Wow, so here is the next chapter, I hope you enjoy, although it´s a bit short!

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Chapter 20: I need..

Two days later, two days before Christmas, Lorelai still had no message from Luke. She still couldn´t believe that he did this to her. If he yelled, threw things, didn´t speak to her at all, she could deal with it somehow. But that he left and took William with him, was something different. It had been Sookie who had stopped her the day before, calling the police and telling them that he had kidnapped her son. She was furious, but above all she was sad. She missed William... and Luke.

And what made it worse was that she blamed herself. If she told him earlier, or in a different way... she had no idea what to do.

She just lay there in her bed, thinking all day long and staring at the wall. She had never in her whole life felt that horrible. Not when Rory dropped out of Yale, not when she ran away with her daughter from her parents house or when Chris had left her for Sherry and Gigi. Not even when Luke had left her after her parents vow-renewal. She had had the whole package- and lost it.

Several times a day she tried Luke´s cellphone, hoping that he would answer it and would bringat least William back.

The only times she left the bed was to use the bathroom or to pump milk, because she was still breast-feeding William.

She hadn´t told Sookie why they had started to fight, just that they did. She couldn´t tell her that she was thinking about an abortion. Had thought about it. Luke´s words were echoing in her head kill our children . Every time she closed her eyes she heard them over and over again and she felt even worse, if that was possible.

If she had to raise these children alone, she would do it now. Luke was right, she could never kill them. She wanted to tell him, wanted to tell him that she wanted to work this out, have the babies and be a family again. But Luke was gone and if he brought back William, would he stay?

"Mum?" a voice interrupted her thinking and Rory appeared in the doorway.

Lorelai didn´t burst into tears, she felt like she had no more left. She just stared at Rory and tried to sit up a bit.

"Mom, Sookie called me. What happened? She babbled something that Luke left and took Will with him? That can´t be true! Mom?" Rory said and sat down on the bed.

"It´s true. He´s gone. I don´t know where he is and when he will be back. If he will come back.. He grabbed Will and left at three o´clock in the morning. And it´s my fault, everything is my fault Rory." she told her with a very shaky voice, nearly whisper.

"But why? What happened?" Rory asked shocked. She still couldn´t believe this.

"I´m pregnant again. With twins. I told him we didn´t need any protection cause I´m still nursing Will. It was in the book, but it´s not true. It´s an old lie." Lorelai paused.

Rory knew that Luke would never leave her mother because she was pregnant, so she waited for her mother to go on.

" I told him and he was so great. He said that he wanted these kids. But I was so... so I asked him if we really do. And I talked about an abortion. I discussed it with my gynaecologist because I was so shocked when I found out. And then he yelled at me how I could even think about killing our babies and he left. He came back early in the morning, grabbed some clothes, Will and left. He said he couldn´t leave him with me, because I might get rid of him when he won´t fit in my time-schedule." Lorelai paused again and stared at the bed-covers.

"I have no idea where he is or if he will come back. But he can´t take Will away from me..." Lorelai´s voice cracked and she wasn´t able to speak anymore.

Rory sat there and listened to her mother. She needed time to take it all in, before she could say anything. Her mother pregnant again, with twins, Luke left and took William with him. Lorelai talking out an abortion...

After some minutes of silence and thinking she took her mothers hand.

"He will come back. Luke would never keep William from you. And then you can talk. Everything will work out." she tried to reassure her mother although she wasn´t convinced herself.

" I don´t know. But I´ve never seen him like this. He was so cold. Like his love had been replaced by hate. I´m sure he hated me when he walked out of here."

"He could never hate you. He loves you more than anybody else!" Rory tried again.

"No, he loves his children the most. His son and these two in here, although he just knew some minutes. And I talked about killing them. He hates me, I now it."

"Oh mom! He could never hate you!" Rory said and hugged Lorelai. But her mother staid stiff and didn´t return the hug. She stared against the wall.

"Have you eaten something?" Rory asked when she let go of her.

"Sookie brought some soup. But I´m not hungry."

"You need to eat, mom. You´re eating for three now. You need it." Rory tried to convince her.

"I need Will and Luke" Lorelai whispered and lay back down on the bed.

Two days later, on Christmas Rory was still with her mother. She had convinced her to drink something, for the sake of the babies, but Lorelai stayed in bed, without really talking to anyone and refused any food. Rory had called Emily and Richard and just told them that Luke and Lorelai had a fight. Of course they wanted to know what had happened, but Lorelai had asked her not to say anything. Together with Sookie she had also arranged someone to help out at the Inn and the diner and she had a lot to do to keep the nosy town-people out of the house and away from her mother. They wanted to know where Luke and William were, what happened to Lorelai,if Luke would be back for Christmas... but she just ignored their questions.

It was that afternoon, when she was sitting in the living-room watching TV while her mother had finally fallen asleep when she heard the front-door open. The next thing she heard was her crying brother.

She jumped off the couch and ran to the front-door. Luke was standing there with a crying Will in his arms. Looking not better than her mother. He didn´t say anything, just walked past her and upstairs. She followed him. He entered the main bedroom and placed Will on Lorelai´s chest. The baby calmed down immediately and Lorelai opened her eyes.

She wasn´t able to say anything, she just hugged her son and kissed him several times while tears ran down her cheeks. Luke watched the scene for a moment, then turned around and walked downstairs. Again Rory followed him.

When he walked towards the front-door she grabbed his arm and stopped him.

"Where are you going now? Will you run again, this time without Will? Have you any idea what you did to mum?" Rory yelled and got louder with every word.

"You took her son away from her and never answered you cell! She was worried sick that you would never come back! She lay there in that bed all day long. She refused to eat and to talk about it. Don´t you care? Why can´t you just talk about it? You´re such an idiot. You´re going away because she thinks about an abortion and you are endangering the life of your children because you go away. You know she doesn´t eat when she is sad or upset. A few days more and you might have killed the three of them!"

Luke just stood there, watching Rory while she yelled at him. When she was silent he walked outside without saying anything and closed the door behind him.

TBC