okies, next chapter! im gonna try a song fic here, it might not work, so be warned...
I think ill redo chapter 2 as a non songfic after this is done, thanks to a recomendation from a reviewer whose name i sadly cannot remeber right now, sorry!
words:terra's thoughts/story
words:words to song
Disclaimer:I don't own Teen Titans or the song Whisper
I sit here in Raven's room, gently turning the pages of an ancient book. Her music flows from the stereo and fills the room. Why am I with Raven you wonder? Because she's the one who came to my door to make sure I was alright. She was the first one to show she cared. For as long as I live inthis tower, I shall never forget what that meant to me.
Catch me as I fall,
Say your here and it's all over now.
I look up at her to find that she had been watching me. She gave a small smile and I forced a smile back. Astatue in the corner falls over and she blushes, I laugh, I've grown used to it. I look back to the book, but my thoughts haunt me. Raven had given me a genuine smile, and I, Terra, had to force it. I knew why. Beast Boy. I loved him. I knew she did too. He was stuck in the middle, he cared for both of us. Raven had never admitted it, but I knew. I didn't want her to admit it. When she did, we would start fighting over him. I'd be left alone again.
Speak into the atmosphere,
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into maddness,
Right now I didn"t know what I would do without Raven's friendship. I concentrated back on the book. A story of love, why did she have this? It was so beautiful. But it was something I could never hope to have without losing my best friend. What if I just let Raven have him? Then I would be alone, but hey, I'd still have her friendship, right?
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away,
If I will it all away.
It was getting late, I closed the book and said goodbye to Raven. She looked up from her book and waved. I wandered down the hallway, feeling almost lost. I spotted Beast Boy about ten feet away from me, his back turned. I called to him and he turned around. I ran to him and threw my arms around his neck. I couldn't bear the thought of giving him up.
"Beast Boy, please, don't ever, ever leave me." I knew he had no idea what I was talking about, but he stroked my hair all the same.
"I won't, I promise," he whispered in my ear. I started to cry. I just couldn't belive him.
Don't turn away, don't give into the pain,
Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes, God knows what lies behind,
Don't turn out the lights, never sleep never die.
He walked me back to my room where I spent the rest of the night staring out my window. My mind wandered to endless possibilities, random things that could happen. None of them really made sense, but they all seemed like they could happen. I lifted a stone from outside and brought it in my window. It landed in my hand and I ran my fingers over it. My thoughts continued to take advantage of me.
I'm frightened by what I see but somehow I know that there's much more to come,
Immobilized by my fears, and soon to be blinded by tears.
I drifted into uneasy sleep. My thoughts continued to haunt me. Dreams, terrible dreams that I could not escape. I knew I was dreaming as dark shapes surrounded me. They were like Raven's magic, overtaking everything. I wanted to wake up, I know I could, but then I saw him. Beast Boy, trapped in a black claw and Raven smiling evil behind him. I reached up toward him and he reached back toward me, but the Raven stepped into his veiw. He held out a hand to her and she lowered him. Tears formed in my eyes as they moved closer and closer together. She fell into his arms and he held her close. It was all I could do to keep watching, I tried to wake myself. Raven turned to me and two pairs of red eyes bore into me. She smiled in trimuph, she had taken the only things I had left to hold onto. I woke up and sat bolt upright in my bed, cold sweat dripping down my face.
"Beast Boy." My voice was a whisper.
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away,
If I will it all away.
Don't turn away, don't give into the pain,
Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name,
Don't close your eyes, God knows what lies behind,
Don't turn out the lights, never sleep never die.
Alright, I've got the songfic out of my system. Now I'm going to rewrite this chapter as a non'songfic, so chapter three is going to be this same thing again-sort of. Sorry about all the confusion I must be causing!