...THE DISCLAIMER.... do you think if i owned naruto id be sitting here, drinking pepsi in a vain attempt to stay awake and get this thing done, writing crappy fan fiction? no? didnt think so....
THIS IS A RE-WRITE OF CHAPTER 3
ok, firstly, i have to mention that this chapter and chapter 2 are actually set BEFORE chapter 1.....this may have been obvious to everyone whos read it, but i feel i HAD to mention. when it goes back to when chapter 1 is set, ill mention here. until then, assume its beforehand, ok? secondly, i apologise if theres any continuity errors....im pretty sure theres a few, but i dont know how to fix em so please bear with me! and also, i guess this chapter is fairly AU and most of the characters are OOC but hey its a fanfic, whaddya expect??! and also im sorry if this chapter drags a bit....ive had REALLY bad writers block and it came back, but as a bit of a stream of conciousness...sorry! C&C and R&R welcome, flames will be used to burn the flamers house down, enjoy!!
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...chapter 3: why
Sitting in a tree under a blanket of stars, Kakashi sighed as he re-read the Hokages most recent message to him. 2 months had passed since he left Iruka and village and he had no idea how his former friend was doing. Despite his best efforts, the Hokage refused to tell Kakashi any news of Iruka at all, save that he was alive and, after a while, out of hospital. He felt a stab of pain in his chest and winced as memories of that night flowed into his minds eye. Iruka, pale and bloodied, lying curled like a child in its mothers arms on the cold wet ground as the rain poured down, his brown eyes full of pain, fear and, above all, disbelief....
Kakashi shook his head to dislodge this thought and turned back to the letter in his hand. The messages had started out severe and angry, the first assuring him he would be "dealt with" upon his return and branding him a coward. How Tsunade found out what had happened Kakashi wasnt sure, but one piece of information he managed to pry out of her following this was when Iruka was found and taken to hospital, he had partially regained conciousness and in his fevered state had repeated Kakashis name over and over....
[flashback to Iruka in hospital]
"Kakashi....Kakashi...", the semi-concious Iruka murmured as Asuma and the Hokage looked on worriedly. Asuma, who had found Iruka and hardly left his bedside since, put his head in his hands and desperately tried to make sense of the situation. He had been on the night-shift watch duty when he saw the figure in the dark, and hadnt realised who it was until he had grabbed them to carry them to the hospital and as he walked into the light from someones outdoor lantern, the glare illuminated the chuunins pale face, causing Asuma to gasp and run flat out to the hospital then the Hokages palace to inform her of what he had found. The 5th was concerned. Iruka wasnt yet awake enough to explain what ABOUT Kakashi, but after her recent conversation with the jounin, she knew it couldnt be anything good.
"When do you think he'll wake properly, Hokage-sama?" Asuma asked, glancing up at Tsunade from his seat by the bed. "He WILL wake....wont he?"
"Of course he will Asuma, dont worry. His wound was deep but no major organs were damaged. He was hurt more by being exposed to the cold in his weakened state. He should wake in a few hours but i want to sedate him for a few days once hes woken up to give his body time to recover."
"But why does he keep repeating Kakashi-sensei's name? Is it something to do with his fever?" he asked, visibly agitated. "It very well could be...im really not sure", Tsunade answered simply. She had a fairly good idea why, although she couldnt be certain, but she WAS certain that no-one but her knew of the relationship between the two ninjas so she chose not to voice her concerns to the man next to her. She had found out completely by accident when patrolling the village one night when she couldnt sleep. Hearing voices, she perched on a nearby telegraph post and watched the scene in the small clearing below unfold....
He had to admit, strange as it was, that he enjoyed Kakashis company and was happy just to sit and look at him as he chatted happily, although he always got a strange fluttering feeling in his stomach whenever he saw Kakashis one eye curve when he smiled. What this feeling was, he didnt know, but it was happening whenever he saw Kakashi now and, he admitted to himself, it wasnt entirely unpleasant.
Kakashi himself had a similar feeling in his stomach when he saw Iruka. It felt like he was carrying a load of excitable squid in his belly, and it made him quite convinced that his face went beetroot red whenever he spoke to the young teacher. The main reason he talked so much when they were together was from sheer nerves, never quite knowing what to say so automatically saying the first thing that popped into his head, (which was nearly always something supremely idiotic!), and always berating himself for talking so much rubbish. Every night he walked home mentally smacking himself on the head for making one silly comment after another and promising himself he would stop asking Iruka out and stop torturing himself. But then, when they next met, Kakashis insides would turn again into squid babies at the sight of those smiling eyes and he would find himself inviting the chuunin out AGAIN! he just couldnt resist...he wasnt sure when it had started, or even HOW, all he knew is he had a burning desire to be close to Iruka as much as possible and that every second he was away from him, his insides tensed up and he constantly felt choked up. Waking up in the middle of the night and having to take many many cold showers to deal with his, uhh......"problem" was seriously starting to get on his nerves, plus he was certain it wasnt normal for him to be dreaming of another guy in this way.
In saying that though, Kakashi thought as he ran after Iruka, he never actually turned me down....even all those times i turned into a stuttering fool, he always interrupted me with a smile and said "Kakashi, shush. Yes, i'd like to (insert activity here)". He grinned to himself under his mask and chased the younger ninja deeper into the trees. He thought about Irukas question as he ran. Why did he invite him out here? It was a bizarre request, he had to admit, but he hadnt been able to think of any other excuse to get him out here this late at night. He wondered exactly what his own motives were...was it just another ploy to spend time with him, or was he actually going to gasp make his move??? His head swam with the possibilities.....darkness, trees for cover, plus it was late at night so the chances of anyone being around were slim. He pondered this for a few minutes before a sly grin slid across his narrow face. Yeah, he decided. Tonight was the night. Come hell or high water, Iruka would be his. As he ran further into the undergrowth, he tried to stop his legs from buckling under him as a shivver of excitement ran through his body.....
While Kakashi was thinking these devilishly evil thoughts, the object of his desire was blissfully unaware of his plans for him. Instead he was hurtling through the branches at top speed. Iruka had somehow convinced himself that all Kakashis nights out and book-borrowing visits were just efforts to lull him into a false sense of security....Kakashi must be trying to get me back for arguing with him over the chuunin exams, Iruka thought desperately. He might be acting jokey now but once he gets me.....he gritted his teeth and stopped in a tree to catch his breath, looking around him wildly for the silver-haired jounin. He wiped his brow and held his head in his hand. How could he have been so stupid? Over the past few weeks, as Kakashis advances became slightly more....amorous? Was that what he'd call it? Well, whatever it was, he had started to feel a little more friendly towards his colleague. He recalled the times Kakashi had approached him, red in the face and unable to form a coherent sentence, and he hadnt been able to ignore the way his stomach flipped upside down, or the way he subconciously licked his lips whenever Kakashi sneaked his mask down to take a drink or whatever. Iruka had never seen below his mask in all the times they'd been out, Kakashi was far too fast for that, but still....he found himself laying awake at night wondering what was below the rough blue fabric. Soon after he would fall asleep and dream wholy inappropriate dreams which would leave him lying in a wet patch and wondering where his loyalties really lay....
"GHAAAAAAAAA!!!!", Iruka shrieked as he fell out the tree and landed with a bone-jarring thud. Lost in thought, he hadnt noticed Kakashi suddenly appear next to him and was even more shocked when the older shinobi jumped down on top of him, pinning his shoulders to the ground. He gulped and waited for a blow to the body, or a vicious voice warning him not to interfere again. He closed his eyes and braced himself for......
something that never came.
After an agonising few moments that felt like an eternity to Iruka, he risked a peek and was shocked to see Kakashi smiling down at him, glee etched into every visible part of his face. "Whats the matter, Iruka-kun?" Kakashi smirked, head on one side. "Too close for comfort?". Irukas eyes widened, at the way Kakashi addressed him....Kun? Since when was he anything other than Iruka-sensei to Kakashi? Irukas head swam as he tried to digest all this information. If Kakashi wasnt trying to beat him up...what WAS he trying to do? Iruka opened his mouth to ask but was cut off as Kakashi shifted his hips, causing them to press against Irukas body and, more importantly, his....there! Iruka tried not to gasp as the fluttering sensation in his belly suddenly flared into a white hot flame and ran down to between his legs and with sheer bewilderment and a certain amount of raw passion, he hurled Kakashi off him and pushed him down on the ground, their hands clasped together above the jounins head. Kakashi merely laughed, gazing up at the bewildered shinobi above him. God, he thought, youre cute when youre confused! He laughed again.
"Ahahahaha! Well done! Well, youve got me now Iruka....what are you going to do with me?" He said this with a suggestive wink that had Iruka all at once repulsed and aroused. He could feel his hips grind against Kakashis of their own accord and he felt more baffled than ever. He felt as though his head was coming apart at the seams. Below him Kakashi continued to look up at him, those drowsy, mismatched eyes (his forehead protector had gotten "knocked off") boreing right through him. Oh if only you knew what i was thinking, Kakashi-san...and Iruka could tell the smile playing on those lips below that mask was the slow sexy one that had haunted his dreams for weeks on end. Suddenly, his head swimming with a million and one thoughts, he knew there was only one thing he could do...no, WANTED to do.
Gripping Kakashis hands tighter, he put his face down to the older ninjas and gripped his mask with his teeth. Iruka heard Kakashi sigh slightly as his lips grazed his cheeks as he inched the mask further and further down his face until his mouth was exposed. And as the butterflies in his stomach went wild, Iruka slid his head over and pushed his lips against Kakashis.....
[end flashback]
After a time, the Hokages letters became less angry, more tired and, worst of all, dissapointed. She asked simply that he stop asking about Iruka and to please concentrate on his mission which should after all be his priority. Hahaha, he laughed bitterly to himself. Its her and her priorities that got me here in the first place. Kakashi crumpled the paper as his hands balled into fists. I swear, he thought angrily, when i get back Tsunade will pay....when i get hold of her im gon- "Kakashi!" He snapped back to reality as he heard his squad leader shout. "Come on, we've had a sighting of that missing-nin we've been tailing, we gotta go before we miss him!" Kakashi sighed as he jumped down from the tree. Soon, he thought. Soon.......
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YAYY! its done! for now....grins evilly
id like to say thanks to all my "fans" for reviewing and being so kind and encouraging. im glad ive had a good response so far, although i can tell you NOW all that will change next chapter.....sigh such is the life of a warped KakaIru fan.....
[smiles] b4k4-girl: damn ff.net STILL wont let me do symbols....grumble grumble
Kakashi: WHO CARES??! GET ON WITH WRITING!!
b4k4-girl: what if i dont wanna??
Kakashi: YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'LL GET! [waves hand threateningly]
b4k4-girl: please....no not that!
Kakashi: YES!! [proceeds to put Iruka plushie in a frilly barbie dress]
b4k4-girl: NOOO YOU KNOW PINK ISNT HIS COLOUR!!! ok ok ill WRITE! geez!!
[grabs pen and scribbles frantically]
Kakashi: THATS better.......[smiles]