Chapter 4: Matter that could change
Like a halos that could captivate a shadow in the darkness, Faye's mind started to twirl around the coldness of the air that envelopes her sanity.
Masculine voices were being heard but it was so soft and very slow.
Mesmerized…
Without any thoughts of anything she already knew that she's over reacting.
"I can't go. Not now." Spike's voice was hard enough for her to hear.
She gasps some air.
'What's the big deal with this?' Faye thought
"You know, maybe it's just me who needs to go Spike." Faye softly said. Spike's father's eye was definitely a killer eye. It could send shivers to anyone it would glare.
She doesn't want to get into any trouble now.
"It's really good to know that you know where you would place yourself young lady."
"No, we'll go out together." Spike demanded.
"What's wrong with you?" Faye took a glimpse to Spike's father and look back at Spike.
"I'll see you next time alright?" Spike was alarmed and all he could do was to let her go.
He sigh, realizing that he's day would feels like hell now.
Julia waited for Faye. Pulling her wrist she warned her, "I honestly don't like you. Stay away from us. You-don't-want-to-get-hurt." She said the last sentence in a consonant way making it harder.
Daggers of eyes compete, but Faye is leading the game. She glared 10 times harder than her that made Julia weak enough to let her go.
When Spike saw that, he decided to ask someone to escort Faye.
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She exited the building and saw that the sky weren't that clear as before. Her mind drifted another imagination. She just thought about that the nature seems to be her portrait. Inwardly and outwardly, it clearly reflects her emotions. The night she met Spike, she was so mad like the thunder that bombs its vicious screams. The day she woke up, she feels so great like the whole view that she witnessed awhile ago. And now… she was confused and pouting like the gray horizon of the sky.
"Is it just a coincidence?" She whispered.
"Hey, Miss Faye?" a tall, familiar guy caught her attention.
Recognizing the man she quickly flashes a smile, "It's you." Shin nodded.
"It is so nice to see you again." Shin returned the beautiful smile to her.
"Yea." She said as she lit her cigar.
"Spike asked me to go with you. My name's Shin."
"Oh really, I mean… he did?" Faye wasn't so surprised about that, she's just over reacting. Well, she's always over reacting. She actually thought that she'll go back home to clean his house and kick her off from his house. But luck always surprises her. The wheel of her fortune was driving her dizzy.
"Yup. So where'd you wanna go?" Shin leads her to his car.
"Anywhere where I could shop..."
Shin smiled formed into his lips again then he opened the door for her.
Faye's nice butt was accidentally seen by Shin. He was amazed with her body.
"Shin, what are you waiting for? Let's go." Faye called.
"Oh, sorry."
He's getting tense. He felt a sudden erection. He had cursed himself for being like that now. It sounds bad.
Well, it is boy's nature.
He join her inside, driving his car Faye opened the window to throw his done cigarette.
"So, how are you related to Spike?" Shin asks her.
"Me?" She wondered… how is she related to him?
"Well, I was staying in his house. I a… used to clean his house, cook for him… something like that." She continued. Shin was a bit puzzled.
"Haha, in short I'm Spike's maid." She added.
'Then why are you two too close that he wants me to escort you and gave me his credit card just to stroll you?'
He actually wants to ask that but he decided not to ask it anyway.
"Oh… I see." He just simply said.
"How about you?" She asked.
"How about me?"
"How are you related to him?"
"Well, I'm his younger brother."
"Oh… I see." She copied his accent and his response together with his face expression a while ago making them both laugh softly.
'Now I know.' He thought.
Finally, they arrived in a Super mall somewhere around the Ganymede.
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Shin started to feel a little tired. Faye would enter each and every boutique. Here, there… and back there, at that corner, in that side, in the other floor from bottom to top and from side to the bottom again. And worst is, she's buying an items in each and every store she'll visit. And he's previously carrying them all.
'Oh I forgot to buy some lotions.'
'I guess we need to go back there. I decided to buy the crimson bag there.'
Her voice started to play around his head.
'Women,' he chuckled when he realized his thought. He used to hear that from his brother, Spike.
Speaking of Spike… how he knew that he's ain't getting across with Julia now.
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And as Shin expected, Spike feels so bad like hell. He's legs were crossed and his chin is resting in the bottom of his palm. His eyes reflect how bored he is.
"Spike, what do you want to eat?" Julia asks her politely.
"I would like everything." Spike shifted his self into a lying position in his sit. Julia wasn't so embarrass now… this is usual anyway.
After a few moments, their orders finally arrived. Lots of foods and menus occupied their whole table. There was the pawn fandango, crispy cinnamon chicken, bake sea foods, wine poached pears, asparagus vinaigrette, monte cristo sandwich, fruited coleslaw, spiced orange salad, Bacon flavoured corn chowder…. And a lot more that Faye would like to eat.
Julia sip from her green mango shake, "Aren't you going to eat?"
"I lost my appetite." Spike simply said.
"Then let's just get out of here and do something else instead."
"Julia, what do you really want from me now?" Spike demanded.
Julia just smiled as Spike waited for her answers… but she didn't dare to respond.
Spike hated it when he would ask something and would not receive any answers.
He stood up from his sit not even leaving any money from the food they had ordered.
"Now where the hell are you going, Spike!" Julia screamed, not even considering the others.
"Spike!" Julia screamed harder, causing a big scandal.
"What are you holding on to?" Spike asks softly not wanting her to hear it… the question is not just for Julia but for the two of them.
"Spike!" Julia shriek once again. But Spike didn't stop walking. He just waved his hands without even looking at her then left.
Julia was about to follow him but the waiter stopped her and asks for the voucher.
Julia lost Spike in sight.
He walks into the crowds. He looks for a convenience store and bought a pack of cigar.
Reaching for his lighter he tried to light his cigar… but his lighter's no longer producing a fire. He clicks it once again but it didn't produce anything. While walking, he passed to someone who's playing a guitar & he was good in playing it. He's playing the acoustic version of Tuck Andress' Manha de Carnaval
'Manha de Carnaval…' Spike thought. He swore to god that he loves that song.
He sat in front of a river as he continued to force his lighter until he finally got tired and throw it away into the water. The water soon swallowed his lighter.
"Whatta very unfortunate day for me." He sighed.
"Not that unfortunate for a lighter." Someone lit his cigar that was sucked into his mouth. Spike smirk, "Thanks… Jet." He already knew who owns that voice. No need to check him out.
"What's up?"
"I'm previously in a wonder. What about you?" Spike tilted his head to Jet who's standing behind him.
"Not much, but I'm previously in a wonder too." Jet sat beside him.
"Yea?" Spike asks.
"Why'd you throw the lighter that Julia gave you?" Jet watches him inhale and exhale the smoke.
He slowly replied, "You know, that lighter's empty. Even if I forced it to produce a fire for lighting my cigar and inhale the smoke to satisfy the smoker it won't produce anything coz it is simply empty."
"Spike…"
Spike lie down in the grass and look up at the sky. He watches them move… it moves slowly, so gentle like the soft feather that were being carried by the air. How he wish he could be that soft. He wished to leave the weight he's carrying.
"I used to be her lighter, Jet. But what am I supposed to do when my heart is already empty. I'm forcing myself to love her but…" Spike sighed.
Jet look at him then focus his attention in the water…
'Time after time, sometimes it could carry everything and leave nothing.' Jet thought.
"I wonder how deep that river is…" Spike opened his eyes and he slowly stood up and takes off his shirt.
Jet eyes widen…
The trees swayed and the busy high way moved faster…
"You are… in love to someone new?" Jet surprisingly asks.
Spike just shrug, ready to jump he grinned and screamed, "Man in the mirror."
In Sparta, when their husbands or sons went to war, they said the following parting words: "Come back with your shield or on it."
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"Hey Shin! Is this one looks good to me?" Faye wore a dress, styled into a black halter. It was extended above her legs.
She looks so sexy. Yea, Shin's really tired now… but Whatta relief to see such a wonderful lady.
"You look really great with that." Shin commented.
"Ok, I'll take this one as the last for today." Faye finally said. The last for today…
"So is there anywhere else you want to go?" Shin asks her.
"Ummm… since were already done eating and shopping why don't we go in a bar!" That made Shin wonder… 'She's not yet tired?'
"You know I'm just kidding… actually I'm too tired now and I just wanted to go home."
Shin flashed a smile; satisfy to what he heard from her. "Alright..."
They headed to Spike's house and while on their way, Shin keeps on stealing a glance over Faye.
"What?" Faye queried.
"No.. nothing." Shin was sweating badly. For a moment he was out of his mind. They were in the middle of the road and about to bump a big track.
"Shin! Look out!" Faye screamed in horror. He quickly turned to left. They almost got killed.
"What's wrong with you?"
"Sorry…" Shin looked down below his stomach.
Faye realized that he's masturbating. Sounds eeew… really! (A/N: I can't even imagine this… but my hands kept on typing!)
"Oh my god." That was all Faye could say. She hasn't encountered some thing like this.
"I'm sorry…" Shin bit his lips and continued driving, heading back to Spike's house.
'Spike wouldn't like this.'
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"Spike!" Jet yelled. He's looking for Spike but he's nowhere in sight. He's still under the water. The river might be so deep.
He's not yet coming back for about 10 minutes. That isn't good. Jet is a bit anxious.
He knows that he won't die, not that easy… But hey! Is he crazy to jump to that fucking river! He's truly abnormal. He heard that this river was so called the river of death.
The words crushed into his mind then he realized… death?
"Shit!" he was about to jump when a sudden bubble formed somewhere in space.
"Spike," Jet started. He saw spike swims towards him.
Spike gasps some air and grinned then nodded, "It's really deep." He looks satisfied and better than before.
"You scared me… I thought you're already drowning to death." He lit his cigar and glared towards his abnormal friend.
"Death? Jet, haven't you reveal it yet? Well, I just found out that the only way you can accept life is to accept death." Spike bended down to reached for his shirt.
"You're truly different. Outwardly are your grins but deep inside of you is a dramatic type of person. You are weird Spike. You are the weirdest man in this jurisdiction world of yours." Jet exhaled the smoke.
"You think so? You know what, my father turned to be my key to unlock the answers I just got now. They have taken him away from us. He's alive but seems to be dead." Spike smiled.
Jet heard a lot enough with Spike's little sentence. The only way you can accept life is to accept death
"But really Spike, I agreed to you. Death will teach us that there is always a limit. Death is just another aspect of our life. It's like parting with the vehicle…"
"I'll take note of that Jet." Spike smiled again.
"Why, are you dying or something?" Jet asks. Spike didn't mind him at all. He just laughed and laughed.
"I'm serious." Jet protested.
"You are?" Spike giggled. Jet nodded.
"I'll tell you my answers right away, after you give me a cigarette."
Jet sighed and gave him what he wants. He waited for him to answer… he lighted his cigarette for maybe for the hundredth times for this day. Like a cycle that came to be their mannerism. Light his cigar, lit his cigar, lightning his cigar. Jet sighed heavily with the thought of it. Spike hasn't says anything yet.
"Ahem…" Jet coughed.
Spike smiled. "Sorry for keeping you wait, but my answer is corny."
"Aren't you going to say anything yet but just a lot of none-sense stuffs!" Jet was getting furious.
Spike took the stick to his hands. He didn't dare to use it. He just watched it carefully burn out.
"I'm already ready to die for someone, Jet." Their face expressions suddenly turned serious.
Spike stood up. His wet body had gone dry.
Jet didn't say anything he just smiled and waited for Spike's footsteps invade.
"Love. Once someone fell in love, it didn't need some time to think,"
Sometimes those men who really looks strong physically was really hard to imagine that somewhere in their deep part was also soft and corny.
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Faye breathed heavily. They were silent. The time seems to be so long for her.
Relief walks through herself when they finally reached the house of Spike.
"Shin, thanks for everything… And don't worry, I heard nothing alright?" Faye walked out.
'Just one... I needed to do this for my peace.' Shin thought.
"Faye," he called out.
Faye turned around and let him continue…
"I've got a little favor." He started…
Shin walks inside Spike's house then Faye gulped as he followed him.
"What can I do for you, Shin?"
"Faye," Shin's eyes showed his desire… Faye is trying to be really understanding but…
"I felt an electric attraction from you. I don't know. It's kinda weird. I mean… seeing a lot of gorgeous woman isn't new to me. But you are different from them. The way you smile really captivates me and depicts the form of a strong angel." Shin confesses. He doesn't want to keep it anymore. He don't want to do anything more to her, but… how?
She whispers harshly, "Shin…"
"This is your fault, Faye. You gotta let me in." Shin smiled. His smile that she used to adore makes her feel a bit nervous now. Man, she hates to admit that Shin was Spike's brother and Julia was Spike's fiancé. How could she satisfy him? She's not a woman for everybody. She's a woman for one man. Oh, wait… did she just heard her thought right? Julia was Spike's fiancé. The man that she's talking about was already engaged.
Well… Shin is not yet engaged. Wooo… sounds practical but it was tough for her to do something like this.
And oh yea… what about her! She? Well, she's just the reason of this mess. So first of all she needs to calm him down.
"Shin, relax..." she requested.
Shin shook his head for a response of no.
"I'll help you chill out that natural nature of yours. I'll set the time for fifteen minutes. Got it?"
That seems to be fair, so he nodded. She had granted him but for Shin it was just a little bit and scanty.
After setting the time, Faye sat on Shin's left leg and encircled her arms to his neck.
At first she was trembling but when Shin pulled her to his and kisses her lovingly she almost looses herself. He takes her shirt off to explore some more and she carefully massages his hair as her response to his strokes.
There they were, like a real lover… they had manage to explore the whole part of 'em. He had caressed her whole body; kissed her lips, her breast, her neck, her stomach… licked some sensitive part of her…
Faye's a bit worried, but she can't deny to herself that she's enjoying each moment.
He can hear her heart beats getting faster… He knows that their time is only limited and he doesn't want Faye to misinterpret anything. He doesn't want her to think about him as this… But he's getting out of control. He likes her, and maybe he'll love her. He doesn't know when and how long… but for sure, this is the first time in his life that he felt something like this…
He'll love her… not as a command but because he desires to do it and he's feeling the longing he needed to do.
It is her heart beat that makes him fall in love to her…
While he enjoys to listen to her heart beats… the clock started to make a sound that he hated to hear right now.
"Hold on…time's up."
Shin didn't stop.
"Hey, don't be a bad boy." She felt his lips curved into a smirk like.
"Sorry, but 15 minutes seemed to be so short."
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Sometimes it was really hard to keep something afloat especially
When everything just seems to be unclear with a lot of matters
That makes all things tough.
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Disclaimer: I do not own Cowboy bebop.
A/N: The plot's just started to revolve. LOL… The title of this chapter is a clue for some of the circumstances. I was also wondering if you'll mind if I change the title of this fic to… "Walking through the valley of life and death"
Sorry for some misspelled words or grammatical errors… I'm really in a rush doing this coz I only have an ample time for this. Hahaha… so hope you won't flame.
Thanks…