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Chapter12:( Will:one and a half month) Why?
When Luke woke up, the clock showed 05.30 a.m. . He turned off the alarm and got out of the bed, as silent he could, so that Lorelai could sleep a little bit longer until Will needed to be fed again. He was one month now and needed to be fed every three hours now, no matter if it was night or day.
Lorelai was exhausted, but she never complained. He helped her as much as he could, but it was not easy at the moment.
After Wills birth he had spend the first two weeks with Lorelai and the baby at home and Cesar and Lane had worked full-time. When he went back to work, at first Cesar took off for two weeks and then Lane. Now they were both back, but he still had to work the whole day. A lot of paper-work needed to be done.
He took of his sweatpants and his t-shirt and stepped into the shower.
Before Will had been born it was a ritual that he opened the diner later and he and Lorelai had at first taken a shower together and then had breakfast.
But since Will was born and he was back in the diner he stood up as early as before her pregnancy and she slept in most of the days. They saw each other for the first time when she came for breakfast in the diner and then when they were both back from work.
She had also started to work again two weeks after the birth. At first just half a day, but soon she was back for the whole day. She had Will with her, because she needed to feed him and because it was a lot quieter in the Inn than in the diner.
He missed Will and Lorelai a lot during the day, because he had enjoyed the two weeks at home.
He just washed his hair when the shower cabin opened and Lorelai stepped in.
"Can I help you?" she flirted and slung her arm around his waist and leaned her head against his back. He turned in her arms and gave her a quick peck on the lips.
"Good morning" he greeted her.
"Mmmh, good morning!" she said and tried to deepen the kiss, but Luke stepped back and held his head under the water.
"I´m already finished. I need to hurry up. If Will´s already up I´ll dress him and change his diaper. See you later?" He said and stepped out of the shower.
Lorelai was stunned and stared at the cabin door.
Luke walked into the nursery and saw that Will was already awake.
"Good morning, William! You´re awake already, so let´s dress you!" he said in a baby voice. Will started to struggle when he heard his fathers voice.
Luke kissed him on the cheek before he laid him on the changing table and started to unbutton his dress when Lorelai walked into the room. She wore a bathrobe and had a towel on her head.
"I dress him, you can go." she told Luke and stepped between Luke and the changing-table.
"Uhm, sure, thank you" he said and kissed her on the cheek before he went to the diner.
When Lorelai heard that the front-door had closed she sighed and took a deep breath. And when Will started to squirm some time later she realised that she had stared into the air, deep in thoughts.
"Sorry, my baby. Mommy is sooo sorry. Yes, I will change you now. I don´t forget about you. I love you, sweety" she said to Will, while she changed his diaper and dressed him.
During the morning Luke wondered where Lorelai was. In general she stopped by around eight, but not that day.
By ten he was worried and walked over to their house to see if something was wrong, but she was not there.
He walked back to the diner, packed a bag with some pie, eggs and a hot chocolate and walked to the Dragonfly.
He found her in her office, Will sleeping in his stroller.
"Hey, I thought you would stop by! No breakfast today?" he asked, waked in and closed the door.
He placed the bag on the desk in front of her, but she shoved it aside.
"I don´t have time for that now. But thank you anyway." she said in a very sharp tone and then put her attention back to the papers in front of her.
Luke was taken aback by her tone, but decided to just ignore it. During her pregnancy he became used to her moodiness, and she had been very moody. Sometimes when he had come home she had been lying on the couch, crying and twenty minutes later she had danced through the room just to throw things at him some minutes later. And since he was back in the diner her moodiness was back and increased day by day. stupid hormones´he thought.
"Maybe you will find the time to eat something later. See you at home!" he smiled and tried to kiss her on the lips, but she turned her head, so that he landed on her cheek. He gave her a confused look and then left her office and went back to the diner.
Lorelai stood up and took Will out of his stroller. Then she sat down on the small couch in her office and pressed the sleeping baby against her chest, stroking his back and placing kisses on his head, before she carefully lay her cheek against his head and closed her eyes for a few seconds.
When Luke arrived at home around ten that night Lorelai already lay in bed, Will was asleep in his crib. He changed and also slid in the bed. He wanted to snuggle closer to Lorelai, so that she could sleep with her head on his chest, but she turned around, so that he was facing her back.
Since he went back to work she slept like that, so he also turned around and fell asleep.
He woke up in the middle of the night. He looked over to the clock on his night-table. 2.48 a.m. it said.
When he turned around he noticed that Lorelai was not lying in bed anymore. ´She had fed Will around ten, she did that every day. Then at one again, so she must be in bed right now´, he thought and stood up. He walked over to the nursery and found Will asleep in his crib. Lorelai was not here.
Then he heard something downstairs and walked in the living-room. It was dark, but he heard sobs coming from the couch.
He turned on the monkey-lamp who stood on a small table next to the couch. She was sitting on the couch, her knees against her chest, her hands clutching a handkerchief.
"Go away!" she said through her sobs.
"What?" he asked stunned.
"You heard me, go away!" she said little bit louder this time.
"You are sitting here in the dark living room, crying and expect me to just go?"
"That´s what you do the best, so do it now and leave me alone! You don´t seem to have problems with that lately",she yelled the first part, the last part was nothing more than a whisper.
Luke was shocked. But he was not willing to go, he wanted to know what was wrong. He sat down next to her and lay one arm around her shoulders, trying to pull her close. She shrugged it off.
"Get your hands off!" she hissed.
"Lorelai what is wrong with you?" he asked, trying to sty calm.
"Nothing is wrong with me, I´m fine. Go back to bed, or to the diner. Or elsewhere. It doesn´t matter where, just go and leave me alone!" she was crying harder now.
"I won´t leave you alone like this. Lorelai! Tell me what´s wrong! You know that you can talk to me!" he tried it again.
"Yeah, talk, of course I can talk to you" she laughed bitterly.
"Lorelai..." he was getting angry now. She started to sob so hard that she couldn´t say anything.
Luke hated seeing her like this and wanted to help her. He tried again to pull her close, and this time she let it happen. When her head touched his chest, she slung her arms around him and hugged him so hard that it nearly hurt. He felt that his shirt got wet because of her tears, she was still crying hysterically.
"Why...why don´t you love me anymore? What... have I done,... Luke? What? Why... don´t you love me..." she sobbed and at first he didn´t understand what she was saying, but then it hit him. He had no idea where that was coming from. He stroked her hair, he needed to soothe her before he could talk with her.
" I know that I look like crap at the moment ...and I´m fat , but I will get my figure back, Luke, I promise, but don´t leave me...please don´t leave me!" she cried. Then suddenly her head snapped up and she looked at him for the first time. Her eyes were red, her face swollen and wet.
"Or do you just wanted Will and now that you have him..." she couldn´t finish her sentence.
"Have you lost your mind?" Luke interrupted her a little harsh. But then his voice became soft again.
"Lorelai I have no idea what you are talking about. Why on earth could you possibly think that I don´t love you anymore? Please explain it to me, I don´t get it!" he said a little helpless.
She clung to him again, her head buried in his chest.
"You don´t touch me anymore" she whispered.
"What?" he whispered back, shocked.
"You don´t touch me anymore, you don´t kiss me anymore and you push me away every time I try it and you´re in the diner the whole day, so that you don´t have to see me!" she said and tried to untangled herself from him, but he held her close.
"Lorelai when did I do something like that?" he asked her and let his chin rest on her head.
"The day after the dinner with my parents, the following days, everyday Luke. The last time this morning when I stepped into the shower with you. I thought I would try it one more time and you pushed me away again." she said and started to cry again.
"Oh, Lorelai! I don´t know what to say to this" he started.
"You don´t have to say anything. If you don´t love me anymore, then you can go. Or I will go, this is your house. I will move back in my house and I take Will with me. But you can see him every time you want."
This was beyond every imagination for Luke. He felt like somebody had taken away the ground under his feet. He needed to fix this. He took her head in his hands and forced her to look him in the eyes.
"Lorelai, I need you to listen very carefully now. I will never, never leave you. Never. No matter what happens. You are the love of my life and I love you. I love you more than anything or anybody else. I waited years for you and I will never let you go!" he told her slowly, so that she would understand every word.
"But why don´t you touch me anymore?" she asked, still looking at him, doubt in her eyes.
"Lorelai, you know that I can´t make love to you at the moment. "
"I´m not talking about sex, Luke. I know that we can´t have sex for at least two more weeks. But I´m talking about kissing me good bye, not just a peck on the cheek. I´m talking about holding me close at night and I´m talking about making out under the shower, but not about sex" she said, staring at him, observing his reactions. He shook his head, then a smile appeared on his face.
"You have no idea what you do to me, don´t ya? "he asked and laid his forehead against hers.
"When you stepped into the shower this morning you nearly gave me a heart-attack. I needed to get out of it, otherwise I would have pushed you up against the shower wall. I had to take a very cold shower when I arrived in the diner" he smirked and kissed her. When he pulled back she was smiling also, the doubt was nearly gone.
"Why didn´t you tell me? I really thought that you don´t want me anymore." she asked and kissed him again.
"I didn´t want to put that pressure on you. I don´t want you to sleep with me until you´re completely sure that you want it again. I don´t want to hurt you. Promise that will only sleep with me again when you´re ready!" he said.
"Ok ,promise. But it´s okay if you touch me. I trust you" she told him.
"But I don´t trust myself. I don´t know if I can stop, once we´re past a certain point." Luke confessed.
"I know that you will stop when I tell you to. I know you. And you might not need to take a cold shower afterwards" she winked at him and smiled.
"If you go on talking like that, I will need one now!" he laughed and then kissed her again. After some seconds Lorelai slid her tongue along Lukes bottom-lip and he opened his mouth. She crawled on his lap while their kiss got more and more passionate. She felt now, that he hadn´t been lying, he was very aroused.
He slid his hands under her shirt and caressed her back. She moaned and slid her hands under his shirt and her hands started to wander to his pants when they heard a furious cry from upstairs.
"See, no chance to let it go any further. Your sons is hungry again." she said, breathing hard.
"Then don´t let him wait. We can´t finish that with or without him." Luke said and stood up, holding out a hand for Lorelai. When she took it, he also pulled her up and into his arms.
"You´re okay now?" he asked her.
"Yes, and sorry for doubting you. I just really, really missed you, I think that and the sleep deficit got to me. You come with me, I´m sure your son also wants to see you!" Luke lokked into her eyes and saw that she was lying, she wasn´t fine.
They walked up the stairs, hands joined.
And while Lorelai sat own in the rocking chair, Luke picked up Will.
"Here we go" he said when he handed her the baby, then sat down on the armrest and watched while Lorelai was nursing Will. When he started to smack, Luke started to laugh and Lorelai joined him. They took Will with them when they went back to the bedroom and Lorelai lay him down on Luke´s chest before she lay her head in Luke´s arm-crook.
"I love you" she said before she closed her eyes.
"I love you, too Lorelai. Please never doubt that again!" he answered, kissed her and hoped that she would be fine now.
TBC Please R+R