HELLO, DEAREST(snicker) PEOPLES! I bring to you the next chapter of Not So Perfect! … Aren't you all simply thrilled? I think this might be the last chapter. Sorry, but it probably will be. Honestly, it depends on how much I write. And I don't know where this chapter will end until I get to the end, 'cause I suck at plots, and I'm not really sure how to plot out a plot(if someone were to tell me, I'd thank them very, very, much).

Not So Perfect
Chapter 4

It was fascinating. Harry held the knife in his hand, moving the blade just a little bit; twisting it so it would catch the sunlight. He stared at it, awed by the power it gave him. Finally he was in control of something. With several quick movements, he could end his life.

But he wouldn't. Oh, he'd think about it, and every day, he'd wish, no, pray (not that wishing or praying would do him any good), that some deity would be kind, and strike him down. But Harry couldn't take his own life. And he knew why.

It was because he was scared.

Yes, that's right, you're not blind/deaf/insane/high(well, actually, I can't guarantee those last threeif you're reading this, you're not blind, but I think you know what I mean…). The-Boy-Who-F-ing-Lived was scared. Infact, Harry was scared of a lot of things. He was scared of his uncle. He was afraid of what would happen if he told someone what his uncle did, and his uncle found out. But most of all, he was scared of dying.

Isn't it ironic? I, The-Boy-Who-Lived, am afraid of dying, Harry thought, Then again, when the hell did I live, anyway? Shouldn't I be called something more like, 'The-Boy-Who-Is-Still-Alive'? Then again, that's rather long, but then again-again, so is 'He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named'

Harry was startled out of his thoughts by someone unlocking the door to the up-stairs. Had his uncle remembered his knife? Harry toss-pushed(he was still rather weak from his last beating) the knife away from him.

It was his uncle. Harry felt dread wash over him as his uncle ignored the knife and sneered at him. today was going to be a long day. and it was only mid-morning, too. His uncle smiled(actually, it wasn't really a smile, but for lack of a better word, 'smiled' will have to do…) wickedly( or maybe 'evilly' would better describe it?) at him and took out his belt.

Today is definitely not going to be a good one. But when were they ever?

…

I'm starting to think he did it on purpose… Harry thought, looking at the knife his uncle had left behind. Again. Where it gleamed in the sunlight. From that goddamned window. From which he could see just enough sky to tempt him, to make him want to be outside.

Harry was really, really, starting to wish he was numb. He was bleeding very heavily… no, he wasn't bleeding as heavily as he had been; he was starting to clot. It had taken him bloody long enough; his uncle had left about two hours ago. But there were a lot of cuts.

That gash on his right leg still hadn't healed, and he was beginning to think it was infected. Harry was also sure that, not only were his ribs not healing properly, but he had broken and/or bruised even more. Maybe even re-broken.

But Harry was tired, and as much as he hurt, he really needed sleep. And so slowly, he drifted off to sleep

otakuintrainig-san: Are you sure? I'm glad you love it. oh, well, anyhoo, thank you, but my name was actually really random. I used to sign anonymous reviews as Tearful Joy. Then, I got a U/N on Leo's, and chose "Tearful Joy" because I couldn't think of anything better. then, I just used it here, and it's also my fictionpress name! and I'm sorry, but I know nothing whats-so-ever about chobits…

char1e-san: yay! oh, and as I said before, THANK YOU! I couldn't believe when I found out my story was on a C2! I almost fell out of my chair! I even almost passed out from hyperventilating! whoa, I spelled hyperventilating right on my first try and didn't have to use spell-check! I hope you've enjoyed the chapter!

samuraiduck27-san: Yay! Thank you! I'm a sucker for angst fics, too. I almost wish we didn't have the counters; it makes me sad when I see 180 on the 1st chapter and then 40 on the 4look at what I can do!

HEY, PEOPLES! LOOK OVER HERE, IT'S REALLY F-ING IMPORTANT! okay, I need to know what you want to happen in the next chapter. which will probably be the last. how should Harry die? and yes, he WILL die. my muses demanded a sacrifice!

A)bleed to death

B)suicide

C)other

I really need to know, because I can't decide and you're not getting another chapter until I do. AND FOR THE LOVE OF FREAKING GOD, IT'S RUDE TO READ SOMETHING AND NOT REVIEW. Also, if you review, please pick one you don't need to type it out, just say "A", "B", or "C", then hit enter and say whatever it is you want to.

And just so you know, flames will be laughed at/ignored, but no grudges will be held on my account.