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Yay! Chapter twenty! I've been looking forward to this chapter for a long time. It's not the chapter you might be thinking it is, but it was really fun to write. Enjoy!

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They should not make sequels so movies like 'The Ring'. Sequels to horror movies ruin everything. They're just making a sequel because The Ring was so popular and they know they'll make a lot of money off of a sequel to it. It will completely destroy the first movie, and I didn't like it that much in the first place. I don't like the concept of someone coming out of my TV.

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Back in her room, Raven sighed and sat down on her bed, crossing her legs and staring out the window, a mess of jumbled thoughts running through her mind. She really wished she had even some faint idea of what to do about this. Her love for Beast Boy was just downright unnatural. Love was not something she was supposed to experience. And yet love was what had been ruling her actions all day. She sighed. When she had woken up that morning, she had noticed that her cloak was a bit lighter blue than normal. It had been slowly and steadily paling all day. There was really only one place to turn, and it was the last place she felt like going.

Raven reached sideways and grabbed the small, decorative hand mirror that sat on the table beside her bed. Staring into it for a moment, she concentrated, and became aware of the strange sensation coming over her body as she was pulled forward through the glass.

Raven landed on her feet, looking around at the dark landscape. The dead, black trees loomed around her and the red-eyed ravens sitting in their branches cawed at her with disapproval. She ignored them and started forward, very aware of another presence. She turned wearily as a flash of pink and black assaulted her.

"Hi Raven!" the violet-haired girl said cheerfully. Raven sighed loudly.

"Hello, Joy. Where are the others?" Raven asked. Joy sighed.

"I thought you just wanted to talk to me!" the pink-cloaked girl said, shrugging.

"No such luck," Raven told her as other Ravens in assorted colors of cloaks appeared seemingly out of nowhere around them. Raven glanced around at her Emotions in distaste. She had never liked many of them. Most of them were a distinct pain in the ass.

"You haven't been here in a while!" Booya said, punching Raven in the arm. "Where have you been?"

"She doesn't like us," gray-cloaked Timid said, lowering her eyes to the ground. Raven ignored her.

"I've been busy," Raven said.

"It's been chaos in here," said Envy gleefully, twirling her green cloak.

"Yes. You really need to stop bottling things up," Wisdom told Raven knowingly.

"Whatever. I came to sort things out," Raven said.

"About time," Impatience said, crossing her arms.

"I'm sure she's been busy," said Empathy, patting Raven on the shoulder.

"Can you guys please be quiet for a minute. I wanted to know…has there been anyone…new around here?" Raven asked.

"Yeah!" Joy said happily as the 'new' Emotion stepped forward. The girl's cloak was a pale blue, like a watered-down version of Raven's, and her cheeks were a healthy, blushing pink rather than Raven's usual gray. Raven knew immediately who this new Emotion was.

"And let me guess, you're Love?" Raven asked, glaring shamelessly at the girl that was the root of all her problems.

"How did you guess?" Love asked, batting her eyelashes. Raven felt sick to her stomach.

"Oh, I don't know," she said dryly. She stood still for a moment, and then grabbed Love by the front of her leotard, lifting her a foot off the ground. "Well, you're my loving side, so you tell me! Why do I love Beast Boy?"

Love reacted calmly to Raven's outburst. "I don't know. You're the one who loves him," Love told her serenely. Raven dropped Love (who landed on her feet), and covered her face with her hands. Empathy patted her on the shoulder but Raven ignored her.

"What am I supposed to do?" Raven asked helplessly. "I don't know what to do. What if my powers go out of control and I kill him?"

"Come on, remember what Starfire said. Love isn't violent. You've loved him for a while now, and nothing has happened. I think it's OK for you to love!" said Love comfortingly.

"I think you should tell him!" chirped Joy, clapping her hands together. "And then you can be happy!"

"I'm never going to be happy," Raven said, blinking back tears. "It's pointless to tell him. He'll never feel the same about me, and even if he does, something is going to go wrong."

"C'mon, you don't know that! Give it a shot!" Courage told her with a slap on the back.

"Yeah, and besides, did you ever notice that he's kissed you? More than once? Come on, tell me that doesn't signify some kind of attraction," Booya said.

"Shut up. That doesn't mean anything," Raven hissed.

"Yes it does. And I'm your emotion. You must believe that he likes you somewhere if I can think so," Booya said.

"Well, I don't. Leave me the fuck alone," Raven snapped. Timid burst into tears. Empathy hugged the sobbing Emotion.

"Sure, whatever," said Sly deviously.

"For being my own emotions, you sure aren't much help," Raven grumbled. "You're the one who's causing all of this, Love. Now I want you to tell me why. Beast Boy and I have hardly anything in common. We are complete polar opposites. He annoyed the hell out of me until very recently. So why do you love him? What do you see in him?"

"You mean why do you love him? Oh, I don't know. Maybe because he's sweet and lovable and he very obviously cares about you. And he understands you. It's not very often you meet someone who understands you," Love said.

"How could you possibly think he understands me? You know perfectly well that no one could ever understand me," Raven said, getting increasingly irritated.

"You both understand pain and loss and betrayal. You both are forced to hide who you really are. And you are both completely and undisputedly alone," Wisdom answered for Love. "And without each other, you always will be."

"Maybe I always will be, but he won't. He's Beast Boy. He'll find someone else eventually and be happy, whereas I will always be alone. I could never make him happy," Raven argued.

"Yes you could. You know how much trouble he has with trust since Terra's betrayal. I can't really see him letting anyone else in that easily," Sly challenged.

"Stop it!" Raven yelled, clutching her scalp with her fingernails. She felt blood escaping from the gouges they made. "I could never make him happy! He could never love me and he would never want to be with me! Just shut up!"

Raven landed on her bedroom floor breathing heavily with frustration. She gave a strangled scream, breathed deeply several times, and let go of her scalp. She put the mirror back in its place rather roughly and climbed onto her bed, sitting cross-legged and trying to regain her balance. "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos," she chanted violently, squeezing her eyes shut. "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos."

There was a knock on the door. Several books turned black and flew out of Raven's bookshelf and onto the floor. She gritted her teeth. "Come in," she hissed.

The door slid open and Starfire poked her head cautiously into the room. "Friend Raven, I have heard screaming. Are you alright?"

"Yes, Starfire, I'm fine," Raven answered through clenched teeth. Starfire moved slowly into the room and walked over to sit beside Raven on the bed.

"I am feeling that this is not true, Raven. You are only saying you are fine so I will go away and you may stew in your feelings of badness. It helps to talk about the things that are bothering you."

Raven sighed. "Well maybe I don't want to talk about it," she said, getting a bit hostile. Starfire was distressed, but stood her ground.

"Raven, I do not wish for you to be alone in your unhappiness. Please, allow me to share in your unpleasant feelings. I am here to listen."

Raven sighed loudly. "Sometimes I wonder why I don't just kill you," she said. "But OK, if you want to know that badly, I'm unhappy because I'm in love with Beast Boy."

" Friend Raven, this should be no cause for unhappiness. Love is splendid," Starfire said convincingly.

"Yes, you're right. It is…'splendid'. But the only problem is that I can't tell him how I feel."

"Why can you not tell him?" Starfire asked.

"Because he will never feel the same way about me. It's pointless to tell him when it will only result in my inevitable disappointment," Raven explained.

"I am sorry I must say this, Raven, but I am tiring of your gloominess. You will never know how Beast Boy feels without asking. You have no way of knowing what is happening in his heart. You are afraid to tell him that you are in love with him because you are afraid of the reality of knowing that someone loves you. It frightens you to have someone have such tremendous feelings for you, and so you are only hiding behind excuses. You will not just do what would make your own heart happy because you are stubborn and afraid of what might happen if he tells you he feels the same way," Starfire said. Raven was staring at her wide-eyed.

"How can you think for even a second that you know my motivations for keeping my feelings from him? Why would you even consider that you know me well enough to make judgments on the way my mind works?" Raven said, voice getting louder with every word, eye glowing red. A cup that was sitting on the table beside her bed exploded into a thousand tiny fragments and flew in all directions, splashing water onto the floor. Starfire looked alarmed.

"Raven, control yourself!" she said harshly. Raven stopped, her eyes slowly fading back to normal.

"I'm…sorry," she said quietly, looking away.

"Raven?" Starfire asked softly after a few moments of silence. Raven just looked at her. "What I said was true, wasn't it? That is why you became so angry."

Raven nodded wordlessly. "I didn't even realize it until you pointed it out. And so I…I don't know. I guess I got angry because you knew how pathetic I was."

"It is not pathetic, Friend. It is merely human," Starfire said.

"I'm a demon. I'm not human," Raven said, staring blankly ahead.

"And neither am I. But that does not mean we do not make the same mistakes and have the same flaws as humans do," Starfire said comfortingly, patting Raven's shoulder.

"Thank you Starfire. Now, do you think I could be alone for a while?" Raven asked.

"Certainly Friend Raven," Starfire said. When she reached the door, she turned around. "If I were you, I would not lose faith in things with Beast Boy," she said.

"Why? What are you talking about?" Raven asked. Starfire didn't answer. She only gave an unnaturally giddy smile and left, the door closing behind her. Raven shrugged and returned to her meditation.

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I'll get the next chapter up soon.