So Gone

by Wanted

Sometimes growing up happens at the oddest point in our lives. And when we look back we see how much we've changed and how great we've become. When it starts as somewhere that wasnt home and became mine I wonder how I ever though I could be wrong for here

6. First Days Suck

So Gone

Chapter Six: First Day Sucks

Disclaimer: See First Chapter. Added: None of the songs belong to me, I'm just using them cause they rock, they also show the time line for how long it took.

What time is it?" I thought rubbing my aching head Gawd my head don't tell me I got a hang over. I cured under my breath dragging my hand though my meshed hair. Rubbing my eyes I glanced half way at my bedside clock/calendar. It read September 4, 9: 28 am.

Something in my mind said there was something I was suppose to be doing right now but I just could figure it out. Then it clicked school, it was my first day of school. Gawd help me I was going to be late.

I was scrambling out of bed when an arm snagged my waste. Rolling so could see the person who was attached to the arm. I wasn't too shocked to see a mop of tousled orange hair. Blinking up at me was a pair of sleep encrusted pale green eyes.

"Morning Saku," Brooklyn half smirked at me to tired I guess to do more.

"I got school I need to get up so let go,"

"Na uh, stay" he pulled me from my half sitting state to being sprawled over him my face inches from his. It was then I noticed how very naked we both were and just how 'awake' Brooklyn was.

"Stay, they won't mind if you skip, besides" he angled his head so hi lips were almost touching mine, "I won't get to see you for a very long time not till like," he paused to think, "Like next month. And that's a very long time." He then took his time kissing me; instead of he started at my ear and worked his way to my mouth. (A/N: If you don't like Brooklyn get over it, I love Brooklyn. Plain and simple.)

Once Brookie was done trying to convince me to stay I stood, stretched and flexed making sure Brooklyn was watching me. "I still anit staying," I grinned at him.

"Well do I at least get sex before you go?" he smirked at me trying to grab at me again which I danced away from. Once safely away from Brook's hands I responded.

"Sex with you takes all day, your like a damn rabbit so no."

Even though I wasn't in the room I could feel him pouting. But I didn't turn to look at him; instead I picked out something for me to wear. In the end I pulled out this all black out fit.

"Well I quickie wont take all day, and hey most girl like a guy with stamina."

I wasn't even going to bother to respond to that. That's what he wanted so I wasn't going to bother. Instead I looked at the out that I picked out.

It was a black biki like top with a black and grey button up and a black boot cut jeans that I had bought just before we left New York. Grabbing the selected items I wondered aimlessly into the bathroom that I had discovered in one of my vomit runs the day before. (A/N: Vomit run- During hangovers the process of regaining conciseness and running to the toilet to vomit)

Once the water had started running I was deaf to the world only focusing on the hat water flowing from the shower head. I was so busy being content in the hot water I didn't even notice Brooklyn creep into the shower with me till he bit down lightly on my shoulder, needless to say the former no turned into a yes a very loud shouted yes. (1)

Later that day I was sitting in lunch having been stupidly late for school only showing up to catch the middle of third period. It was now fifth, my lunch period, and I had four more periods to go before I could leave (2). I had brought with me some of my story that I was writing so that's what I was doing, half eating with my head phones playing "Saying Goodbye" by Sugarcult loudly in my ears. It was so loud I didn't hear Yumi come up till me till she spoke though I knew she was there from feeling her behind me.

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

"So where have you been?" Yumi asked plopping down in the seat next to me at lunch. I had my headphone on so I could hardly hear her but I knew what she was asking.

She thinks about herself and cares about nobody else
because the only friends she has all put her down
They hate her when she's beautiful and even more when she's a fool
They talk behind her back when it's her birthday

"Brook cut off my alarm did wake up till about the end of second period." I shrugged looking up from what I had been writing. I growled at her, I really hate being interrupted when I working on an idea and here is trying to have a conversation with me. Even if she heard me she ignored me and keeps talking.

Every time they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
And every time she makes a friend, the vicious cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back

"I saw Aki earlier she said you didn't show till the middle of third, you were to busy screwing Adams to come to school he's half the reason your still in 12th grade" Yumi accused stuffing a French fry into her mouth.

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

"So what, what goes on between the two of us is none of your business first off and you should of come and woke me up when you realized I wasn't up before you left," I snarled. This was getting to be a tedious argument, my and Brooklyn sex life was none of her business.

She's saying goodbye, she's wasted all her lonely tear drops
Saying goodbye, she's used up all her lonely tear drops now

Every time they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away from here
And every time she makes a friend, the vicious cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back

"Humph, like I want to see Adam's naked only you do," she rolled her eyes. I would have said something else but I sensed someone behind me and didn't want this to be a public thing. Instinctively sniffing the air I knew who it was before I turned around. I smelled chocolate, musk, fall or what I think was fall, and something sweet. In the span of two days I knew who was behind me just by smell.

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

She's wasted all her lonely tear drops now

"Kai," I smiled up at him blinking innocently as the song played out in my ears. He swung into the seat across from when I noticed who else was with him.

"Gee you only see him, I'm hurt." Ryanna pouted looking hurt as she fell, literally, into Kai's lap.

"Hey Ryanna," both Yumi and I said at the same time.

"Ryan, no one but my grandfather calls me Ryanna" she grinned and swiped some of Yumi's fries who made an indigent sound.

"So I hear your working for Hilde now," Ryan said shifting so she was leaning over the table to talk to Yumi.

"Yup, I start today after school. I can't wait to start playing and to start to start teaching other people to play," Yumi said excitedly.

"Check the dumpster at closer for any dead bodies," I said softly under my breath so only Kai heard me. He snickered when he heard me.

"Not a people person?" the blunette whispered to me. I watched him shift Ryan so he was leaning behind her so neither Yumi or Ryan could hear us.

"No, not a children person, once on a summer job she almost strangled his little boy who kept call her name everyday all day for about two weeks, it was so funny but I managed to talk her out of killing," I said than after so though I said, "Though now that I think about I would of killed him too."

Kai grinned at me, gawd he so cute I thought as a small smirk made its way on my face. "Well then we'll have to warn Hilde to keep your sister away from little kids."

Before I could say anything there was a high pitched squeal behind me and I could see Kai's eyes widen I think either in fear or shock. I turned around just in time to see this red head come flying towards us. She literally screamed CHEERLEADER, it was scary. Before she got over to us I had enough time to ask Kai who she was.

"Ex girlfriend turned stalker." he mumbled hiding his head in Ryan back who just patted his shoulder.

"Kai baby," the red head squealed throwing her arms around Kai's neck, Ryan had just enough time to move or she would have ended up on the floor.

"Hello Madison," Kai said as he tried to pry the girl Madison arm from around his neck, when he got her arm's from around his neck she just took it as an invitation to sit in his lap.

"Madison, I'm kinda busy can you come back later?" Kai asked his voice was strained.

"But Kai baby, I haven't seen you in a whole two days don't you miss me?" she pouted, I frowned if that's what I looked like every time I pouted I swear I'll never do it again. Before Kai could say anything though Yumi opened her big mouth.

"Obviously he doesn't miss you, can't you see he wants you gone," Yumi rolled her eyes. I think the red head just noticed that there were other people at the table because her head snapped up so face I'm surprised it didn't break.

"Of course Kai wants to see me," she rolled her eyes as if it were impossible that someone would or could dislike her presence.

"Gee well, he sure doesn't look to happy to see you?" this time it was Ryan who spoke eyeing the girl, Madison, with bitter distaste.

Madison sneered at her nose scrunched up in disgust, "No need to be jealous of us Ryanna, it's not your fault he like me more than his own sister," she spit out Ryan's name as if it were a curse. I could see this was going to lead to a very nasty row, past history that I didn't want to even be bothered with, so I intervened. Standing up I made my way to the other side of the table where both girls where in the others face.

"Ok people, people," I grabbed Ryan as she got up to keep her away from the red head, "Please be mature, I'm working Damnit and your disturbing me, if you must fight do it else where," I growled to out the ending looking pointy at Ryan.

"Stay the fuck out this," Madison snapped trying to get at Ryan face who as on the other side of me thankfully. She made a swipe at Ryan but instead hit me making me angry. Closing my eyes and counting to ten I opened them knowing that they had gone from there normal shinning silver to a dark burning black color.

"Back the fuck off chicky, if you want to see Kai do it elsewhere," I snarled, less than four hours into my school day and I'm already making enemies. I turned to Kai who had moved to hold Ryan back.

"You take her far away before I hurt her," I said my voice a deadly calm that I only used when truly pissed. Kai must have known I was angry because he grabbed Madison by her arm and dragged her away.

I fell into the chair that Kai had earlier sat in and closed my eyes. I didn't understand why I was so mad all understood was that I didn't like that girl and she should steer clear of me if she wanted to keep all her pretty white teeth. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I swatted it away.

"I'm sorry," I heard from beside me.

"Its ok Ryan, its not your fault, stupid chick shouldn't of come over here if she knew you two didn't like each other," I sighed and waited a few minute with my eyes close for my eyes to change back to there right colors.

While my eyes where closed Yumi and Ryan had picked up the conversation that they where having before and this time I listen just to have something to do.

"Well I work there Saturday's and Sundays most the times Mondays and Friday at the counter; I'm great at math, Aki obvious works there cause its her parents shop she's there everyday, there's these to guys Wyatt and Joseph who work there too." Ryan stopped and I felt her look at me even though my eyes where closed., "Joseph likes to play pranks on people so I'd advise you watch him and any drinks you bring carefully, Wyatt he's…" she considered her words, "He's clingy I guess is the word, if he admires you he'll follow you around trying to impress you its ok at first but after a while it gets annoying." She finally said.

"Oh yeah and T works there, gawd how could I forget about him," she laughed a bit but when she saw Yumi's murderous look she stopped, "I take it you don't like him all that much?"

"He's an ass hole that's all," Yumi mumbled glaring at the air.

"Well, you probably won't see him all that much he works in the back doing stock and inventory, stuff like that." Ryan said shrugged.

I looked at them both now so they where aware of it and I wasn't hiding, "I don't even see what the big deal is Mimi, it's not like he didn't anything to you." I said gathering my papers up.

"Well it's not like he's given me a reason to like him," Yumi muttered watching me.

"What?" I snapped, her gaze was making me uncomfortable.

"Nothing, nothing I'll talk to you later," Yumi waved over her shoulder just as the bell rung signaling the end of lunch.

"Hey, Yumi wait up," Ryan called after my sister as she ran to catch up. A small smile wormed onto my face, gathering my things I left the cafeteria and made my way to my next class.

"Hey Sakura, slow down," I turned around and saw Kai running to keep up with me.

"Hi," I continued to walk looking at my map trying to make heads or tails of it.

"Where are you off to in such a hurry," Kai had to quicken his pace to keep up with me, and I had no intention of slowing down in fact I was trying to get away from him.

"Study hall," I glanced out of the corner of my eyes as him as I turned the map around again trying to read it, geography had never been my strong suit. I was busy trying to understand the map I never noticed as Kai's hand shoot out and grab it and my program card.

"Hey, give that back," I reached for; annoyed he took it from me. I narrowed my eyes as he keeps it out of my reach reading it.

"Hum that's odd," Kai said completely ignore me stopping making me stop so I could get my stuff back.

"What's odd," I had given up on trying getting the map and program card back till he was ready.

"Nothing it's just you have the most odd schedule, I mean look here all you have really is science, history and a whole lot of English, you don't have math anywhere on here" he said not even looking at me.

"Well gee that's nice so can I have my schedule back now cause I don't want to be late again today," I crossed my arms over my chest glaring half heartily.

"You know if I did know any better I'd say you where trying to get rid of me," the blunette said starting walking again.

"Well gee I wonder maybe cause I am," I mumbled following after him and that's all we said to one another till he stopped in front of a room.

"Here we all senior study hall," Kai said opening the door just as the late bell rang. For a brief second I felt bad for brushing him off but then I realized I hadn't asked for his help, whatever.

I took a quick scan of the room. It was a library like room with computers lining the walls by the back window where I was heading to take a seat and type up my story that I had been writing during lunch. Sitting down I pulled out my headphones and cracked up the cd that I had made. Flipping though the songs I found one that I liked and started working.

"I'm holding on waiting for your call
it's simple but I can't explain this
I'm sinking down I feel like I could die
I'm falling off I don't know why"

Softly I sang tapping away at the keys; I was so into the song I never noticed Kai come and sit in the seat to he left of me.

Kai's POV

She had a beautiful voice I'd give her that. Not like other girls I knew who tried to sing or could sing for that matter, just like when she talked her voice was dry like she need water but soft I don't know it was hard to explain all I knew was I like the way she sounded. Half heartedly I open the book that I had brought with me; it was the first day so there was no homework or anything for me to need to do now.

I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day

American Hi-Fi, Another perfect day. I knew this song; Ryan had the tendency to play her music loudly. It was an ok song I guess not really my kind of song though to slow.

So I might try to leave it all behind
I know tomorrows not so bright now
I'll say goodbye cause nothing good can last

You wear and figured no where fast
and today I don't know how too keep it all inside
but I guess I'll let it slide

About half way though the same paragraph that I had been reading for the past gawd knows who long I closed the book and just listen to Sakura's voice. I must have zoned out watching her cause next thing I know I hear a ringing sound like of a phone. Jumping I blink my eyes a couple of times trying to refocus.

"Miss Ebony, cell phones are prohibited in schools it is my responsibility as a teacher to confiscate said phone," Ms. Judy said, she was in charge of our study hall period today. I have her for Home Economics, she was cool very strict but only when she had to be.

"I'm sorry, I forgot to turn it off it wont happen again but I think this may be important." Sakura explained.

"Make it quick and if this happens again I will take away your phone.

"Yes Miss," she turned away from me and faced the window but I could hear her. Part of me wanted to turn away thinking I shouldn't listen but a bigger part of me listen in anyway.

Sakura's POV

"Brooklyn what are you doing I'm in school," I hissed into the phone.

"Nothing I'm just telling you me and Hitoshi are heading back to NY," Brooklyn told me, even though the phone I knew he had his normal careless smile on him face.

"Fine, fine, fine, I'll see you some other time I guess right?" I asked trying to keep the sadness out of my voice. I would miss him no matter what I said. Not just the sex not that I'm complaining, but the movies, us buying random books and reading them together, his opinion on my work, him just being around even with his annoying qualities.

"Yeah you know it, I and Hito will be back out to see his rent's around Christmas."

That's when I realized that this wasn't the first time that Brooklyn had been here. I fact now that I think Tyson was Hitoshi's brother and Brooklyn had met Hitoshi family once or twice a few years back. I wondered why he never mentioned that he'd been here before. I must have been thinking for a long time because Brooklyn had started humming the Jaws theme song. He only did that when I spaced out.

"What, what I'm here," I hated that song gave me the willies.

"Nothing, just don't like being ignored," Brooklyn said.

"Yes you do, you go out of your way to get people to ignore you so you can do as you please." I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see me.

"Well, whatever, so what where you think so hard about anyway?" I heard sheets rustling so I'm guessing he was getting out of my bed.

"You've been here before haven't you?" I turned to look at Ms. Judy who was watching me and tapped her watch.

"Yeah, Hito's family lives out here," he said it as if I was supposed to know that, which I did but no thanks to him.

"Oh, ok, look I gotta go the teacher wants me off the phone," I explained.

"Sure so see you later?"

"You bet, you coming out here for Christmas or you going to see the 'rents?" It was a dumb question seeing as Brooklyn never willingly went to se his parents but I always asked.

"You know I'm not, I'll be out here with Hitoshi and you now, and besides I think I could seek away a few days for Halloween" It was like a custom since Brooklyn started college that he spent Christmas and Halloween with me and Yumi. Partially when my parents could not come home which was every year.

"Cool, so I'll see you next month," I turned away from the front of the class cause Ms. Judy was glaring hard at.

"Love ya kay, don't go break any other guys heart while I'm gone," he teased, I could hear him suck in a breath and I knew he had a cigarette in his mouth, and people wondered where I got the habit from.

"You know you're the only guy for me," I grinned even though he couldn't see me and glanced back at the teacher and motioned that I'd be off my phone in a second.

"Love ya later," I didn't wait for his response just hung up.

Kai's POV

Well there goes any chance of us having a relationship, or me just sleeping with her. I scowled at my book now, though seeing as I'm almost always scowling it was no different. I stared at the book hard as if trying to burn a hole though the book. I jump when a hand touched my shoulder. I turned to tell Sakura to leave me alone but it was on the other side of me. I looked as saw Miyami standing above me looking worried.

"What?" I forced my voice neutral, no need to show my anger.

"You look like someone just killed your dog," she slides into the seat next to me.

"Nothing, its nothing," When in doubt deny, deny, deny. I wasn't sure why I was annoyed but I was.

"Hey, Miyami," Sakura waved at her from next to me.

"Yoder, so how you are liking your first day?" Miyami asked taking the seat in front of Sakura.

"Its ok I guess I didn't actually get here till about my third period." Sakura said, she looked kinda embarrassed about that.

"Why what happened? Dreading the first day or something?" Miyami's full attention on Sakura.

"Well not really, more Brooklyn woke up before I could leave," I watched to blush on her face darken and spread down her neck.

"Oh," Miyami brows creased.

Sakura gave a short laugh, "Why is that everyone's shocked about me having sex," she flipped her hair over her shoulder and out of her face but parley missed my face. Again I was annoyed that she had, had sex with Adams. It was like a possessive jealous thing and I'd never met her before two days ago. It made me nervous to say the least that some girl I'd never met was causing so many new things to go off in my head.

"It's not the sex that's odd, just the person. Cause believe me I enjoy it and talking about it as much as the next person maybe so more but Brooklyn?" Miyami said confused.

"Well it was kinda cause our 'rents wanted us to get married so we figured we'd get the whole sex thing out the way," Sakura said shrugging, "But it, we didn't work out too well, I don't know why never cared were friends and we still have sex sometimes but its more or the physical companionship then anything."

Miyami nodded slightly and they went on to different topic talking and getting to know each other better which was great for me cause I learned some things about Sakura. Like why all the teachers called her Miss. Ebony and not Ms. What ever her last name was. Apparently her parents where some important people and people tended to treat her different because of her name. that made me wonder who her parents where cause my mother was Co CEO of Biovolt and my father was one of the top attorneys in the state, yes people treated me a little different because of it but nothing that had me weary of sharing who they where. I also found out much both girls surprise they'd both gone to the Alexander Institute for art, music and creative learning (3). They had been in the same year and everything and knew a few of the same people. They where shocked that they'd never met but then it became clear why. Sakura had left the march of Miyami's last year and she hadn't really been coming to school that year though she didn't say why or what happen.

The two girls continued to while I half listened tuning them out to do my own thinking till the bell rang. While I packed up my things I saw both her and Miyami talking by the door. Gathering my things I made my way over to them.

"So of you come by I'll be more than happy to help you with you math, its not like I probably don't know it," I heard Sakura saying. Math wasn't Miyami's favorite or best subject. Mostly I help her when she needed it but this year I wasn't in her math class.

"I still can't believe you know all this stuff," Miyami said as she put some things in her bag.

"What does she know?" I asked.

"Oh Hi Kai, I forgot you where in there with us you where so quite," Sakura said grinning.

"Sup, so what where you talking about?" I repeated my earlier question.

"I was look at Sakura's schedule and saw she had no math classes and I was wondering why, turns out she pasted all her math classes last year and only," Miyami explained but started to trail off at the end and look at Sakura who was staring at something behind me. Glancing over my shoulder was who at first glance I thought to be Madison but upon further looking I realized it was her twin Jordon.

"That's Jordon," I said to Sakura who was still staring at the other girl.

"Twins?" she made it a question.

"Yeah, Jordon's nicer than Madison," I explained and looked back at the girl in question only to find her not at the door any more.

Sakura just made a sound of understanding before wandering off in the opposite direction.

"Where are you going?" Miyami called after her when Sakura started down the hall. But she didn't answer simply waved over her shoulder. Miyami cocked her head to the side before turning to me, "That was odd don't you think?"

I just nodded. Some how I don't think even if I tried would I be able to understand the pink haired girl.

Sakura's POV

"Are you going to follow me home or are you waiting for something," I asked as I closed my locker. For the last three periods the bitcher of the Parker twins had been following me.

"I know who you are," she snapped at me, "You think you can come in here and flash your money and steal MY guy you got another thing coming," she said walking around in front of me blocking my path.

"And this guy would be?" I was playing dumb on purpose cause this was just too funny.

"Don't act stupid I saw how you were all up on Kai today and how you flaunted yourself like a slut at him at his party the other day," She snapped at me pushing me backward when I tired to get around her.

"Look here doesn't push me again or I will hurt you," I snapped shoving her away from me and walked around her. Without glancing back I made it about half way down the hall before she decided to do something extremely stupid. But some people are just really hard headed. Isn't that the pot calling the kettle black?

Normal POV

"You're just a stupid spoiled rich whore like your mother," Madison shouted after her.

Unbeknown to her that she had cross a line that she shouldn't have

Instead of acting as she'd normally do Sakura turned and with out breaking stride socked Madison once in the face so hard she stumbled backwards and would have fallen if Sakura hadn't grabbed her. Sakura twisted Madison's arm behind her back pinning it up by her neck Sakura dug her knee into the taller girls back.

"You stupid, stupid girl you couldn't just shut the fuck up could you, you had to have some stupid to say," Sakura snarled her eyes turning from there normal shining silver to a cold almost evil looking black.

"What cant take the truth," Madison said, even now she couldn't keep her mouth shut so Sakura jerked her arm in an odd direction certain that if she pulled hard enough it'd come out of the socket. Madison cried out in pain and tried to wiggle free of Sakura grasp but all it did was pull on her arm more making it hurt.

Somewhere in Sakura mind she thought about how much she enjoyed watching the stupid girl struggle and be in pain. The second the thought went through her mind she jerked away from Madison throwing the girl into the lockers. Stumbling away Sakura never glanced back as she ran as fast as she could as far away from the fallen girl as she could. She was so busy running she wasn't looking where she was going and ran right into someone.

"Désolé," Sakura stammered so confused that her English was failing her. She stood shakily and with out looking at who she had fallen into was about to make a run for it again when someone grabbed her. On instinct she turned and swung only to have her punch caught. Blinking out of the haze that she was in she realized that it was Yumi who was holding her arm. Relived to have fold someone to talk to she tackled Yumi, not her normal I'm happy to see you, more of a I'm so tired help me sort. Her momentum took them to the floor but Sakura never seem too noticed as she started babbling away in French.

"Oh dieu j'allais tuer je sais que j'étais, oh dieu ce qu'arrivant je veux maman je veux maman"

"Whoa, whoa, English Kura I cant speak French that well," Yumi said trying to pull her normally more composed sister off of her but Sakura would have none of that rapped her legs around Yumi and clung to her like she was a giant teddy bear.

Sakura repeated herself again slower but still sounding hysterical. Yumi blink and tried to comprehend what she'd just said and when she did, she tilted Sakura's head up and saw her eyes where completely black with almost no white left. Putting the pieces together she realized why Sakura wanted there mother.

"Oh Kura, its ok, everything will be ok," Yumi soothed rubbing Sakura back. She almost forgot they had a crowd until she heard a cough. Looking up she saw a small group of students had gathered trying to see what had happen.

"GO THE FUCK AWAY THERES'T NOTHING FOR YOU TOO SEE HERE," Yumi shouted send the most evil glare she could muster. Almost everyone scurried away save for Miyami, Shahero and Amber who had been with Yumi when Sakura ran into them.

"What happen?" Shahero asked looking down at the two girls. Seeing as she did speak French she had no idea what had happen. She vaguely knew from Miyami's transiting Sakura words but Miyami hadn't spoke French in a long time so she was kind of rusty.

"I'm not completely sure myself but I'll find out, can you give me a hand," Yumi asked struggling to stand.

"Come on Kura-chan, I need to stand up," Yumi soothed. Slowly as if it was painful Sakura uncurled herself from Yumi.

"Je suis désolé (4)" Sakura said softly still speaking French.

"Its ok, come on do you think you can take your bike or no?" Yumi asked, because she had to work that day she had taken the car and Sakura taken her bike.

"I, I think walk," Sakura said her English broken.

Yumi gave a small smile and watched as Sakura composed herself and walked down the hall towards the front of the school. Sighing she turned and faced the other three girls.

"What was that about?" Amber asked repeating Shahero's earlier question.

"Um, why don't we walk and talk, it'll go faster that way," Yumi said with a sigh as she walked ahead not waiting knowing that they'd follow.

"Sakura's prone to these fits; I'm not sure why but sometimes she gets really angry and does stuff that she'd normally not do. Most of the time myself or Brooklyn be around and she'd take it out on us. Where both trained in martial arts so we can counter just about anything that she throws at us." Yumi begin telling them as if it where a story sure they where behind her even though they hadn't said anything.

"Twice neither myself nor Brooklyn where around and she got mad. Some dumb girl at our old school made some passing comment I can't remember what but it was something along the lines of calling Sakura a slut who slept with other peoples boyfriends and girlfriends. Sakura just brushed it off but the other girl kept going saying worst and worst things following Sakura around all day and finally at the end of the she said something so vial I wont even repeat it and Sakura snapped, she broke the girl arm in three places and bloody her nose," Yumi continued, "The other time was when she and Brooklyn had gotten in a fight about something that hadn't been Sakura business and I had sided with Brooklyn for once so she wasn't talking to either of us, it was a bit before Christmas so we where home in New York. She had gone off walking and some guy made a vulgar comment and she snapped, he won't ever breathe regularly again. With the first incident she got suspended and a month's detention, so many people saw the girl harassing Sakura most people felt she deserved it. And the guy was a repeat sex offender," Yumi said with a shrug.

"So what does that have to do with what happen just now? And why was she speaking French?" Miyami asked hitching her bag up on her shoulder.

"French is Kura's first language when she really distressed she forgets her English. When she has these fits her eyes, they go black and the white gets consumed by her iris." Yumi explained.

"Wow, and no one knows why this happens?" Shahero asked she was known to be fast tempered but nothing like that at least not normally.

"Well me and Brooklyn have this theory that because she bottles everything up something's just rub her the wrong way at the wrong time and she'll snap. Sometime the same thing happens to Brooklyn only he'll not remember. That and his are a whole lot less violent."

"What do you mean; Brooklyn goes through the same thing?" Miyami asked having met the carrot topped teenager several times seeing as he sometimes came home with Hitoshi.

"Well he just kinda sulks, I don't know the correct word for it but he gets really sad and when approached though he gets really violent. He has more control over his fits than Sakura cause he's been having his from as far back as he can remember," Yumi explained.

"Sakura are you down there?"

Sakura's head snapped up and looked at the stairs to find Ms. Nadico standing on the stairs.

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't realize that anyone was home," she apologized her hand twitching as she looked around for the ashtray that she knew she placed somewhere.

"Oh I just got in and heard all the noise I want to make sure that everything was alright," she continued down the stairs and found a seat on Sakura's desk chair. In the short time that Sakura'd been there the only thing that wasn't a wreck in room was the desk and the chair that went to it.

"Oh sorry Ms. Nadico I, I'm just looking for something," Sakura said finally find the ashtray that she'd put down and the cigarettes that she'd placed next to them.

"I didn't know that you smoked," her comment wasn't scorning or anything like that more of just a general observation.

"It's not a problem is it because I'll go out if it bothers you," Sakura said quickly just about to sub out the cigarette when Ms. Nadico stopped her.

"It's not a problem at all my husband, god rest his soul, use to smoke so I'm sort of use to it,"

"I don't normally smoke, only when really stressed, I buy cigarette's and then hide them from myself in the hopes that by the time that I find them I'll no longer need them," Sakura babbled find the elusive pack of cigarettes which she promptly lit up and inhaled deeply.

"You know those things are going to be the death of you?" Emma said walking around picking up the scattered clothing and folding them.

"Yeah, yeah, everyone keeps telling me that," Sakura said relaxing now that she had a cigarette.

"So why do you smoke?" Emma asked continuing to fold the cloths.

"It's the only society acceptable form of suicide," Sakura said with a shrugging flicking her lighter open and close.

Emma looked up startled with the teen's confession. At Emma shocked expression Sakura laughed shaking her head.

"No I'm not suicidal, not that much a fan of pain in anything that's not sex related," she explained with a small smile.

"Oh," Emma's eyes where slightly wide but she went back to the task of cleaning up the girls room.

"You know you don't have to clean up after me, I'll get to it sooner or later you know," Sakura said titling her head to the side so her hair fell loose over her shoulder.

"Oh well I don't mind I enjoy cleaning," Emma said though she did put the cloths down.

"So aren't you going to ask why I was stressed?" Sakura asked sitting up on her desk and propped her feet up on the chair. Reaching next to her she picked up a remote and pressed some buttons. Then out the stereo that sat in the corner played the Gorillaz "November Has Come".

Slow it down some
No split clown
Bum, your old hit sound dumb
Hold it now, crown 'im
Where you found them at
Got 'em 'round town
Coulda drowned in it
Woulda floated bloated
Voted sugar coated
Loaded hip shooter
Draw for the poor
Free coffee at the banks
Hit through the straw
None more for me, thanks
That blanks the raw
That dang sure stank lit
Sank passed the pit for more hardcore prank spit
Crank it on blast
Roll past front street
Blew the whole spot
Like some old ass with skunk meat
These kids is too fast
Juiced off a junk treat
Who could get looser off a crunk or a funk beat?

Sakura bobbed her head to the first verse as she mouth the familiar lines.

"Well I always felt that people talk better when never questioned," Emma said with a smile.

Sakura just snorted; inhaling from her cigarette she lit her lighter watching the glowing orange flames.

"My mum and dad died about a year ago come November," Sakura started, "Me and Mimi where home for thanksgiving, we where in England that year for school, mum was in Milan like always on some photo shot or another, and dad was promoting some concert somewhere in France or something I cant remember," she sighed as she snubbed out her almost burned out cigarette.

She lit another one before continuing, "There was this rumor apparently going around that the reason that my parents where always in different countries and never together was because my mum was cheating on my dad. I remember when I found out I was still at school, I got in this huge fight I wasn't suspended but that was just pure luck."

Something's starting today
Where did he go? why you wanted to be?
Well you know, november has come
When it's gone away..

"Anyway when I got to NY I call my mum, some guy answer, it was 2 o clock in the morning in Milan, I got so mad when she finally got to the phone I demanded that she tell me was it true, I think she was shocked that I had heard cause she didn't answer, I yelled for so long at her, I called her every name I could think of in every language that I could think of."

Something's starting today
Where did he go? why you wanted to be?
Well you know, november has come
When it's gone away..

"After I finished, she tried to explain telling me that the guy was just a friend, yada, yada ya, but I was so mad I was hurt, betrayed, and just down right livid. I told her I hated her and hung up." She sighed and subbed out another cigarette and started on another one.

(baha) Can you dig it like a spigot
My guess is yes you can like, can I kick it? wicked
Liquor shot
If u happy and u know it
As you clap your hands to the thick snot of a poet flow it
Broke a pen and i'm in cope hymen
Dope or rhymin all worth it then
The hope diamond
Required off the blackmarket
Or wire tappin
Couldn't target a jar of spit
The rapid fire spark lit
zzzzt!

"I called my dad right after that. I wanted to know if he knew what his wife was up to, after the phone call I couldn't even call her my mum. He seemed just as shocked that I was calling. Turns out that he knew. He said that too, 'Yes I know what your mothers been doing and who's been spending the nights with her'. That just added to my anger."

A rapper bug zapper
And it don't matter after if they's a thug or a dapper.
Plug yer trap or it's maximum exposure
The beast got family in numbers asking 'em for closure
Aw, send 'em a gun an tell em clean it
Then go get the nun who said her son didn't mean it
She wore a filled-in thong
A billabong
And said, nah, fo'realla
The Villain on a Gorilla jawn?

"In my mind, once you take marriage vows there for life, end of discussion. Cheating just not something you do, if your not happy talk to your partner and if it really isn't going to work then get a divorce but don't sneak around behind your partners back. After I hung up on my dad I went out. I called up Brooklyn and got so drunk I can't even remember what I did. For the next week all I did was go to ever club I could think of get drunk and mess around with Brooklyn," she sighed again and looked at her hands before again snubbing out the cigarette this time she did light a new one.

Something's starting today
Where did he go? why you wanted to be?
Well you know, november has come
When it's gone away..

Something's starting today
Where did he go? why you wanted to be?
Well you know, november has come
When it's gone away..

"After a while Brook managed to talk some sense into me and I went home, it had been two weeks and I had to get back to school in about three days. When I got home I had expected my parents and Yumi to be somewhere but they weren't. So I went up to my room and went to sleep. I don't know what woke me but when I did get up Yumi was standing in my door way. She looked so worn and tired. She just kinda looked at me I was about to ask what happen when she told me, 'They're dead, Kura, they're really dead,' and she kinda collapsed and she was sobbing, in all the years I've know Yumi she's never cried once so this was shocking. I had no idea what she was talking about but I was out of bed in a shot shaking her asking who she was talking about and she said 'mum and dad are dead, they where in a plane crash.' It took me an hour to get the whole story out of her." Sakura stopped her story and looked at Emma to gauge her reaction. She nodded at what she saw before continuing.

"They had been trying to get home to explain to me what had happen. It turns out the guy that had answered the phone at my mum's place had been a lawyer. If you don't know Yumi's my adopted sister. It turns out her birth father was trying to get visiting rights or something like that. The only time the lawyer could see my mum with out being harassed by photographers or reporters was to act like they where together on dates or something of the sorts. They never told me or Yumi cause they didn't want us getting worried about her dad." Sakura took in a breath of air and seemed to look into space as if she where seeing things that weren't there.

"You know Sakura you don't have to tell me all of this," Emma said softly after the girl hadn't spoken for several minutes.

"He drowns in his dreams An exquisite extreme I know He's as damned as he seems And more heaven than a heart could hold And if I try to save him My whole world would cave in It just ain't right It just ain't right" Sakura sang softly. Emma brows furrowed in confusion. As if the younger girl knew what she was thinking she answers the unasked question, "The song that's playing is Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson."

"Oh," Emma said softly.

"You know thanks for listening," Sakura said smiling for the first time sense Emma had come down the stairs.

Seeing that Sakura wasn't going to be telling her anything else Emma stood and made her way up the stairs, pausing when she got to the top to call back down, "If you ever need to talk my doors always open." Then with out waiting for a response she left the girl in her thoughts.

"So how was your first day?" Sakura asked Yumi later that night as they sat in the kitchen, Sakura with a new pack of cigarettes in front of her and Yumi eating a bowl of cereal.

"It was as good as any new school can be, got a semester project in my computer class that I'm not looking forward to," Yumi said with a shrug.

"Why? I though that was going to be your favorite class," Sakura asked snubbing out what was her fifth cigarette of the night.

"Yeah that was before I found out that Valkov was my project partner," Yumi said standing to get another bowl of cereal. While she was up she pressed the play on her CD player that was sitting on the counter by the box of cereal.

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

"Gee, that must suck seeing as you hate him for no real reason," Sakura teased the younger girl.

"Yeah well I'm going to see tomorrow if I can get my partner changed or something," Yumi shrugged, "So what had you all freaked out when school ended?" Yumi asked the question that had been on her mind all day.

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

Sakura sat silent for a moment inhaling deeply from her cigarette. It seemed like she was going to ignore the question so Yumi asked her about her day.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

"Woke up late cause Brooklyn shut off my alarm, had to fight with him to let me leave the bed then the shower, couldn't find anything to wear after Brook vetoed my first choose, said it was too sluttish, just made it to school for the middle of my third period class," Sakura exhaled the smoke before taking another drag, "Went to had a meeting with the principle, Mr. D who's way cool, so I missed fourth, went to fifth, had lunch met the resident bitch, had study hall agreed to help Miyami with Math, had resident bitch follow me around all day, met this way cool girl in my history class Amber Benson, and almost dislocated the same resident bitches shoulder cause she called mum a slut." Sakura finished giving Yumi a sideways glance.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

"Gees you had a worst day than me," was all Yumi said.

"Yeah well it was never a dull moment," Sakura shrugged.

"So how do you think she found out so fast who mum and dad where?" Yumi asked.

Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this line back

"Who the fell knows, I don't really care either I just want her to stay far away from me," Sakura said stubbing out her sixth cigarette and began work on her seventh.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

"Those things are going to be the death of you I swear it," Yumi said giving Sakura a dirty look as she lit the same cigarette.

"Ah well at least I can say I lived a well rounded life," Sakura said with a smirk as she watched the flames dance on her BIC lighter.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

"I'm heading up," Yumi said after a few minutes of watching Sakura watch the flames when she realized her sister was so engrossed in the flames she wasn't going to get much more of a conversation out of her.

"Yeah, night," Sakura said absently waving her hand over the flames with narrow eyes.

Who has to know
Who has to know

"Try not to burn anything down," Yumi called over her shoulder as she went up the stairs with her radio under her arm.

Standing Sakura grabbed a bowl from the dish drainer and a large glass of water with some paper towels and headed down to her own room.

Sitting cross legged on the floor Sakura dumped the water in the bowl followed by the paper towels and waited for them to be totally wet before she took the lighter and lit them on fire (5). Clearing a space on her desk she sat the bowl on the table before going around her room lighting random candles as she went.

Satisfied she stretched and stripped off her tee shirt and grabbed a pair of boxers before crawling into bed. Turning on her side she fell asleep watching the wet towels in the bowl burning.

(1) I do not do sex scenes plain and simple I may read them but I don't write them at all, I wont say the thoughts don't go though my mind but I refuse to put them on paper.

(2) She has nine periods; I have ten though I only have eight classes that mean some people don't get out till about 4 when Sakura gets out at 2:30.

(3) I can remember the actually name to the school that Miyami went to in Alexander so I made up a name.

(4) je suis désolé mean I'm am grieving but in I cant remember the word for sorry so that's the best that I could do

(5) I wouldn't advising leaving anything burning all night at all. And yes no matter how wet something is it can still burn it just takes a great deal of time.

Ending Comments: This took me so long to do its not even funny. I not really happy with it but its better than the original one that I did. Actually I lied I am happy with this, the only thing I don't like is the scene with Madison and Sakura there's just something off about it too me I don't know maybe its me. that and it seems that it happen way to fast but either way it had to happen or else it'd mess up the next chapter. Oh well I got a new fic coming out soon. Really when I get off my ass and type the third chapter lol but on a serious note look for it out around the start of school for me (September 8th) its called Welcome to My World. Oh and Chronicles of Darkness: Part Two should be out around the same time.