't want someone as handsome and good looking as Nikolas Cassadine? Her husband was spending all of his free time with the surrogate Liz Webber and was at her every beck and call. Now, she was spending some of her free time with another man. Payback was truely a B----.
She and Nikolas had stayed there long after sunset and it began to get cold. Courtney began to get chills and shiver and Nikolas noticed. He got up and put his jacket around her shoulders and helped her up as he held her in his arms tightly just to warm her up. Courtney felt like she was in the right place in his arms. She laid her head back against his shoulders and sighed. No matter how bad they wanted to fight it or how bad they tried they couldn't resist their mutual attraction for each other and quite frankly at the moment neither of them wanted to. "Courtney...the question you asked...I'm asking the same thing...if neither of us were married and under the circumstances that we're under would you still be attracted to me?" He asked as his chin rested softly on top of her head. "Truthfully Yes and as you said it would be so much easier for me if you or I weren't married...Do you think what we're doing is right?" "I don't think it's right but it doesn't feel wrong.." He answered truthfully.