Frustrated
Chapter 2 – Unwelcome visitors
A/N: This is still a sequel. If you want to understand it read the prequel first. It's totally useless not to do so and then ask stupid questions which are all answered in the prequel. Ask smart questions, guys!
Disclaimer: And yet not mine. The plot is mine and the prequel is mine, but the characters and Charmed are not mine. Are they yours?
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The two persons who were lying on the floor in some kind of weird knot were slowly picking themselves up from the ground.
Both of them looked as if they had had a hard journey, dirt was in both their faces and some of their clothes were a little torn. Their hairdos seemed to have had a hard time, too.
Paige just stared at them, then she turned to look at her sister and then again at the two intruders.
They appeared to be Piper and Leo from the future. At least she guessed they were from the future, but it was definitely them.
"Are we in 2004?", future Leo said with concern evident on his face.
"Uh, yeah", was the only thing Phoebe managed to say, while all three girls had their eyes fixed on the two of them as they both sighed in relief.
"Finally! The stone age so sucked!", future Piper said happily. At least they had gotten one thing right. And the time traveling was the easy part. They only hoped they hadn't come too late.
"Stone Age?", Paige echoed incredulously.
Past Piper meanwhile only kept on staring at hers and her husband's future self and was a little angry at them. As if the day hadn't been complicated enough. But she managed to keep her emotions in check this time.
"Yeah, long story", Leo said with a shy grin.
"What do you want here?", Phoebe asked not understanding.
"Good point. We need to talk to Chris", future Piper said with a little desperation in her voice. But they had no idea how desperate she really was.
"Oh… I think it's a little bad time for that right now", Phoebe said remembering their encounter in the kitchen. He had gotten really emotional over this topic, she just couldn't figure out why.
"Why?", Future Leo asked carefully. He just hoped the past people had treated his son well. If anyone deserved a little nicety than it was definitely Chris.
"Uh, he kinda had a fight with Piper", Paige said hesitantly.
"A fight?", future Piper repeated, not liking this statement at all. She prayed to all heavens that it had been over nothing important, just some kind of small fuss over something incredibly uninteresting, like dinner or so.
Past Piper did not make any comment. The desperation was now very evident on her future self's face, but she could not say anything to her.
Her sisters saw that, so they decided to take over the talking.
"Well, it's… Piper just found out she's pregnant and was quite upset about and so she yelled at Chris for not warning her in beforehand about this, and she said she would've wanted to prevent it and at that he got angry, too and then he told her she'd be doing the child a favor if she aborted it and that it would kill itself at the age of fourteen and then he orbed out", Phoebe recaptured the last 30 minutes. At this past Piper's eyes welled up with tears again and she sat down on the sofa with a haunted look on her face.
Future Piper and Leo just stared at her incredulously. They had no idea what they had done. As if Chris didn't have enough problems but this was really the top of it.
Past Piper buried her face in her hands, but then she looked up again and asked the two persons from the future in complete disregard for their disbelieving looks, "Is it true? Does my son turn evil? Does my other son kill himself?"
"Yes", Future Piper simply said, unable to articulate more words at the moment. The woman in front of her had absolutely no idea she had made that child's condition even worse, at least the emotional condition.
"Oh my god", Past Piper just said and started sobbing again. "This is awful"
"You have no idea", Future Piper responded in a low voice.
"Wh… what?", past Piper said through her sobs. She needed to know what her future self meant by that.
But future Piper just waved off and said, "Never mind"
"But I do mind", past Piper said persistently. "I'm their mother"
At this Future Piper had the strong desire to blow her past self up. Great mother who tells her own child she doesn't want it. And now she cared and said she was their mother.
"No you're not. Not yet anyway. And don't go all "I'm their mother", because you have no idea what that was like, you have no idea what I've been through, what my children are like. Don't you dare to claim motherhood now. Now I want to talk to Chris, understood?", she told her past self in a steely voice. She couldn't believe her past self's arrogance.
Paige looked at both Pipers, and saw that at least future Piper was about to explode while her Piper just stared at her future self in disbelief. Future Leo tried to calm his wife down, but she ignored him completely.
So Paige decided to do something. "Chris!", she called. It was worth a try.
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When he heard Paige call he had absolutely no idea what they could possibly want. He was not anxious to have another conversation with them since the last one had started well but turned out very nasty.
Still he put his knife back in his pocket and rolled his sleeve down again. He heard Paige call again, and without even really thinking, he shot a last look around the scenery before dematerializing and rematerializing in the Halliwell's attic.
He didn't actually know why he had, maybe out of curiosity, maybe because of the possibility of a demon attack in which case he would've had to obey his whitelighter duties, or maybe because of a very futile hope for an apology.
"What?", he asked the second he orbed in, in the most unfriendly tone he could manage. It was just then that he realized he could sound very unfriendly.
Now he had just seen the people in the attic for less than a second and he already regretted his decision of orbing here.
"We need to talk to you", his mother from the future said. He just looked at her in a very annoyed way. As if he didn't have enough problems now these guys came from the future.
"Great", he replied with his voice drowning in sarcasm. He had absolutely no intention to talk to them and he wanted to make that evident.
He saw the pleading look on his father's face and the desperation in his mother's eyes. He decided not to care.
"It's important", his father said. What he meant was of course that he wanted to talk to Chris in private, but he was not going to make it that easy for him.
The Charmed Ones from the present looked at the exchange in confusion. Chris was definitely in a hostile mood towards Leo and Piper from the future, but they had no idea why. Of course they hadn't.
"Then talk", Chris said with an innocent look on his face. He knew exactly what his father and mother wanted, but he was not in the mood to comply that easily.
"In private", Leo added. He was getting a little annoyed by his son's behavior, but he knew that was meant to challenge him. After all he had done he was pretty sure he deserved it. He didn't want to anger his son.
"These are your wife and sisters in law from the past, it doesn't get more private than that", Chris said stubbornly. His facial expression was relaxed, but it was only masking his true feelings. He was angry at them. For everything. But right now was not the time to explore his feelings so he focused on them instead.
"Chris, please, future consequences", Future Piper said with a meaningful glance towards the past versions of herself and her sisters.
Chris just raised his eyebrows at them and orbed out. Future Leo understood what he wanted to say and grabbed his wife's arm to orb after him, leaving the even more confused Charmed Ones behind.
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Chris didn't even know why he was making it so hard for his parents, but he was really annoyed by everything and their presence here was just the top of everything. As he looked around and saw the meadow flooded with sunlight now he remembered what he had once loved about this place and what he still did. And he was very sure that once his parents came here they would be shocked to no end that he had returned here.
And he was right. They orbed in, just some seconds after he had rematerialized, and looked around frightened. "Chris, c… could we go somewhere else? Please?", His mother stuttered as all the bad memories of the place came flooding back in.
"It's a beautiful place", Chris simply said and sat down under the exact same oak tree he had died beneath.
Piper knew that all this was on his conditions and she had to accept it. She had to be glad he was even talking to her at all, after what her past self had said to him so she took a deep breath and sat down, as well as Leo did.
"so, you wanted to talk? Talk?", Chris commanded quite rudely. He felt as if he was some rebellious teenager, but he didn't care. He had never been a rebellious teenager so it was better his parents learnt to deal with that. Better late then never.
"Well, it's…", Piper started but she couldn't finish her sentence. She didn't really know what to say, what she had to say was very important, but she needed to really talk to him first, after all she ahd to apologize for her past self's behavior and there was so much else she wanted to tell him, wanted to even out, she couldn't start with the other thing right away. After his suicide she had never really talked to him. She knew that Paige had, after she had died, and on some levels she had always envied her sister for that opportunity.
"I'm so sorry", she managed to say in her second attempt to open up the conversation. He just looked at her with hardened face and demanded, "what for?"
"Everything" That was true. She was sorry for really everything she had done, her past self had done, for everything Wyatt had done, basically everything everyone had done.
"Be more specific", Chris commanded in a low voice.
"For.. what my past self said. And everything that happened in the future", Piper tried to narrow it down.
"Oh it's ok what she said. I'm not angry at her", he explained in a quite relaxed voice. But then his tone changed a little, to reveal more than a little sarcasm, "I mean, it's quite natural, she just found out she was going to have another child, what's more obvious than yelling at your whitelighter for it? Or what would be the better response than just wishing with all your heart it could've been prevented?"
Piper didn't know what to answer to that. His words hurt, but mostly because they were true. And that was hard to admit.
But he didn't seem to be finished. His voice changed again to reveal some real anger. "Who I'm angry at is you. Not for ignoring me, or for not caring me, or not loving me, which were issues to me when I was fourteen, I mean now it seams I never had a chance, did I? If my bare existence was enough for you to hate me, how should I have been able to change that? You know what, it's a real eye opener this stay to the past, I mean there were some things, I still had hope on, like stopping Wyatt from turning evil, or seeing my mother caring for me at least when I'm inside her stomach, but instead it gave me a real good idea of realism now."
He paused shortly, but not long enough for his parents to say something. They probably wouldn't have anyway, even if they had had enough time, but they were too stunned and hurt by the harsh words, than to be able to respond.
"What I'm angry at you for is something else. Lying to me. All those years, when I was little, you always pretended to love me, always said things like, "I love you so much, sweetie", or stuff, so that made me believe I had done something wrong when you stopped doing that. I believed it was my fault. But instead, you just dropped the act, you just showed me, what you were feeling all along. You know, if you had always behaved like that it wouldn't have hurt so much maybe. Maybe than it would have turned out differently after my fourteenth birthday", he said.
Actually that was an exaggeration. He knew if they had always acted that way he probably wouldn't have even gotten to the age of fourteen. Or he would've turned out even worse, if that was possible. He knew he was hurt easily, so it was probably good they had acted that way before. As much as he hated to admit it, he had had a nice childhood when he was little, and he had loved his parents back then. But he was not willing to give them this credit. But now that he thought about it, he didn't even hate them now. He was just disappointed by them. Very disappointed.
"I… That's not true, I never hated you. It was just a shock when I found out I was pregnant, I wasn't prepared so I acted a little rash I didn't mean it. Past me didn't mean it", Piper pleaded. She knew she had tears in her eyes, but right now she didn't care, she needed to explain it to her child.
"Yeah, right, that's an almighty excuse, isn't it? I didn't mean it. You know how often I've heard that in my life already? Too often. Because every time something bad happens, it's always, I didn't mean it. Can't you just do the things right once? And besides, that is no excuse for reacting that way to being pregnant", he snapped.
He had always hoped he would once get the opportunity to really tell them everything, to really make them see what he had done. But despite everything he had hoped before, it didn't make him feel better. It even made him feel worse. It was one thing, thinking these thoughts, a whole different story saying them out loud. That somehow made it real. Somehow it made the realization he had made long ago sound even more harsh and cruel to him than it had done before. Mommy and Daddy don't love me.
"Please, can't you just give her another chance? This all… I love you. I always did, from the moment I knew about you. I was shocked first, but in my innermost I was always loving you, and I'm sure, no matter what she said, she loves you too. Even though she doesn't know it's you", Piper tried to explain desperately.
"You mean because she doesn't know it's me", Chris said in a more silent voice now.
"What?", Piper asked incredulously.
"She hates me. Just like everyone else on the fucking world does", he stated coldly.
"No she doesn't…", Piper started but Chris cut her off. "How would you know? You've never been to a timeline where I was there, you have no memories of me being there, so how would you know, whether she hates me, or not?"
"She's me, isn't she? I know myself, and I know what you have accomplished in the past, and I'm certain she admires you for that, even though it's hard for her to show. I mean it's just very hard for her to accept Wyatt's going to be evil", Piper said with a little more hope in her voice.
"Right. Go on, explain everything away, of course, I have no idea what the people around me feel towards me, I'm the biggest moron in the galaxy, so please continue analyzing my life as if I've never been there", Chris said with his voice drowning in sarcasm.
"No, no that's not what I meant" Piper said and looked at Leo looking for help.
"Chris, we just want to help you, we want to make things better for you. Just give us a chance", Leo pleaded.
Chris stared at his father in disbelief. This guy just had a talent to say all the wrong things in the wrong situation. "You had you chance", he yelled at them angrily. "You had fourteen years of chance, but you didn't use them, so don't ask for a chance now. I mean, you screwed up in really every aspect, so now you want to screw up even more?"
At this Leo looked to the floor guiltily. But Chris was far from finished. There were some things he had just forgiven when he was fourteen, but that were now that he was older, bothering him to no end.
"2 weeks is a lot of time, don't you think?", he asked casually.
His parents stared at him. Neither of them knew what to respond, but they knew very well, what he was referring to. But he didn't give them a chance to answer and continued right away. "I happened to save my old high school teacher from a demon attack, and she was quite confused to see me, you know? She told me, she thought I was dead. She also told me how she had called you two weeks after my death, with you not even knowing I wasn't there! I mean, of course, I made it so that you couldn't find me that easily, I didn't want to bother you with my death, just as always, everything is my fault. But still, TWO WEEKS!", he yelled.
At this his mother really began to cry. "I … I know there's no excuse for that, but", she said, just to be interrupted by Chris again. "You're damn right, there isn't. I mean, you're so great at making up excuses and stuff, I'm always the one who has to forgive everything, but you know what, I'm tired of it. Other parents can handle two or even more children, too, without screwing up the way you did. They don't always have to ask for forgiveness, they simply don't get their asses in this kind of situations", he yelled.
Actually he just kept on yelling to mask the tears that were slowly running down his cheeks. He hadn't expected this to be so hard, but every bad memory was replaying itself now, and all these thoughts had hurt so much when he had first thought them. Somewhere, deep inside him, there was still the little boy, that only wanted his mommy to love him. He didn't ask for anything but that. And seeing how she didn't still hurt.
"I… I never meant for that to happen. I never meant to hurt you, I love you", his mother whispered. He really wished he could believe that, he wanted to, but experience had taught him otherwise. "You can't imagine the feeling I had on that day… here"
"You know what? I don't think that was because of me. I think it's more likely you only felt so horrible, because I proved to you, you were a bad mother. You wouldn't have given a damn if not for that", he said. But it was in a lot more quiet tone than before. Because this was the thought that hurt the most. He wasn't sure, but probably they could see the tears now.
"That's not true", Piper protested desperately. She braced herself for another round of yelling, but it didn't come. Instead he was tired of yelling and just looked at her with sad eyes.
"I wish I could believe that"
"You can", Piper assured in tears, but she didn't know if he believed her. But then something caught her eye. She stared at the sleeve of his sweat shirt, and underneath it there was… blood.
"What's that", she asked sacredly and rolled up his sleeve to reveal the dozens of cuts all over it, before he could protest.
At this his expression became hard again. "That's none of your business", he said and snatched his arm away from her. He had totally not wanted her to see that. He was definitely not proud of it, but he couldn't get rid of that habit, neither had he ever felt the need to try. But that was private. His own dirty secret.
"Was that a demon?", his father asked. He was really scared of the possible answer and prayed to heaven that it was.
Chris just shot him a steely gaze and said, "No."
"Oh my god, please, you shouldn't do that", Piper said, knowing it sounded not very sophisticated but it was the first thing she could think of.
"Oh should I not?", Chris repeated again full of sarcasm. "In case you haven't noticed, that doesn't concern you, so stay out of my life", he said and glared at both of them.
"Now I believe you wanted to tell me something important? Or was that just a lie, just like most about everything you ever told me?", Chris said with despise for them in his voice. He had had a weak moment, but that was definitely gone now.
Leo realized that this was not the time to talk about the other things anymore. Now he needed to tell him what had been their real cause for traveling here. He didn't want to upset his son even more, because even though he had yelled at both of them and mostly at his mother, Leo knew he had been a lot worse parent than she had.
"Wyatt's coming", he said hesitantly.
For a moment Chris stared at him blankly.
"What?", he asked. This was just way too much for one day.
"Wyatt is coming from the future, he… is very upset about your time-travelling", Leo said. He didn't know what else to say. But he figured it was quite obvious to his son now.
Chris knew it was probably even more confusing for Wyatt than just the idea of time traveling. Wyatt hadn't even known Chris was alive until the evening he had summoned the book away from him. Of course Wyatt was upset now, because he had a very big ego and would never have believed Chris could've hidden from him and then even pull something off like time traveling, most about the only area where Wyatt hadn't secured himself against assaults, because he simply hadn't thought anyone would do that.
And he hated it when someone was more intelligent than him.
"Great", Chris just said. "This is just one of these days where you really regret having gotten out of bed in the morning", he added. That was not something for his parents to answer.
"Oh, I almost forgot, there was one thing I wanted to tell you", Chris said out of a sudden impulse. Both of his parents looked at him curiously.
"I never regretted killing myself. What I did regret was agreeing to be resurrected"
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"Leo! Get your damn blessed ass down here right this second!", Phoebe screamed. As well as she had done for the past five minutes. She was standing in the attic next to Paige who had a very discouraging look on her face. Piper was downstairs taking care of Wyatt, and trying to sort her thoughts.
Phoebe thought it would be best to tell Leo. He needed to know about all this mess, Elder or not, he had a family to take care of, and right now his wife needed him.
Paige looked at Phoebe a little pitifully. "He's not gonna come", she repeated for the third time.
"He has to", Phoebe said, denying the obvious. But she was also getting really angry at her brother in law.
"Leo Wyatt, I know you can hear me, so now listen carefully. You are not going to stay up there letting us handle all this mess, because it's partially your fault. Piper is pregnant, it's yours, and she needs you now!", Phoebe yelled.
"Impressive", Paige commented. At this finally the air in front of her whirled in blue orbs, to reveal a very confused and scared Leo. "What?", he asked in a low voice and looked at the girls in front of him.
"You heard me. And it gets worse", Phoebe said.
"Worse?", Leo asked in disbelief. He had made his wife pregnant but at the same time had no chance to be there to care for the baby. That sounded pretty bad to him, how much worse could it get?
"Yes", Paige confirmed. "Uh, cliffnotes, Piper found out she was pregnant started yelling at Chris for not telling her that detail of the future and then he started yelling back and revealed both that the child is a boy and that he will kill himself at the age of fourteen because he thinks no one loves him. Then Piper and you from apparently the same time Chris came from appeared, future Piper yelled at our Piper for saying such things about her child and then she wanted to talk to Chris and now she and future you are talking to Chris, and Piper is right now telling her belly over and over again that she didn't mean it", Paige summarized in a very short time so that even Phoebe who knew everything that was going on had problems to follow her thoughts.
Leo just stared at the two of them for a minute, paralyzed by all the sudden information and Phoebe was amazed by the size Leo's eyes had now. She didn't even know they could get as big.
But before he could do or say anything about all this, the wall behind him started to glow bluish and a triquetra shaped time portal opened up to make the day even more complicated than it already was.
Out of it stepped a tall blonde man in black clothes who was wearing a belt with a sword on it. A sword that looked oddly familiar to everyone present.
He looked around, saw the three adults standing there staring at him in utter confusion, smiled and nodded towards them.
"Hello. Can I talk to Chris?", he asked in a polite tone. Despite his appearance he seemed to be in a quite good mood. But inexplicable to the three of them his friendly grin sent shivers up their spines. Somehow it reminded Phoebe of a poisonous snake smiling at its victim knowing in some seconds it would case its early demise.
Paige sighed in frustration and said, referring to his earlier statement, "Get in line"
He kept on smiling. "I'm sorry aunt Paige, but it is a matter of importance that can not be delayed. I need to talk to Chris immediately"
For a second Paige's thoughts were only focused on his statement of this being of importance, but then something else caught her attention. "Aunt Paige?", she repeated in confusion.
"Yes. I'm Wyatt from the future", he said and he was still smiling which was slightly unnerving all the people present.
"But… but Chris said you were evil", Phoebe stuttered not understanding. He seemed to be somehow weird but he didn't seem evil to her at the moment. But she couldn't get a read off him which was always worrying her.
"Oh yes that's right", he answered and he was still smiling, which somehow caused the desire in Paige to hit him in the mouth. Hard. She resisted that urge since the content of his words just seemed to ridiculous to her right now. But he just kept on smiling, completely oblivious to his family's disbelieving stares. "Would you call Chris now?", he asked.
Phoebe was a little scared by his revelation to be evil without even caring about the consequences. Her first reaction was just to comply. "Chris!", she called out.
He orbed in wearing a very annoyed look on his face. Right after him future Leo and Future Piper materialized. When past Piper heard all the movement upstairs, she decided to go there as well.
"Great. What do you want?", Chris asked Wyatt in a very unfriendly tone.
"Always the direct approach, right, Chris?", Wyatt asked amusedly. "well, I came here to kill you", he declared still smiling and still annoying everyone around. When he said that in this friendly tone everyone stared at him in shock, even past Piper who had just entered the room and had no real idea what was going on.
Chris was the only one who didn't seem shocked. "Fine", he said in a voice bare of emotions. He put his hands up in a non threatening gesture and said, "Go ahead"
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A/N Muahahahahaha wow, I never typed that at the end of a chapter, but it feels good. Don't worry, I'll try not to make a habit out of this.
But wow, 20 reviews for just one chapter, this is a record for me, thanks so much guys. Here personal thanks for those who need one in my opinion.
Nikki14u: Thanks a lot. I did even more emotions in this chapter, now they finally deal with all the things they never got to say. Hope you liked it.
Aurora nightstar: I could've finished this chapter earlier actually if I hadn't talked to you, cause then I was just going to write on, instead I talked to you, but it's been fun I think.
Phoebe x-15: Tja, das ist bisher meine lieblingsstory von denen die ich habe, inlusive dem ersten teil, da macht es mir auch am meisten spaß an diesen hier zu schreiben, deswegen bin ich so schnell. Hoffe das neue kapitel gefällt dir.
Lonnie: Yeah he's 22 here.
Missing Whisper: well if I had killed off Wyatt in the prequel there would be no point in doing a sequel at all, would there? Well, I hope you like the way I continued it.
Catty: I know, I hate cliffies, too, but I love writing them.
Cassi: Your question is answered very detailed in the prequel.
Shadowhisper: Oh they will find out, I just haven't decided when yet.
Didaskaleinophobia: Your nick is really hard to type, you know that? Well I hope the update was soon enough for you.
EosHeliosSelene: Yeah I thought so.
Mizunderstood writer: Was that soon enough?
Everyone: Please tell me your thoughts on one question, should this story have a happy end someday, or should it lead into yet another sequel where Chris is still miserable?