Journey of the soul

Disclaimer: Don't own the Beyblade characters.

Summary: Takes place 6 months after the events in Journeys. Kai is trying to understand why his dreams are beginning to affect his life, and more importantly, what they have to do with Ray. I just have to say this, in the episode, G-Revolution, where Tyson, Daichi , Kenny and Kai are training with Heero and they watch the finals in America and China...yes that one don't know the name...and the announcer announces Ray...that sounds weird... the shot goes to Kai,and guess what? He was smiling as he walked up! Not smirking or frowning, I swear it was a smile...then again maybe it's my imagintaion...Nah, I'll believe he smiled :) Anyway 2 more chappies after this...I'm so happy, I can't believe wrote these...and you are reading and enjoying them! Well read, enjoy and review...reveiws make Yamireikon very happy!

Wolf: Why didn't Kai hit Tyson? Tyson isn't worth it. I swear you will like the last chapter...evil grin if you have any ideas please give them within two weeks as that will be the end of this fic. I don't mind changing bits though if you have a suggestion.

Just that good: Call me slightly dramatic, I don't know it just comes out that way. thank you for the compliment.

Celestial-Dragon-Demon: Thank you, I'm glad you like my writing style, when I re-read what I have written I keep thinking the descriptions are too long, but if that is what people like I will keep doing it.

"Talking"

"Thinking"

"Mystery voice"

Semi-consciousness

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"Where are you? I have searched so far but I cannot find you. do you still want me to find you?"

"I'm waiting."

"I have not given up hope."

"I know."

"Will you guide me?"

"Always."

"I will find you."

"I know."

" Where are you?"

" I'm hiding."

"From what? I will protect you."

"You cant."

"I will. I'll protect from the world if I have to."

"Can you protect me from yourself?"

Kai sat up, his body once again bathed in sweat. He had that nightmare again, but it had been worse. Usually he wouldn't make it to Ray and Jaco would stab him, Kai would end up holding Ray as he died, but this nightmare had disturbed him, in ways he didn't wish to encounter. This time it hadn't been Jaco holding the knife that would be plunged into Ray. The one who would hold the blade that would stop Ray's gentle heart from beating was the last person he ever imagined.

It was him.

"I resented being thrown in with a bunch of No Talents."

Kai frowned. Why was he thinking about this now? Why would something he said how long ago be of any use now?

" To become the Best one must Defeat the Best."

Kai felt as if he had just had ice cold water thrown on him. He had said those words to the team after he had joined the Demolition Boys, he had said those words to Ray. That had been his two days in disgrace, as Tyson had put it.' Pathetic garbage disposer.' He had to grin at that thought, the grin disappeared as he remembered the arguement they had.

What Tyson had said was unforgiveable, Kai could never and would never forget it. Tyson had broken the bridge, and Kai wasn't about to waste precious time rebuilding it. Tyson wasn't important, his missing Kitten was. He felt anger well up.' That arrogant son of a...a...I can't even think of a good enough insult for him. How could he think Ray would ever find him even remotely appealing, but then again, how would I know?' Kai felt his anger die a quick death as dread filled its vacant space. What if Ray did have some feelings for Tyson? What if Ray mistook deep affection for Love? The thought was painful even if it was unfounded.

" I always... wanted you... to do that,... I just...I just thought you didn't ...like me... in that way... I ...like you a lot... Kai."

Kai couldn't help but grin as he heard Ray's voice fill his mind, he had been so nervous when he had said that.' It was after our first kiss.' Ray had trusted him, he had trusted him enough to fall asleep and keep him safe. Kai would never tell Ray he knew about that slip up, he knew Ray always waited for all of them to fall asleep first and he would wake before anyone, even Kai. Kai wasn't as dense as the rest of them, he had seen the hidden significance of this. Ray hadn't truly trusted them, he was their friend and he trusted them in Beybattles and others such things, when he was awake, but other things did not fall in this category. Like protecting him while he slept. Thinking along that line though, how did Kai know Ray had been sleeping. The Chinese boy had fooled them in the past what stopped him from doing it now?

Kai felt, for the first time in his life, true doubt. Not in himself as a person but his ability to read those around him. Could it be possible that Ray was lying to him, could this whole thing be a joke, a game. The Chinese boy was known to be very playful, Ray readily admitted he was the culprit of many elaborate and often times embarrasing practical jokes on the various members of their team. Kai shook his head. No, Ray may be playful and cheeky but he was not cruel. He didn't go out of his way to hurt others.

" You want Ray for yourself, you can't stand the fact that maybe others care about him. Maybe the only reason Ray liked you is because he thought you were the only one who felt that way about him, heavens knows he can't like you for anything else."

Kai growled, he didn't need this, not now. Ray felt as deeply for him as he felt for Ray.

" ...Ray...can't stand ... ..you ..."

"Stop it!" Kai screamed, it was a lie. Tyson was stupid, a fool, nothing more. But what if he was right, what if Kai had somehow driven Ray away. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean too." He found his voice choked and soft, a stark contrast to the usual deep and commanding boom he had cultured over the years. " What did I do wrong?'

"Why cant you trust us Kai? Why don't you trust me?"

"Stop it. Enough!" Kai covered his ears, he didn't want to hear this. He didn't want to hear the pain and betrayal that was laced in Ray's voice. He had little time to recover when the familiar and hated voice of his Grandfather filled his mind.

"He's gone Kai, and it's all your fault. You chased him away."

"No, I never meant to." Kai closed his eyes, in his mind he could see a shadow growing closer. That shadow began to shift into a shape. Kai felt his heart both clench in fear and anger as the shadows identity became know to him.

"Black Dranzer." Kai froze at the sound of his own voice, cold and emotionless. It was the same as when he had betrayed the Bladebreakers and joined the Demolition Boys. Black Dranzer advanced and Kai shrunk back, pulling away from the dark and cold aura the demon bird released. He wasn't going to fall prey to his demon again he would fight.

" But why? You are not worth it."

Kai felt what little courage and strength he possesed leave him. His grandfather was right, he wasn't worth the struggle, what would it gain him. What was he of worth? How was he special?

Kai let the creature come closer, he closed his eyes not wanting to see the creatures final descent. The moment before the demonic bird swooped to claim him a voice filled his mind, and with it a sudden burst of warmth.

" Because you saw me for who I was, you saw who I was, who I am and who I will one day be. Even after what happened you still stood by me, still loved me. Even after I tried to kill you."

Kai opened his eyes, he recognised that voice. Ray, he was still with Kai, even now. Warmth flooded through him, this one much more familiar than even the feeling Ray gave him. He grinned.

" Dranzer." He watched in awe as his Bit Beast was revealed in all her glory, outshining, outlasting and outdoing anything the darker phoenix could ever hope to accomplish. She had heard his master and was not about to leave him. He had been saved from this trap, now whe would keep him from it.

Deafening battles cries were trumpeted by the the two phoenix's, but while one was fueled by the ever shrinking Darkness of it's brief and former master the other glowed with the renewed and expanding fires, passion, love, courage, all that made Kai who he was. The steely resolve, passionate devotion to anything he held dear, forward blading style, the introvert in public, the tentative lover. All was rolled into one and helped to fuel the phoenix's flames. Kai had to admit, she had never looked so beautiful. Black Dranzer stood no chance and faded into the darkness, which Kai hoped would be the last time. Dranzer gave her master a tender look and disappeared.

"Kai, Kai wake up."

Someone had said that before, but the voice now was different.

"Kai, Kai wake up."

He struggled to follow the order given.

"Hurry!"

He jolted awake, Ray had never said that with such urgency.

ZING

Kai's eyes widened considerably when they fell upon a familiar blade.He grimaced as the owners name left his lips.

"Kenji."

The wolf weilder revealed himself. He had a very wolfish grin on his face1. "Hello, it seems you've gone and gotten yourself lost, my my. What will you do." He placed a finger on his chin, feigning thoughtfullness." Ah, I know. Lets Beybattle." Kai growled and pulled his blade out. He placed it in his launcher when he looked at the bit, or rather where his bit should be. Kenji grinned." Lost something." Kai growled and launched his blade, as did Kenji.

Kai stood no chance against the massive Bitbeast, Kai was good, great, but this was Kenji's home turf and he had no bitbeast, and he was feeling really tired. Kai grimaced as his beyblade was sent crashing into a tree, where it stuck. Kenji grinned. " Looks like I win." He advanced on Kai, his blade driving the Russian back, Kai felt a sinking feeling in his stomach. Something was wrong. Kenji chuckled." Say Hi to your scrawny dead cat."

Before Kai could retort to the insult against Ray the blade that housed the Mountain Wolf came flying at him, he ahd no time to move, or even think as the blade smashed into the ground he was currently standing on. The ground shifted and Kai felt himself falling back.

" No."

How many times had he said that, that word, how many times had it helped him. Never, all he could think about now as he was thrown into open air was how he was going to find Ray now. That thought was dashed along with his body as it connected with the sharp rocks below.

Black took over his vision, pain gave way to numbness as awareness shifted to unconciousness. The last thing Kai saw as he passed out was the blue blade and a bit fall beside him.

Semi-consciousness

Kai saw a pair of feet in black shoes...he was in the air again...pain...darkness...find Ray...

"Sleep."

Find Ray

"Sleep."

It faded, with it went his mind.

F...i...n...d...R...a...y...

tbc

Wow, that was...different. We're coming to the end of this fic and of the Journeys Duo. I'm so sad...I'm going to cry now. Night Night.

1: excuse the pun...I couldn't help it, how do describe that kinda look.