Sunstreaker's P.O.V.
"Sunstreaker, do you think we could get Jamie and her guardians to join us for a beach day?" Lily asks. I can tell she thinks I'll yell at her for asking. I hate how after three years, she's still sometimes afraid to talk to me.
"I doubt it. She's not doing good."
Lily sighs, frustrated, "I still can't believe what she dealt with and whatever she dealt with the past six months has hurt her."
I don't know if Lily's understanding of the situation is a good thing. Even if I don't have to answer a bunch of questions. Maybe if she didn't understand, then she wouldn't be this worried, but then she could also be an aft towards Jamie.
Sunstreaker: hey, Lily wants you four to join us for a beach day Saturday. I already told her unlikely.
Drift: unfortunately. I can't force her. You know how bad that'll be.
Sunstreaker: and we know waiting until she wants to do anything isn't good. We'll see how Jamie is doing Friday. Hopefully, we'll be more encouraging than forcing. Plan B; video games or watch T.V. in the lounge room.
Drift: ok...
I hate how uncertain he is, but it's hard to be positive while watching the one you love hurt.
Even as Jamie's friend, it hurts watching her struggle like this and there's nothing I can do to help her or her guardians. I don't think art will help her, whether it's a piece I do for her or getting her to do an art project with me.
Even though I just texted Drift, I'm hoping I can see Jamie.

I hate the look in Jamie's eyes. The look of giving up while her guardians have the look of uncertainty. Jamie doesn't avoid my hug as I tell her Sideswipe, Lily and I want to spend time with her. I tell her Lily wants her to go to the beach with us, aware I wouldn't get an answer. Even knowing this, I let her know I miss doing art with her. Jamie says nothing. Slowly a feeling of not wanting to let her go develops. I'm not sure if I'd be allowed to check on Jamie daily until she's ready to do anything with me, Sideswipe and Lily.

"What happened?" Sideswipe asks.
"I can't believe how depressed she is. Even after what she did in December."
"Well, when she's feeling like she can't have what she wants," Sideswipe sighs, "I just hope she's not thinking Drift isn't liking the idea."
"I fear her mindset isn't in a good place for him to talk to her. I have a feeling there's no support at home. I doubt her guardians will tell us. Remember, we're not even supposed to know this secret."
"Not like there's much we can do. Everyone could tell the couple how they'd love to have a baby around the base, but some problems need to be worked on, and if she doesn't have support back home. Seriously, what the frag happened in her dimension?!" Sideswipe rages.

Drift's P.O.V.
"I don't know what to do. I feel like we're just keeping her safe and alive," I tell Crosshairs, with tears rolling down my face.
I know Crosshairs doesn't have the answers either. He sits on the bed and hugs me. The room is silent and we soon hear Jamie's snoring. Crosshairs thinks it's a clue that she's having a good dream. We haven't researched to confirm this, but there are no signs she's having a nightmare. I do worry she'll start having nightmares of us abandoning her, or those dreams that you just hate aren't real.
"Have you tried meditating?" Crosshairs asks.
"No, I don't want to leave her alone."
"What? You think I can't handle her?" Crosshairs jokes, "she'll be ok unless you're gone for hours."

Crosshairs' P.O.V.
Drift agrees to try meditating. He looks at Jamie before leaving the room. I worry that meditation will not help him as much as it used to, but I believe he should be relaxed enough to keep nightmares away, and hopefully anxiety attacks. It's only ten in the morning, I doubt Jamie will be awake for another hour or two.

Along with Optimus coming by at around nine in the morning, Lightning comes in by ten even though she's been told she doesn't have to. She's concerned about not seeing Drift.
"He's hopefully meditating," I tell her, "I think it's been a month since he's been able to meditate."
"Damn it, I hate watching the two hurt and there's nothing we can do. Can we even be help her the way we are hoping? Which will get him to not worry so much. I know he'll never stop worrying about her. No one will."
I tell Lightning we may be going to the beach this weekend, but it's uncertain. She knows that annoying fine line between helping and forcing Jamie. Hopefully, at least Plan B is possible, but unfortunately even going to the lounge room with friends might not be possible. Lightning goes to get breakfast from Dunkin' Donuts and leaves the room.
I sigh as I sit on the bed and move Jamie and the blanket on my lap. There's got to be something we can do that doesn't cause her to feel forced to do anything. I tell Drift we shouldn't be thinking about this, but I picture Jamie being pregnant. Unbelievable, she has support here — though there are things we need to work on — at home, Jamie feels like they gave her false support. Right now, this is causing her typical mental health issues to be a lot more of a challenge than usual.

Drift returns twenty minutes later. Meditation is still a no-go. I don't need to ask why. He's struggling not to visualize Jamie crying or dead. I hope he's not visualizing her arguing with him. While his attempt to relax was a bust, he insists I go do something.
I think I'll walk around the base using my bipedal form. There's no argument saying prolonged staying in vehicle mode will weaken our legs, but I should stretch them.

"You picked the wrong time to visit," I tell the red medic, "unless you have been asked here on assignment?"
"No," Knockout sighs, "how is it I always pick the wrong time to request permission to come here? Wait, what's going on?!"
"Jamie is struggling mentally. It's bad."
Knockout looks at me with concern, but says nothing.
I hate telling him that only Optimus and Lightning can see her. Plus Ratchet if he wants to. Knockout and I both wonder why he's been granted permission to come here if he came to see Jamie and can't.
"Have you been overworking yourself?"
"How's a vacation here better if I'm worried about Jamie?"
"You have no work to do, so now you can watch T.V. or something. Believe me, that'll help a little. Hopefully, before you leave, Jamie will do better and you can spend time with her."
I don't feel any better that Knockout doesn't ask why Jamie is struggling this time, especially when normally we don't have to tell everyone to leave her alone. I knew he'd tell me he wants to help Drift and me. I hate having to tell everybot to wait. To hide part of why Jamie is hurting.

I hate the look on Drift's face as I walk into our room and sit on the bed next to him. I'd rather not tell him that Knockout is here and worried, but he'll likely see Knockout eventually.
"Great, just another friend to watch her hurt," Drift sighs.
All I can do is hug him. I still can't get used to seeing him with no hope, but when we don't know how to help our little lady, who can blame him?