Tohru switched on her bedroom light. She took a couple of minute, looking around her pink theme bedroom. Her eyes went to the lovely white bed Shigure bought for after a week she stayed in the house. Suddenly, her eyes caught on a photo beside her bed. She walked slowly towards it and took the photo to her hands. It was the picture of her mom, with a happy smile carved on her face.
"Mom, am I doing the right thing? Am taking the right decision?" she asked herself.
Tohru… If you truly love someone, then it is normal that you would do anything for him. Mom loves Tohru's dad so much. That's why I am not regretting for having to leave the lifestyle that I used to live on. It is just because of love. You don't need other reason to sacrifice for the person you love. Mom also love Tohru so much. That's why… I am so glad to have you with me although I have to bring you up all alone without dad. One day, you will find somebody that you hold dearly. And for his happiness, you would do anything for him. Even sacrificing your own happiness. Because his happiness is your happiness.
She remembered it all clearly. Her mother's words of wisdom, that is. She smiled and placed the photo back to where it belongs. Thank you mom. I understand it now.
Then, she headed to the dressing table. She reached for the top drawer and opened it. She took out the pink diary that has been loyal to her all this time. She unlocked it with the key-shaped pendant of her necklace. The necklace and the pendant was her mother's, the only possession of her mother she has besides the photo that would remind her of her great mother.
She turned over the pages one by one. Her eyes suddenly caught on the white fragranced page which had her writings on it.
14th Sept. 2003
Mom, remember how I used to tell you that I always wanted to be a cat? Well, now… I am still not a cat. But, I get to be with the cat.
Dear Diary,
It was under that starry bright sky that he confessed to me. It wasn't romantic at all, trust me. Instead, he was mad at me for not listening to him, although I did. It just that… I couldn't believe my ears. I couldn't believe that Kyo-kun… loves me. I must be the luckiest girl in the world for having to be loved by such a great guy. I swear, I could still feel the tenderness of the kiss that he laid on my lips. I could still feel the warmth of his body when he wrapped me in his arms… that was before he puffed into a cat, of course.
And… Witnessed by the moon and stars, I too, pledge my love to him.
It has been 3 weeks already that Kyo hasn't talked to her. And it has been 3 weeks also that she had been trying to talk to him. But, all her efforts were in vain. And to think that she only has one week left…
She let out a long cry. She fell to her feet. She couldn't help it anymore. It was killing her inside already. The feeling of sorrow has been getting into her.
Yuki saw these all clearly from her bedroom door. Why…? What has he done to you to make you cry this much?
"Honda-san…"
"Ah, Yuki-kun." Tohru quickly wiped away the tears that had been streaming down with both her hands, trying to hide it from Yuki.
"Cry all you want. There's no need to hide it." Yuki looked out the window up to the sky. The sky was grey. He could see spots of dark clouds around it. Could it be that the sky is also mourning for her?
"I'm sorry for having you to see me like this." Tohru sniffed. Yuki approached her slowly from the window. His left hand held her chin up, while the other went to her cheeks. He wiped the remaining tears off her cheeks with his fingers. Then, he looked deep into her eyes, but her eyes ran away from his.
"Please, Yuki-kun…"
"Ah, I'm sorry. So sorry." Yuki stood up and walked away from her, returning to his position by the window.
"Yuki-kun… Although I have my memories of the Sohma family being erased, please continue being my friend." She smiled.
"Huh?" He was surprised and… frustrated. Friends? He thought of trying it all over again after this. To win her heart, that is. But even after she has her memories erased, she will only still consider him as a friend?
He let out a sigh. He understand it all clearly now. Even if he managed to force her to accept him, he still wouldn't succeed to force her to love him as she always loves Kyo. He saw it all clearly in front of his eyes. The power of true love, that is. Kyo was the one and only for her. Forever.
Sacrifice, huh? Well then, I'm sacrificing my love to you. I'll let you go… because I love you.
"It sounds nostalgic, isn't it? I've said this before to you, remember? But at that time, Akito agreed not to have my memories erased. Well, I guess I will really have my memories erased this time, huh?" She tried to force a giggle, but it sounded dry.
Yuki gazed at her. But, he couldn't manage to say anything. He was out of words to lighten her up, even to say to himself.