Chapter Six

A.N. Attention lurkers, please stop lurking and review. Thank you. Please review guys, it means a ton to me. And I was getting a ton of reviews and then they stopped. Did the story all of a sudden start sucking? Cause if it did I need to know that. But seriously according to my stats it says 268 hits for the last chapter and 6 reviews...please review! Even if it's just to say hey, chick, you're story started sucking three chapters ago! And also I'm wondering did this chapter come out to confusing? Logan has a lot of revelations in this chapter and they needed to be gotten out but I just hope that in the process I didn't make it confusing!

"Aren't you a little late early today Logan?" Taylor asks when Logan walks into Doose's Market a couple weeks later, Logan usually stopped in at the market to get Victoria a snack on their way home from the park.

"Victoria has a cold," Logan responds, "so I stopped by the house but she was asleep."

"That's right," Taylor nods, "Lorelai was in here for cough medicine the other day. How's the little tyke doing today?"

"Better," Logan nods as he heads down the aisle with the soda he'd come in after.

"Good to hear," Taylor nods.

Logan is so busy paying attention to Taylor that he doesn't notice that Dean is standing a foot away from him. Logan and Dean's dislike of each other was more apparent to the town then was Logan and Luke's, they avoided each other when at all possible but not before sending harsh looks at one another. Dean is blocking Logan's way through the aisle and he doesn't look as if he's going to move, even when Logan is standing right in front of him.

"What's your problem?" Logan snaps, just seeing Dean made Logan's temper snap.

"What's your problem?" Dean's words are harsher even then Logan's.

"I have no idea what your talking about, if you'd just move I could leave and be out of your way."

Logan does no such thing, instead he asks, "why won't you just step up and take responsibility for your responsibilities. If you couldn't take care of Rory couldn't you at least take of her daughter?"

Logan's expression darkens and he can hear someone in another aisle gasp at the accusation, "like you knew how to take care of Rory." Logan snaps, "I watched you walk away from Rory. You have no room to criticize anyone on taking care of Rory. Hell you left her more then once."

Dean winces visibly, "I did. But your situation is different from everyone else's, you have the last piece of Rory left on this earth, and you're the idiot who's stupid enough to walk away." With his words Dean sets the bottle of water he'd held in his hand down before pushing passed Logan and out of the store before Logan even had a chance to respond.

Logan walks into his large three bedroom apartment in the upper west side, the apartment had always suited him, it was for holding parties and gave him plenty of space. But for the first time in the three years he has lived here it feels empty and alone, the cleaning people had gone through today and the only sound in the apartment is the occasionally soft beep from his answering machine. Dropping his keys on the table Logan hits the black play button, "hey Logan..." Finn's voice breaks the silence of the apartment but Logan stops paying attention two words in. Who had he been expecting to call?

There were still days when he expected Rory to call, when she consumed so much of his thought process that it he completely forgot that she was dead. Had been dead for almost a year now. He still loved as much now as he ever had, she started changing him from the moment that she met him. She had pushed his limits, made him do things he never would have done under other circumstances, if it had been anyone else to push him. And she had made him a better person because of it.

"In all my life I've never loved anyone more."

Jess words almost materialize in the empty walls of the large apartment. Jess still felt the same way about Rory that he always had, that hadn't changed, just as Logan's feelings hadn't changed. They had that in common. But that's where their similarities ended.

"But your situation is different from everyone else's, you have the last piece of Rory left on this earth, and you're the idiot who's stupid enough to walk away."

Dean's words fade in with Jess. Logan's situation was different he did have Victoria. When he'd heard about Rory, before Lorelai even showed up in the office he'd felt like his world had crumbled. And then when he'd found out about Victoria, and recovered from the shock of this tiny baby who looked so much like Rory, he couldn't see Victoria as more then the reason that the world had lost Rory. What was that theory they'd studied over and over the damned honors English classes he'd been forced to take? Sins of the father...the whole theory that his dad was bad so he was bad...maybe he'd reversed it in his mind. He'd blamed this baby for Rory's death, the sin of the child. But Victoria had done nothing, was he blaming Victoria something that he should be taking the blame for? Would things have been different if he hadn't let Rory walk away 18 months ago? Would things have been differently if he hadn't walked away so many years ago?

He loved that little girl. He wouldn't deny that. The way she smiled at him like he could do nothing wrong melted his heart and for about 45 minute made him forget everything bad he'd every done...to anyone...but especially to Rory. But then when he returned her to Lorelai and walked away all of the same pain came rushing back, walking away from Victoria was like walking away from Rory all over again. Was that is penance for leaving Rory? Would he have to relive the pain of walking away from her daughter to understand part of how she felt when he'd left the first time? But soon Victoria would understand that she didn't have to be separated what then? Was she supposed to live through the pain that her mother had suffered, because of the mistakes her father made? That wasn't right and by that thought process then neither was blaming Victoria for the loss of Rory.

"Who could that be?" Lorelai smiles at Victoria in her highchair, the baby was doing better she was almost over her cold. "You stay put I'm going to go get the door." Lorelai pushes her hair out of her face, she and Victoria had only just gotten up and were in the process of eating breakfast. When she pulls the door open she's surprised to see Logan standing in front of her, "Logan. What are you doing here? Are you feeling okay?"

Logan knows he probably looks horrible, he'd hardly slept the night before, "Lorelai, we need to talk."