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Yay! Chapter twenty-seven! I'm sorry, but in regards to the lemon, it's not going to happen. First of all, I have no firsthand experience so it would be unrealistic, and second of all it's against my values, because I think teenagers who have sex are being extremely irresponsible and stupid. So, BB and Rae get a little more intimate than they have so far, but they don't fuck. Sorry to those of you who wanted the lemon. I read lemons, but I can't write them.

Big thanks to The Halfa Wannabe for giving me an idea for this chapter. The whole concept of fear in Beast Boy really seems to fit. Thanks so much!

This chapter has another damn dream sequence in it, but it's ok. This one is different.

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"That was humiliating," Beast Boy said with a sigh.

"It wasn't as bad as mine," Raven reminded him. "I had all four of you gang up on me because we didn't come up with the tradition until I was already on the team. Robin too. You should just feel lucky you only had three against you."

"Yeah, I guess you're right," Beast Boy said. They were walking down the hallway toward their rooms. It was nearly midnight, and the only thing that had been going on for the last hour and a half was throwing pizza around the living room. Beast Boy was surprised that Robin had allowed them to be so immature. It was strange. As time went by, the five of them seemed to be letting go of seriousness and dignity more and more instead of maturing. He wondered if this was normal.

The two of them reached the door to Raven's room and stopped.

"Well…I'll see you tomorrow," Beast Boy said. He felt a little uneasy about leaving her after the horrible feeling almost losing her had produced earlier. He couldn't stay with her for every moment, though, and he knew it.

Raven smiled. "Goodnight," she said softly, kissing him on the cheek. She turned to leave.

"Raven?" Beast Boy asked. She turned back to him.

"Yes?"

"I'm really glad you're OK," Beast Boy said quietly, brushing a strand of hair out of Raven's face.

"So am I, Beast Boy. I would miss you," she answered.

"I would miss you too." he stepped forward and kissed the smiling telekinetic briefly before stepping back and allowing her to depart. The door to her bedroom slid open.

"Goodnight, Beast Boy," she said as she stepped though the door. "I love you."

"Love you too," Beast Boy answered before the door slid shut. He turned and headed for his own room. As he walked along, he started to think.

Beast Boy was extremely glad that Raven had found him when she did. If he had died, he realized then that he would never have gotten the chance to really live. He could have died and left behind everything that might have been, everything that he had now, everything that he cared about. The thought scared him slightly. The feeling of uncertainty that he had experienced as he dragged that blade across his wrists returned to him. He felt stupid for ever attempting it. Looking back, he realized that he had been much more selfish and ignorant than he was now just a short time ago. He was glad that he had realized that he had things to live for before he attempted that again.

When he reached his room, he stripped down to his magenta boxers and hopped into bed. After such a long day, he was completely drained. He closed his eyes and despite his unfounded worry about Raven, sleep came rushing in to carry him away on its wings of darkness.

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Beast Boy was aware immediately of where he was. It was obvious. The landscape was covered in dull white snow, but the air was warm. The dead trees were dark and threatening, rising up out of the powdery snow like goosebumps on naked skin. He started forward, not exactly sure where he was supposed to be going. He just couldn't bring himself to stop. He walked on across a lonely terrain for a few steady minutes, and then became aware of something before him. At first, it didn't quite register in his mind, and then he became fully aware of what this thing was. It was a large patch of red soaked into the snow, melting parts of it and staining the soil beneath crimson. Blood. Terra's blood.

Beast Boy sank to his knees in the snow before the scarlet patch, old feelings resurfacing…things he hadn't thought about in a while. All the old feelings of hopelessness over the death of a friend. As he sat there, he realized that the snow all around was melting rapidly. The soil was drenched in the moisture, and everywhere over the blank landscape, grass began poking through the soil, growing and forming an emerald carpet. The dead trees sprouted soft green leaves, and all around him wildflowers grew up at a visible pace up through the grass and bloomed, filling the air with a warm, hazy scent. The turbulent gray sky above slowly changed, the clouds dissolving and leaving nothing but a clear azure expanse high above with the occasional fluffy white cloud floating unthreateningly in the sea of blue. The sun appeared and shone down cheerfully on what had once been a harsh world.

Beast Boy looked around at the changed area, realizing that a hopelessly happy feeling was taking over him without his control. He inhaled the scent in the air and realized that he was picking up a human scent as well. He was slightly alarmed.

"Hey, Beast Boy," said a voice behind him. He turned around and was completely shocked out of his mind to see the young blonde earth-mover standing a few feet behind him with a smile on her face.

"Terra?" he asked, surprised.

"Yep," she answered.

"But I thought you were….." he trailed off, unable to finish his sentence.

"Dead?" Terra asked. "When someone is really our friend, and when we refuse to forget them…they're never really gone."

Beast Boy smiled. "Thanks, Terra."

"I saw what happened. You shouldn't have tried to kill yourself, Beast Boy. It wouldn't solve anything," she said, looking slightly distressed.

"I know that now. I've changed since then. I would never try that again," Beast Boy assured her.

"I know you've changed. I've seen everything. And about Raven….she really loves you, BB. Try to remember that even if times get rough. I'm not one to say, but my bet is she could never stop loving you."

"So…you don't mind?" Beast Boy asked. "I felt sort of guilty…you being dead and everything and moving on felt sort of selfish."

"Of course I don't mind. You're my best friend, Beast Boy. And moving on is never selfish. Not letting yourself move on is what's selfish. It makes the person who you refuse to let go hurt seeing you that way. I'm glad you could move on. You've got to let go sometime, right? You can move on without forgetting someone. All you have to remember is that you never really lose a friend. Even if they die physically, they'll always be there in your heart. Friendship is something that never really dies."

Beast Boy nodded slowly. "I think I'm moving on OK. If it wasn't for Raven…I don't think I would have been able to get past it."

"You guys have something really special, huh?"

"I hope so," Beast Boy said.

"BB…I'm sorry I never…you know…let you in. It wasn't that I didn't like you…it's just that I have trouble with that sort of thing and-"

"Don't sweat it man, it's OK," Beast Boy said.

"And I'm also sorry that I betrayed you guys. I know I've said it before, but I really am sorry. I still don't know…why I did it. It was wrong and it was stupid, and I never should have even let myself think that Slade could help me. I should never have stooped to that level just to get control…to find somewhere I belonged. I just ended up making it worse. You guys were the only ones who could have helped me…and I didn't see that. Instead, I had to turn to Slade. I had to listen to his bullshit. I hate myself for hurting you. When I got brought back after being a rock…I tried to make it up to all of you the best I could, but I didn't do very well," Terra said.

"You were our friend. That's the best you could do to make up for it, and you did it. Consider it forgotten, OK?" Beast Boy asked, grinning.

"I guess," Terra said uncertainly.

"No, don't guess. Know."

"OK," Terra said. "So…we're still friends?"

"Of course. We always were," Beast Boy said.

Terra smiled. "Good. At least my conscience is clear."

"Yeah," Beast Boy said. "You'll sleep easier now, right?" he said, smiling. He felt content in talking to someone he had lost again. All his doubts about her being OK wherever she was were gone. Actually seeing her there made him feel better about her death than he ever had before.

"Beast Boy?" asked a voice. He turned around, and saw Raven standing near him.

"Hi Raven," he said, beaming at her.

"Hi," Raven said quietly with a small smile at him.

"Um…hi," Terra said nervously. Beast Boy was surprised when Raven smiled.

"Hello, Terra. Thank you for letting Beast Boy know it was alright," she said.

"Uh…no problem?" Terra said.

Raven nodded at her. "It's time to go, Beast Boy," she said gently. Beast Boy nodded.

"Bye Terra," he said.

"See ya soon, BB. If you ever need me, I'll be right here." she grinned. "Remember, I'm not really gone. I never was. I've been with you all along," Terra said.

"Thanks again, Terra," Beast Boy said.

"Yeah. Um…bye Raven."

Raven nodded at her with a slight smile. "Now, let's get you home, Beast Boy," she said. Beast Boy nodded, giving Terra one last wave. Raven took his arm gently in hers, and suddenly the landscape was spinning…he was plummeting forward…losing his footing…

Beast Boy sat up, looking around. He was in his own dark bedroom. Raven was sitting over him, still holding onto his arm. She let go and sat back a little.

"What…what was that?" Beast Boy asked. Had Raven really come to retrieve him from his dream, or was this simply a coincidence? "Was that a dream, or…"

"In a way yes, but it was also not. Your subconscious was transported to an alternate reality…I'm guessing that's how all of the dreams you've had about this have been. They really happened, but they didn't affect true reality. Terra got the chance to talk to you again, but I had to come and wake you up. I was starting to worry," Raven said, smiling gently at him. "After what happened last time."

Beast Boy made to sit up, but Raven put a hand on his chest and held him back, lying down beside him instead. She nestled against him and her lips found his in the darkness.

Beast Boy kissed her back, happy to be with her again. He trailed his fingers absentmindedly across her cheek. When the kiss ended, he kissed her hair several times, inhaling her scent deeply, and then rested his forehead against hers.

"Goodnight, Raven," he said quietly.

"Goodnight, Beast Boy," came her whisper tenderly out of the dark. Beast Boy smiled contentedly, closing his eyes and wrapping his arms around her warm body.

"Beast Boy?" Raven asked a few minutes later, seemingly out of nowhere.

"Yeah?"

"Nice underwear," Raven answered, laughing softly. Beast Boy looked and realized that he was wearing nothing but his boxers, and blushed furiously.

"Oh…uh…sorry," he said.

"That's OK," Raven said, chuckling slightly again. "You don't need to be embarrassed. Here, I'll make it even." with that, she sat up and before Beast Boy could say a word, she slipped out of her leotard and placed it off to the side, adjusting her black bra slightly and then lying back down beside him. "There," she said with a smile.

Beast Boy was unable to speak for a moment, struck by the fact that Raven Roth was in her underwear. He just stared at her for a moment.

"R-Raven," he stammered after a few seconds. "What are you doing?"

"What do you think I'm doing?" she asked innocently, moving closer to him so they were only inches apart and caressing his chest lightly. There was a slightly mischievous look in her eyes.

"Raven, do you really think we should be…I mean…do you think this is a good idea? Do you really think we're ready for…you know…" he stammered. Despite the fact that he loved her beyond comprehension, he felt a bit hesitant. Thoughts chased each other around his head at light speed. He was fifteen years old. Was he ready for this? Was he being a wimp? Was it supposed to be the girl who had the values? Was Raven going to think he was spineless?

He was interrupted by Raven's soft laugh as she caressed his cheek gently.

"Beast Boy, I'm not asking you to go all the way with me," she said soothingly. "It's OK. You can calm down. I just want to get a little closer to you, if you know what I mean. That's all. I'm not going to get naked or anything." Beast Boy had never heard anyone sound so reassuring. He felt relief flood through his veins.

"OK. Good. I was kinda freaked out for a minute there," he said with a small laugh.

"I noticed," Raven said with a smile. "It's OK. I'd never make you do anything you didn't want to do."

"I know," Beast Boy told her. She came a bit closer to him, enclosing her arms loosely around his neck. His arms slid around her waist, his hands caressing the smooth skin of her back. Raven gently ran her fingers through his hair. Beast Boy moved forward slightly and kissed her. Raven returned his kiss, slipping her tongue into his mouth. Beast Boy's hands rubbed her bare back gently, the smooth, supple skin warm to the touch. She ran her tongue around the most sensitive places in his mouth, entwining her legs with his as she did so. The animal side of him took over for a moment and he gave a slight growl of desire into her mouth. Slightly embarrassed, he ended the kiss and traced her jaw line with small kisses, working his way down to her neck with longer, more heated kisses, kissing her desperately . Raven clutched him tightly as though he was her only anchor to reality.

He worked his way down Raven's throat, kissing the pale, sensitive skin gently as he went. He lowered his head and continued his progression of kisses, finally reaching the skin usually concealed by her leotard. Raven jumped slightly at first and it was a wonder nothing exploded. She gasped lightly at the feeling of his lips against the vulnerable skin of her chest. Beast Boy went down to the top of her bra, and then stopped and returned the kiss to her lips, worried that he was making her uncomfortable. Raven kissed him back passionately, and then broke the kiss, kissing his shoulder and allowing her tongue to dart along his collarbone, moving down to his chest. She covered his chest with a series of quick kisses, though moving agonizingly slowly, making him wait in between. Then she broke away and sat up. He sat up also, and she kissed him again, mouth opening immediately. Beast Boy luxuriated in the taste and sensation of her. She brushed her tongue playfully against his and made him chase it.

Eventually they broke apart for breath, and Beast Boy kissed Raven's forehead lightly, placing a hand in the small of her back to support her and trailing kisses down her face and neck, down her chest and over the material of her bra, down her stomach, down over her underwear and back up again. Raven was breathing as heavily as he was. She gave a light moan and brushed her hand lightly over the crotch of his boxers, against his throbbing erection. Beast Boy rested his cheek on the top of her head, trying to deny how badly he wanted her, how badly he wanted to rip away the barriers of clothing that separated her from him and let whatever might happen happen. Raven's hand returned to his crotch, rubbing his erection lightly through the material of his boxers. Beast Boy moaned softly. She was killing him.

"Oh, God Raven," he muttered in exasperation, sliding his hand down her back to rest on her ass for a moment before he came to his senses and pulled it back. Fighting desire was the hardest thing he had ever been forced to do in his life. Raven put one finger inside the elastic of his boxers and slowly began to pull them downward, but then drew her hand back quickly, placing it on his cheek and looking him in the eyes.

"We already agreed that we aren't ready for this, didn't we?" she said thoughtfully.

"Yeah," Beast Boy said, confirming this with a nod.

Raven looked longingly into his eyes. "Then why do I want you so badly?"

"I don't know. You're not the only one who wants it right now," Beast Boy admitted sheepishly.

"But we need to stick to our morals," Raven said, her normal manner coming over her once more. Beast Boy nodded. There was a moment of silence, and then Raven tackled him. He shrieked in surprise as the two went tumbling backward onto the bed. Raven smiled down at him, suppressing laughter at his shock. She kissed him gently. "I love you," she said softly, rolling off of him and lying down beside him.

"I love you too," Beast Boy said, pulling the blanket over both of them and closing his eyes.

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Yay! More soon. Sorry if that was a lame substitute for a lemon.