Dear fans,
Thanks a lot for the reviews and I'm really glad you all like it! Meow! Ahem hehe, anyway, I hope you like this next chapter. I had a few small blocks but I think you'll like this chapter. *adjusts his thin framed glasses* hehe well on with the show! oh and if you want a little lemony goodness in the next chapters let me know hehe. =^.^=
Chapter 5: Memories of You
Tails
I could feel a soft warmness surrounding my body. I opened my eyes slowly and found myself wrapped in a nice warm blanket. My ears perked up a little as my vision cleared up slowly and my heart skipped a beat when I heard that soft voice that I loved to hear so much.
"H..hey Tails.." I nearly jumped up in delight but noticing the small crack in his voice I restrained myself but I was still happy none the less as I sat up to see he was awake and sitting up to boot! I smiled happily as I slipped off the seat and moved to his side quickly and grabbing his hand lightly.
"Sonic I was so scared....I...I was so scared I would lose you!" I bit my lip a little as I felt tears well up in my eyes and I as I started to look away I felt his soft fingers touch my cheek and wiping the tears away. I blushed lightly as I stared up into his eyes and he managed a weak smile in return.
"I'm...s..sorry for scaring you Tails...I'm really sorry..." he smiled weakly again and I could see a small tear welling up in his right eye. It made my heart stop for a moment as he spoke those words and it made me want to hug him even more but I was scared what it might do if I did. I gripped his hand a little tighter as he leaned over and lightly kissed my forehead. I immediately blushed a bit brighter at this as this always had a strong affect on me.
"Sonic...I'm so happy your ok.." I bit my lip feeling like a scared child as I said this and as I looked up at him again I was met with that same smile that always made my heart melt. Even in his condition he was still perfect to me.
Sonic
I stared at his cute young face and a soft blush formed on my cheeks too. He was so adorable and sweet. He sat here with me all night and never left my side. He was more then I deserved and I felt like I had never done enough for him. All I ever did was get myself hurt or make him sad when I made a mistake. I always hated myself when I did that to him. He was so innocent and he didn't need to feel pain for my mistakes.
I bit my lip a little feeling a small pain rising in my chest but I managed to push it aside quickly before Tails could notice. He still smiled at me with that same innocent face again and it caused me to blush more but I could only hope he didn't notice. I couldn't let him know what I felt for him; I feared what would happen if he did know how I felt about him. I feared him thinking I'm weird or sick maybe, and that he would run from me. I couldn't risk that no matter what happens. I couldn't tell him; even though my heart ached every time I looked at him. I just couldn't take that risk.
I smiled weakly to mask the new pain rising in my chest but I knew that Tails could see right through me this time; he knew me better then anyone else. I bit my lip a little still trying to hide it I soon gave up and soon looked down at the clean bed sheets quietly trying to understand what was wrong with me and what was causing all this pain.
"T...Tails...what's happening to me...what is causing this pain..." I bit my lip again trying my best not to sound weak but it showed in my voice and I feared what Tails would see me as now. Would he see me as a has been? Would he leave me? Questions kept running through my head but all of them ceased instantly as I felt his young paws press to the sides of my face and turning it to meet his gaze with my saddened eyes. I felt at that moment that I could stare into his eyes all day if he let me.
"Tails...?" he managed a little smile managing to stay calm for the moment as he stared at me.
"Sonic...I...I don't know....the doctors don't know....a..and...." I bit my lip hearing the breaks in his voice and I cursed myself right then wanting so badly to see his cute happy smile that I felt I would never see again. As long as I was like this; I would probably never see that innocent smile anymore.
"Tails...I need help....some ones got to know what I have..." I looked down again trying to keep from breaking down into sobs but I still tried my best to stay strong. I slowly looked to him again and I saw his eyes brim with tears and I finally lost it myself and quickly pulled him onto the bed and embraced him tightly not caring what it would do to me. I just had to have him close to me right now, no matter what.
Tails
I shuddered noticeably as I felt his body pressing against mine and I did my best to resist the urge to kiss him right then and there. Even though I was this close to him I still feared what would happen if I did anything more then this. I looked up slowly with tears still streaking down my cheeks as I finally lost the little control I had left on my fears and emotions and suddenly buried my face into his chest and softly sobbed as I held tightly to him but still loose enough so as not to injure him though I felt I might be doing this already. I couldn't stop what left my lips next and it only caused me to sob a bit louder.
"Sonic...I...I'm scared...don't leave me alone...please don't leave me.." I shuddered again as I sobbed loudly into his chest when I realized I had finally let my fears out. My fear of losing Sonic, my fear of being alone again, and my fear of losing my chance at being happy with him.
I looked up to meet his teary gaze upon me as I bit my lip trying to stop my crying but it was so hard too. He moved his soft skinned hand over my cheek and brushed the tears from my eyes as he managed a small smile showing that he still tries to be strong for me.
"I..I'm scared to Tails...I'm really scared...t..that I might..." he trailed off as new fear rose in my heart now seeing his weak and almost fragile body shivering a little and I knew deep down that something was going to happen that would change both our lives forever. And finally lost my will entirely and broke down in his arms sobbing against his chest with all my being. I couldn't bare losing him again, not like I almost lost him so many times before.
Sonic had danced with death his entire life since I knew him; he was always putting my safety before his and its what I admired about him. He was always so brave in everything he did; and sometimes he acted harshly towards me, I knew deep down that he was just worried or frustrated that things weren't going the way they should've. I didn't mind him yelling at me in those occasions because he would always apologize after the problem was solved.
I felt him pull me up into his arms as I curled my tails around my shivering little body as he still weakly held me close trying his best to comfort me. I always found security and a protective nature in his skinny but strong arms. It was these arms that had held me and protected me so many times in the past.
I felt him going silent and I knew he was in his thinking mode now. I managed to suppress my sobbing to a sniffle now and I finally let my thoughts wonder once again to a memory of his bravery that I relish in the most.
---flashback---
I remember this when I was merely 7 and still growing but I was very small still. But even at that age I wanted to help Sonic in anyway I could; even if it met me getting hurt too. We had been on a search for the Chaos Emeralds and back then Knuckles was our enemy because Robotnik tricked him. I knew Knux met well but he did get in the way a lot.
We had finally recovered the last emerald but neither me nor Sonic knew the secret of making these things work. But then Knux appeared asking for the emeralds back and said he would hurt me if Sonic didn't return them. I could see that fear in his eyes and I would swear the Chaos Emeralds were reacting to that fear.
It was then that they both started to fight and since Knux was more skilled in hand to hand combat, Sonic was taking a beating and all I could do was sit and watch. I was to scared to move and I felt so helpless watching my protector get hurt over me and the emeralds. But then when I thought Sonic was getting the upper hand Knux turned his sights to me and I could feel my heart stop almost as he charged at me.
All I could feel was a gust of wind telling me Knux was about to hit me but when I felt no contact I slowly opened my eyes I could see Sonic standing in front with Knux staring deep into his face. Sonics body was shivering a little and that's when I realized what happened. I could see blood dripping in a puddle on the ground and I nearly passed out when I saw the sharp points of Knux's fist buried in Sonics chest.
Sonic had threw himself in front of that punch that surely would've ended my life on the spot. He risked it all; for me. It was then that Knux realized what he had done and that Robotnik tricked him. I think the way those two looked at each other is what told Knux the truth.
That night I stayed by Sonic's bed while he slept. He was badly hurt but the wounds weren't severe and there were no internal injuries; luckily I knew a little about medical care that Sonic taught me. Everyone is always talking about him being selfish and only caring about himself. But I knew when he took that punch for me that it was all lies. He was so caring and loving though he just had a hard time showing it at times. I guess it was because he never had parents or anyone to care for. I didn't mind how he acted, he was still a great and loving person in my eyes.
---end flashback---
Sonic
He was so young but so caring, this little two tailed fox was my only real companion and the only person that could ever keep up with me. For so long since I was a little boy, all I wanted to do was run and never stop. I had no other purpose to exist other then to run; that is until I met Tails. He was cute just a like a fox should be.
I often found myself sitting in a chair by his bed and watching him sleep all night. I admired him because he was care free at his young age, even though he was scared at first. I knew he was alone and he had no one; just like me. I found that maybe it was a sign for us both. We were both alone and yet we found each other. Could it have been fate?
I looked down at Tails seeing he had fallen asleep and I managed a small smile though I still felt those pains in my chest. I leaned back keeping Tails comfortable in my arms and closed my eyes slowly and finally fell into a deep sleep.